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aliljaded 53F
23778 posts
11/7/2023 5:55 am
Our Story (A Poem)

The bed at the center of it all–
the way you never felt like a stranger,
Instead like someone, I had forgotten, like
a part of myself I had dropped in some
distant city delivered
back to my door.

Our story,
a pipe dream in three parts–
My bedroom, the place where everything
came together, and the place where everything
fell apart.
There are still echoes of us
in the bed frame, the closet, and the drywall.
I keep your dignity on the bookshelf;
I figure you’ll come looking for it, eventually.

It always comes back
to here.
The only sanctuary I have ever known
still smells like you, sometimes.
just when I think I’ve gotten you
out of the pillowcases,
I find your cologne on the walls.
I remember when you came apart in pieces
on the carpet, and I will never be able
to wash the heartbreak out of the floors.

Someday,
I will leave our story behind, in this city.
This apartment will be barren and then
it will be full of other people.
None of them will know our names;
they will track over our history like
re-recording over old videotapes.
I won’t miss you.

Or I will miss you,
but I’ll have bought a new mattress:
one that doesn’t know how you twitch in your sleep.
I will have a new bedroom and the floorboards
won’t know how to moan your name
like I do.
and we’ll fall asleep
in different beds,
in different cities.

And if I wake up from dreams
that still taste like you,
I can take comfort in the fact
that even though you have kissed me,
you have never kissed me
here.

~Caitlyn Siehl


"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:48 pm

Thank you.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:48 pm

    Quoting FleetingThoughts:
    "echoes of us"

    I like that... The repeating reminder of what once was. Continually diminishing but evoking those memories in a bittersweet melancholy with each visit.
That sounds about right.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:45 pm

    Quoting uncommon1:
    We relegate parts of ourselves
    to the shadow of someones
    else's heart and mind . .
    They cannot be reclaimed. The
    peace you seek, you must pay
    for with pieces of your strength.


"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:45 pm

So do I ... So do I.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:44 pm

    Quoting likeithot19:
    From her words we feel
    what went astray
    not how
    but know a trail was left
    always reminders...
    I like it too!
Exactly . I'm glad you enjoyed it.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:43 pm

    Quoting BillywildMartin:
    Thank you for sharing, aliljaded, can feel the hurt in this writer's words, and then, the appeasement and contentment of the efforts put forth of 'moving on' from the relationship that was lost...very moving.
Thank you. She is one of my favorite writers.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:42 pm

    Quoting heatedcorrosion:
    Melancholia my most faithful mistress. All other lovers leave, fade away, or become betrayers.
    I know her, her melancholia, my only true lover.

    What is the title of the book this is from.
The book is called "What We Buried "By Caitlyn Siehl

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:41 pm

    Quoting boh99:
    poetry lends itself to sadness... we write of what breaks our hearts, pour our pain into words... and afterwards smile for a bit for we no longer need to write
Exactly.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:40 pm

    Quoting Dreamcatcher__:
    Hauntingly perfect. The story of an unforgettable love affair. She does capture the essence of life well.

    I'll have to find more of her writing.
Her name is Caitlyn Siehl. The book is called "What We Buried"

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/9/2023 7:39 pm

Thank you.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”


BillywildMartin 73M

11/9/2023 8:30 am

BTW, we all know you meant'POEM'...


Dreamcatcher__ 87M
7021 posts
11/7/2023 12:43 pm

Hauntingly perfect. The story of an unforgettable love affair. She does capture the essence of life well.

I'll have to find more of her writing.


boh99 68M
3154 posts
11/7/2023 10:14 am

poetry lends itself to sadness... we write of what breaks our hearts, pour our pain into words... and afterwards smile for a bit for we no longer need to write


heatedcorrosion 56M

11/7/2023 9:38 am

Melancholia my most faithful mistress. All other lovers leave, fade away, or become betrayers.
I know her, her melancholia, my only true lover.

What is the title of the book this is from.


BillywildMartin 73M

11/7/2023 8:40 am

Thank you for sharing, aliljaded, can feel the hurt in this writer's words, and then, the appeasement and contentment of the efforts put forth of 'moving on' from the relationship that was lost...very moving.


likeithot19 62M
6054 posts
11/7/2023 8:10 am

From her words we feel
what went astray
not how
but know a trail was left
always reminders...
I like it too!


drmgirl622 68F  
26107 posts
11/7/2023 6:39 am

I love this!


uncommon1 66M  
1434 posts
11/7/2023 6:37 am

We relegate parts of ourselves
to the shadow of someones
else's heart and mind . .
They cannot be reclaimed. The
peace you seek, you must pay
for with pieces of your strength.


FleetingThoughts 48M

11/7/2023 6:21 am

"echoes of us"

I like that... The repeating reminder of what once was. Continually diminishing but evoking those memories in a bittersweet melancholy with each visit.


Just My $0.02... Take it for what it cost you...

~FleetingThoughts~
A Place For Fleeting Thoughts


Artschoolgrad 47M
8707 posts
11/7/2023 6:20 am

lovely


aliljaded 53F
8926 posts
11/7/2023 5:58 am

I love this writer. She writes life so beautifully.

"Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”



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