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Interacting with the "wall"! And that with personal willpower you may be able to get into control. It is easy to find you're on the wrong path ,and your mind is not on your side. I'd been perusing a market on the look out for anything interesting and found a box off assorted books that looked promising. I was told I had to take the lot, which included stuff I wasn't into, but that's okay, so I did take them all. It was a little cutting that a collection of school books from about the sixties was in there and I could see from the name spread over them that this was a persons life. Now just tossed away for a dollar or two. It is what they fed into the wall to make a gain perhaps. I had a peep at what was on offer, some early pics of farming and how the earth worked with geology, geography, science and maths. Everything I missed by dropping out. OMG, maths , why would you learn that? But I did find it rewarding to dwell on the problems and it really took me to some other state of mind. I'd heard that schizophrenics had an advantage with maths and maybe that it was absorbing that it would give you an escape. Like meditation I thought so I found it to be a 'fix' that I longed for. Quadratic equations and the calculus theorem.. Some proof of pi, and a notion of infinity. That the universe was not big enough for some numbers. Another loop hole I thought, that when it came down to it there was proof of 'illfitting' componentry stuck together to make it work. There was something bigger going on here but no one was offering a solution. No rule existed as to why the universe started or expanded in such a precise way. But that came after this students school years. I wondered what end they met, as it looked like there school books were tossed aside as no more than an inconsequential failure. But back to the wall, understanding that and how to control it was very interesting to me. That probably we all had the potential to be savants, brilliant in the way we used our minds. In control ,importantly instead of the other way around. Where a personality made rash poor choices and thrived on narrow minded things. If you were above that then maybe you'd find yourself on your own. Working to higher ideal. I just started watching the movie "gifted" again. I love that movie! I was reshaping my mind with meditation, maths and music and it turned out I stumbled on something. I'd decided to do each day the same way starting first thing with a meditation session. Wake up coffee and toast and meditation. I chose a white bubble to be my place, nothing in it but I knew the aggravating forces that lay behind it. I done the same for about 3 to 4 months as I remember and then one morning I woke up missing a step, finding that I'd woken up already in my white hole. Now in one piece ! I opened my eyes and saw that everything looked in place. I was shocked to see that. But I did still have the 'creatures of habit' paraphernalia that was my mind. It would take work to reshape that. I'd got into a habit of waking up early morning about 4ish to peruse the net for anything interesting that I'd be happy to have in the wall. Understanding the wall and dissecting the way it worked. I thought if I could find the key to unlocking it the way I'd escaped schizophrenia then I could have the genius mind I imagined. Keep doing that first thing in the morning then waking up in a new space ! But would I lose my social interactivity, and be the way that I'd seen savants to be? Vulnerable! in one sense, high functioning in another. Able to count six packs of cards and win at Blackjack !, One of my ideas, a truly shocking realization is that maybe certain races had blindsides built into their minds from an ancient point of separation when it had occurred an that allowed them to be manipulated, abused, like wind up toys sent off to battle. A plaque that diminished their brain function. Somewhere along the line of their great ascention through time faced a period where only the 'affected' were allowed to breed, or some other thing and we could point to that and say this is where the 'break' happened and now it was black and white what the problem was. A whole race full of 'thick heads' who got sent into a meatgrinder. Is that God's plan. Some point to wars that way as necessary 'shapers' to find a different path. I propose an easy adoption of pleasant music to hasten that change. We shape new battlelines that way. The harsh cruelty of the controlling megatypes who seek to own and control everything, and the emerging 'Earther' who see the beauty of the world and how a gentle touch is needed when interacting with it. Personally it is my new high ! The more I ask from it the more I get. I see what makes a good life. What should be aimed for!           Imagine my surprise when I found out that my opinion actually mattered!  |
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Things they never taught you in school.   Imagine my surprise when I found out that my opinion actually mattered!
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Yanni is very handsome and talented musician. His relationship with Linds Evans was a very public affair. The music he makes is very ethereal.
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Yanni is very handsome and talented musician. His relationship with Linds Evans was a very public affair. The music he makes is very ethereal. Imagine my surprise when I found out that my opinion actually mattered!
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music is both very spiritual very primal very personal very moving very emotional to everyone individually it comes from all places it has no origin other then melodic sound of any kind fashioned into beats chords bars rthymns verses chorus solos that over take you enlighten you make you feel pain joy sorrow laughter…music is life the language of life!
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music is both very spiritual very primal very personal very moving very emotional to everyone individually it comes from all places it has no origin other then melodic sound of any kind fashioned into beats chords bars rthymns verses chorus solos that over take you enlighten you make you feel pain joy sorrow laughter…music is life the language of life! Imagine my surprise when I found out that my opinion actually mattered!
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