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My Bigness My bigness... I have always been big, the biggest friend, biggest in my class, always so I have had the just stop eating, just use some will power. ALLLLL the name calling, bullying all my life, it scarred me. It was beaten into my head that because I am fat I am somehow less... So you can imagine how my dating life has been, basically non existent, in fact I had never been on an actual date until this past year and even then my sister came with me to meet a "Dom".... April of 2018 I thought I had met a man who loved me who loved my bigness. We meshed well. Turns out not. He in the end hurt me like everyone else so my trust factor is minus 0 right now....... But I have been receiving compliments from men who like my bigness. I have been seeing positive comments on pictures of brave large women shaped like me. I mean men love the big heavy belly, the long big boobs, the large thighs, big butt. These comments have switched something in my brain, I AM worth true love, I AM worth more than fuck buddy status, I AM worth more than a side piece. more than being gullible and being torn and ripped asunder by catfish. I AM a damn good woman, I have so much love to give. Trick will be to know a dam good man when he comes along. Trust is an issue for sure. I really don't want to end up the lonely, crazy cat lady because I wasn't able to open my heart again. So i'm beginning to see I need to learn how to accept compliments. I need to accept my bigness, learn to be more selective in who I open up to,I need to throw away the rose colored glasses that keep me blind. Words truly hold little meaning, actions tell the true story. To my fellow big girls there is nothing wrong with you, you are NOT less than because you're big. One of my favorite Maya Angelo quotes is... "If someone shows you who they really are, believe them, the first time"...... Trust your guts, they will never steer you wrong.... You are the architect of your own unhappiness.... Time to build some sunshine. -acquiescence/LadyPayne 2018 |
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3/12/2020 1:28 pm |
Believe in what you say. Attitude is everything! 😊
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3/12/2020 1:53 pm |
Wanna chat sometime?
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1 post 4/29/2020 2:11 am |
i love bbws! thats all I look for. There is nothing sexier that a bigger girl comfortable in her own skin
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you also write very well.... don't forget the big cup of tea. Cheers!!
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