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6/8/2023 3:55 am

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ExNameForUse 53F

5764 posts
6/8/2023 3:56 am

“All the world's a stage and most of us are desperately unrehearsed”
Sean O'Casey

GothEis 55M

3120 posts
6/8/2023 4:05 am

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:35 am:

jenny14 75T

90348 posts
6/8/2023 4:15 am

Ex

I am sending a warm hug!

It is so sad when a child leaves even for great reason like your son has!

That book , as you say, is excellent!

I hope your mood lifts soon....

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. George Bernard Shaw

Jenny

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:38 am:
It really was a mixture of various feelings with regards to my son's trip, dear Jenny... he will always be just my kid

We were in touch during the day and that calmed me down a bit.
Thank you for your always kind words, dear Jenny.

brandygirasol 55T

9432 posts
6/8/2023 4:16 am

I wish all the best for your son My Dear Ex💋.... ❤️HUGS❤️

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:38 am:
Thank you, thank you so much, my dear Brandy ❤❤❤

Artschoolgrad 47M

8705 posts
6/8/2023 5:33 am

sending hugs your way. expectations are always hard—nothing ever quite meets them

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:43 am:
Thank you, Arty... you are a dear friend, I really appreciate your kindness... hugs are welcomed and sent back to you in return

drmgirl622 68F

26104 posts
6/8/2023 6:30 am

Life continues to teach us lessons......

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:50 am:
You know me by now, dear Dreamy... I suffer from incurable weakness when it comes to my son... that love is maybe the meaning I look for and what keeps me going besides all other failures.

subaline 28F

23 posts
6/8/2023 6:52 am

I recently read somewhere about betrayal and other such human behavior's. And the question was asked why God could even allow this to happen, in his endless wisdom and love.

I think we all come here in this world with the honest intention to learn something. And this world is perfect in that sense that it offers us exactly the right circumstances to learn these things we hoped to overcome. It may seem crude and harsh, but from a different angle of view it is exactly perfect.

One of the things I believe I need to learn, is that no matter how crushing something like betrayal or any other nasty behavior may feel, it is not able to destroy us as there is a lot more to each of us than just this little ego we are usually identifying with.

I wish you all the strength to find your inner core and feel that it is what really matters and nothing in this world ever can even scratch at this, as it is so much stronger than anything else.

And I always have also a sad feeling when someone departs, no matter how positive it really is for them to do exactly that. It's normal I think and in the case of your own son even more so. You love him and want him to be successful, but in some ways he always will also remain your little boy that looked up at you and believed in you as being his entire world. It's ok to have these feelings, treasure them as they show you that you are alive. Just don't let them dictate your actions. But I don't think that is any danger with you.

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:51 am:
Thank you very much for stopping by, and taking the time to read and comment.
You are very kind, thank you.

bdsmDOMdaddy 61M

4159 posts
6/8/2023 6:54 am

Ex l believe the purpose of life is to live learn love laugh appreciate experience & grow...do unto others as you want them to do unto you turn the other cheek learn temperance humility & to know love yourself!
your home IS your sanctuary safe haven from the outside world make it full of glimmers that make you shimmer!

you are in a cocoon stage now transforming into a butterfly to fly free happy & pollinate love!
natural to feel sad w your son leaving but you raised him to succeed be on his own...tell him to check out Hamburg!
I hope your vacation was full of dancing sorry it rained but they bring flowers...demons need a monster to unleash & tame them!
have a great day girl!

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 10:55 am:
BDD, you are so kind, thank you very much for all your thoughts and suggestions.
'Cocooned' is a lovely word and brings back some warm dear memories.. thank you...

likeithot19 62M

6049 posts
6/8/2023 7:35 am

Think of your son leaving as an excuse to go visit Germany. It is a beautiful country. Although the first date for this year has passed, june 3rd, there are two other dates, july 8th and September 2nd When the town of Heidelberg has the Heidelberg Castle illuminations and fireworks
https://www.heidelberg-marketing.de/en/event/heidelberg-castle-illuminations
A fun time!
I built my house myself. to raise my family in.
After the divorce, it did not seem like a home to me for many years
Then I started thinking how much work I put in to build it, and it is a pretty nice place, that I am falling back i n love with due to the accomplishment of it all
and it is a nice place, in a nice place...

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 1:53 pm:
I was thinking of visiting him in July, the second half of July... just for a day or two, spending some time having lunch, and walking around, as he will probably be busy... will check with Wizzair and Airbnb, to see if it can be arranged... I have checked this Heidelberg event site and it does look like something worth visiting... it is 6 and a half hours by train from where my son is, a bit far away, but it is a good idea for a Summer weekend escape anyhow, thank you!
With regard to this place, my new home, I still struggle to feel it as such. I have built a home somewhere else, where my son is still living, and from where I moved out here. Every little thing has been left there, and I moved in here in an empty place with a suitcase and a few boxes, and my corner unit for a lounge.
When I am not over-emotional I can see clearly that I did build another home, all that I have now here is what I did alone, from decoration, walls, facets, and necessary furniture all around, to new plates, glasses, forks, spoons, knives, ... I have started all over again at my 51... I know I should be proud, and satisfied... and most of the time I am... it is a nice and cozy colourful bright place... and time will make it only more mine as it goes by

grywolf2 73M

3106 posts
6/8/2023 8:38 am

To me, your posts seem to emphasize a remarkable ability to meet head-on and deal with the unfortunate ups and downs of life.

Besides that, you keep an eye out to catch and enjoy glimmers some never see.

ExNameForUse replies on 6/8/2023 1:55 pm:
Thank you... I certainly will do that, searching and finding glimmers inside and out

lighthouse4297 56F

1680 posts
6/8/2023 8:37 pm

Hello, my friend, my mom used to tell me that "life is a banquet, and most people are starving to death". Life is to be enjoyed not to look for demons. There are enough in the world that you find at your doorstep. Please try and enjoy your vacation. It may not be what you envisioned but take the time. Warm hugs to you xox L

ExNameForUse replies on 6/9/2023 12:17 am:
Thanks for the warm hugs, L! Your mum's wise words are so true... Sending warm hugs to you, dear friend


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