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The grass is NOT greener on the other side... Of course I have to rewrite this in comments... Because alt doesn't care what it deletes anymore... Have you been there before? Wondering what it would be like with someone else? Evaluating or comparing their relationship to yours... I have learned some valuable lessons this last week.. And while I still want attraction and connection, I understand there is more to D/s than that. I yearn for my Dom to have substance, ethics, character, empathy and the ability to love me, as I will love him... I want the Dom I can count on if I get sick. Who will tell me, don't cry , we will figure it ... This is what my ex Dom ended up with... His sub... Was always in heels. Would be with another woman while he was in the room watching. Has had a lift and breast surgery. Won't admit to either. Spends $500 on month on hair extensions because her hair is so thin. Expects you to shop and her shit even though you are sick or in pain, because she's afraid of getting covid. Drinks like a fish, least a bottle of whatever, everyday. Get's sloppy drunk every night, and says mean and nasty things to you when you are together. She won't ride in your truck. She won't help you move, say's.. I don't do moving.... Tells you that you don't have cancer. That it's a scam to take your ... Won't visit you in the hospital, when allowed... Won't learn how to dress your wounds... Drops you off when you have a temperature of 4... And not the hospital.... When you are lying on the floor in pain, she asks you to get up to get her something.. Tells you, "I want you to be like you used to be"! WTF kind of sub is this???? How would you feel if your Dom chose her over you?? This was my idea of taking care of my Dom when he got sick... Being with him when he was diagnosed with cancer... Taking him to outpatient surgery while his cancer port was installed. Traveling back and forth with him to the Mayo Clinic in Phoenix, when we lived in NM. Waiting through a 9 hour surgery with him, and making decisions on his organs in the middle of the operation... Emptying bags of drainage and blood from both his sides, after the operation, because he was so weak... This is what you do for someone you love! I had him healthy for 5 years before he became sick... And damn we had some great times! But after years he chose to walk away from our life... Because he just knew the grass was greener on the other side. And once he realized how superficial and uncaring of a sub she really was, he was to sick to do anything about it. So he took all her bullshit... Because it was still better than being alone... Ohhh I could go there if I wanted to... But honestly, it just made sad that his last weeks and days were with such a miserable, conniving, bitch! ~ Physical strength is measured by what we carry. Inner strength is measured by what we can bear. ~ |
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He choose what he chose. It is sad, but when you make a leap, it may be in the shallow end. "One Big Sky Covers Us All Equally"
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Have you been there before? Wondering what it would be like with someone else? Evaluating or comparing their relationship to yours... I have learned some valuable lessons this last week... And while I still want attraction and connection, I understand there is more to D/s than that. I yearn for my Dom to have substance, ethics, character, empathy, and the ability to love me as I love him... I want the Dom I can count on if I get sick.. Who will tell me, don't cry baby, we will figure it out... This is what my ex Dom ended up with... His sub.... Always wore high heels... Would be with another woman while you were in the room watching... Has had a face lift and breast surgery. Won't admit to either.. Spends $500 a month on hair extensions because her hair is so thin. Expects you to shop and buy her shit even though you are sick or in pain. Because she does not want to get covid. Drinks like a fish, a bottle of whatever, at least, everyday. Gets sloppy drunk every night, and says mean and nasty things to you when you are together. She won't ride in your truck. She won't help you move. says... I don't do moving... Tells you that you don't have cancer. That it's a scam to get your money. Won't visit you in the hospital, when allowed. Won't learn how to dress your wounds... Drops you off when your temperature is 104. And not at the hospital... When you are lying on the floor in pain, she asks you to get up, to get her something. Tells you " I want you like you used to be"! WTF kind of sub is this???? How would you feel if your Dom chose her over you?? This was my idea of taking care of my Dom when he got sick.... Being with him when he was diagnosed with cancer.. Taking him to outpatient surgery while his cancer port was installed.. Traveling back and forth to radiation appointments at the Mayo Clinic in Phoenix, when we lived in NM. Waiting through a 9 hour operation with him, and making decisions on his organs in the middle of the operation. Emptying bags of drainage and blood from both his sides, after the operation, because he was so weak... I had him healthy for 5 years before he became sick.. And damn we had some great times... But after 11 years he chose to walk away from our life... Because he just knew the grass was greener on the other side... And once he realized how superficial and uncaring of a sub she really was he was to sick to do anything about it. So... He took all her bullshit... Because it was still better than being alone. Ohhh I could go there if I wanted to... But honestly, it just made me sad that his last weeks and days were with such a miserable, conniving, bitch! ~ Physical strength is measured by what we carry. Inner strength is measured by what we can bear. ~
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3/13/2021 7:28 pm |
If you think the grass is greener on the other side of the fence . . . Your not watering your own grass enough.
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The grass will only be greener until the next drought.....
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pac Some people just do NOT know when they have something of REAL value  A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. George Bernard Shaw Jenny
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It sounds like his choice fucked you both more than words can say. I have never left one person for another or ever cheated. Even when my vanilla wife was cheating on me. I cannot say I ever envied anyone because when I am with the right submissive woman.....Nothing else matters. There is no upgrade to be had in anyway. No other feeling any greater. Sad that people get treated that way when it seems like all it takes sometimes is picking up a phone......... I will blow your mind like a verbal John Wilkes Booth
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3/14/2021 4:36 am |
I believe you are confusing greener with different. I have had slaves for years and they lose their appeal and utility after a while. The lone exception was the one I branded for life. The rest did serve a purpose and have qualities and attributes that met my appetites and beyond; but sometimes you just need to change restaurants. You need variety in Dungeon to keep it alive and anew in the way the Marquise did. A true professional Dom must accept their appetites and the Dungeon they build. You write from your world perspective only. You have no way of knowing with absolute certainty what his motives were. Be respectful and grateful for the one whom you served for five years.
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