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Gone... But Not Forgotten! It was one year ago today that my ex-Dom died. After a long battle with cancer. While we were not together at the time of his death. It didn't change the amount of hurt pac felt. My emotions have been like a roller coaster the last few days. With pac not knowing if she was going t o laugh or cry. Letting her sadness influence her feelings and thoughts when interacting with others. Being careless with words that have offended one living within six miles from her. Isn't it funny that the majority of the time you only focus on the positive thoughts of your ex D/s relationship. But yeah... pac is ok with that today. So... it was very freaky when pac was paired with a couple from Boise, Idaho on the golf course yesterday. My ex went t o the University there, got his Bachelors degree, and had lot's of fun partying and tying woman up! pac laughed with this delightful and wonderful couple the whole afternoon. And had a great time on the golf course as she forgot about her sadness for a few hours. At girl talk afterwards, while sharing a cocktail with my sub friend. She goes "doesn't the universe work in strange ways"? Yeah... it really does! Thanks for the years we had together Robert! You will always hold a special place in my heart and pac will never forget you!  ~ Physical strength is measured by what we carry. Inner strength is measured by what we can bear. ~ |
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During the good times!  ~ Physical strength is measured by what we carry. Inner strength is measured by what we can bear. ~
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3/10/2022 4:28 am |
That is very beautiful. It is written from the heart and thank you for sharing.
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we are in the same boat in a manner of speaking. I lost my Mistress/Wife of 27 years to cancer in December of 2019. When I hit the 1 year without her mark I was ready to give up looking. But at 2 years ( on the anniversary of her death ) I had my first session with my new Mistress and it has been incredible. Happiness has returned to my life and I now have a reason for living.
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sorry for your loss Pac l recently lost my mom & my dad passed when l was in HS time for you to celebrate his life l think your almost there thou the pain never leaves!
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Truly sorry for your loss, pac. He continues to live as long as he is remembered.
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Boise, Idaho? It is a small world, isn't it?  At a time like this, it's natural for you to reflect. The happy moments are the ones to concentrate on. Sorry for your loss. Make Women Female Again
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The universe does gives what we need at just the right moment!
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glad you had some fun! memories can be hard things sometimes but also beautiful
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Sorry pac. Keep them memories alive. Those we've lost can always be a thought away.
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My deceased friends and relatives often visit me in my dreams, which is nice. May you be so lucky, but if not, keeping them in your heart is the next best thing.
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A great picture, pac. Yes, the pain will get lighter, is my experience, his beingness will always be with you, as a memory.... a certain feel..... The good, the bad and the ugly, is all part of living our lifes....
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Touching and heartbreaking and at the same time heartwarming as you have been lucky to spend years with your Dom. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and emotions, Pac. In the end, we are all just humans.
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Sorry for your loss pac. Hope you can focus on rememberiing the good times & remember with foundness. It sounds like you do. Still a Bachelors degree in tying women up. Impressive! Obviously an educated man.
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pac It is wonderful to remember the good times but grief never leaves... A warm hug and Thanks for sharing these personal thoughts and moments! A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing. George Bernard Shaw Jenny
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Regarding sleep issues, ever since I started sleeping with a custom-made mouthguard to protect my teeth from clenching and grinding, I sleep deeper and have greater recollection of REM dreams. If you don't have a mouthguard, you might want to try one; ask your dentist. One caution - it makes the nightmares more "real" too, and you never know what your brain's going to dial up for you. Brain: "Hey - I know what he needs - a jolt of adrenalin so he can crush those alien shapeshifters!" Me: "No...please don't...aw crap...."
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