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i may wait my whole life without meeting a man who i want to be with and who wants to be with me in the same way. sure, i meet plenty that i'd like to get to know. but it is rare that they seem to share the sentiment, or that it pans out in any way. and yes, i know that some would be eager to be with me, but usually their motivations are shallow. they don't want ME, they want anyone. i am passed the point in my life where i can have sex without feeling emotions...becoming bonded to him. life was easier when i could just date, and fuck, and not care so much about it all. if it turned into a fling, a relationship, or remained a one night stand...it didn't matter so much. ****** and yet, i still have needs and wants and desires. i try to be strong and make good choices. since my emotions are caught up in the physical, i really can not afford to make bad choices. ****** i play, non-sexually, and in the safest ways that i can. i keep my guard up and my boundaries high. in this way, i can get a bit of that itch scratched. but it is all surface level. it helps, but not enough. ******* what do i do? maybe these thoughts are coming up now that i am transitioning from having good, satisfying sex once a week to none, again. it had been so long that i had forgotten that i still can get turned on...that i still can want, crave and need sex. sadly, the price for the last six months was heartbreak, a sense of misplaced time and wasted resources, a missing sense of purpose, and now these damn withdrawals....!!! i had forgotten, or, learned to live without. learned to live as a starving woman. ****** in time, i will relearn. i will get what satisfaction i can, in the safest manner possible. i will try to stave off the needs and the loneliness in whatever ways that i can. i will again learn to live as a starving woman, perhaps in time i will forget what it feels like to be full.
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That's pretty much my situation too. It's hard, but we just go on...
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2/27/2024 12:38 pm |
jst keep on keeping on
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Reading your post was like a breath of fresh air. Your words encapsulated exactly what I've been feeling for years but have struggled to put into words. Your ability to articulate your thoughts so clearly and honestly is truly inspiring. Thank you for sharing your story, and bringing attention to such an important issue. "Men need to hunt. She obviously understands this. She’s offering herself as prey. Not easy prey. But willing.”
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