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Sissy Husband So, let me back up. I've been married 20 years. But soon after our wedding, I realized that sex was not going to be quite like I expected because of a few reasons. First, my wife was never much into sex, but yet, she could get into it and do it often enough, and she definitely did great with her mouth. The main problem was my dick size. I could tell she was often frustrated and confused and looking for a better position. But all my life, I've know that I have a tiny one. I mean, out of all of my friends, mine was the smallest. How do I know this? Because I've scoped out all of them at one point or another. Every single one has a real man dick. Mine is tiny, skinny, small head, and looks very underdeveloped. It's almost 3" at its largest. It's cute when hard, but tiny. Mine is smaller than every guy I've ever seen in the gym showers, or in the bathroom at the urinals. How do I know? Because I always look, even though you're not supposed to, and I'm always the wimpy one with a small wee wee. I can't believe it sometimes how much larger and manly these real men cocks look, with normal sized heads or sometimes huge ones. The head by itself is usually longer than my soft wee wee in its entirety. Because of my small cock, plus I'm omly 5' 6", I feel like a little sissy husband. I had always hoped that whoever I married wouldn't have been with many partners so that she wouldn't know exactly what she was missing. But it was just the opposite. About four years after we were married, and were struggling a lot with sex, she told me that her ex-husband was too big and that she would hurt the next day after sex! Too big? Oh my God! Too big, like 10" too big, OMG How humiliated it made me feel! That meant that she knew that I'm tiny! I would never be able to satisfy her. She also asked me if men's dicks grow bigger as they get older! I knew why she was asking. And it was so humiliating. I felt like a total sissy husband. And I realized her ex was a real man. She even told me that when they were breaking up, he would come over and want to have sex. She didn't want to, but would give in and let him do it to her. And she said "It made me so mad because my body would betray me, my hairless pussy would be wet before he touched me" Oh my gosh. I knew what she meant! She would have orgasms without even wanting to! Whereas with me, even when she wanted to, it was difficult or impossible. How humiliating! How big could his have been? Way too big? Turned my sweet wife into a cock loving slut! That was the day I decided that I needed to buy some panties and allow myself to feel like a gurly husband instead of a real man. I started shaving my lower half ever so often so that my panties would look good on me. I also thought that maybe with no hair over my tiny cock, it would look bigger. But I was wrong. It only made me look like a little boy down there. What a sissy! At this point early in the marriage, the only sex we ever had was when she made a move on me, mostly just because she felt we "need" to do it. She was never much into sex, but could enjoy it well enough. But I never could come on to her because I knew that she didn't really love my little "clitty". So I couldn't get hard until she touched me and sucked me. So, that made me always wait for her to make the first move, which she got tired of and wondered why I never did it. It was because I felt like a wimp. And I started going limp during sex, knowing that it wasn't pleasing her much and feeling like a sissy husband. Sometimes I could stay hard if I imagined her previous husband really giving it to her, and her getting juicy and screaming in ecstasy. Wow. I've never been able to do that to anyone! And other times I would just go limp and we'd have to stop. What a sissy. So, then began 9 years of no sex. I thought about it a lot, but always chickened out to make a move. And she stopped making the move altogether. So, no sex. Every week I'd get horny, and instead of just going to my wife to have sex, I'd run to play with my little clitty. I now like playing with my clitty more than having sex with a woman. I no longer feel like a real man, but only a sissy. I run to my computer and my little pocket vibrator, and I put my little clitty in the pocket and get myself hard, looking at sissy porn. Either shemales, or sissies with little dicks, or lesbian shemales, or sometimes guys touching dicks together, or guys sucking and humping. But always with cocks involved. I like cocks now better than pussy. I've always been a dick watcher. Guys in the shower at football practice, or the gym, or even in bathrooms. Every time I go to a public restroom I look over at the guys peeing next to me to see how big they are. And guess what. They are always bigger than me! I have the tiniest wee wee every single time! It's so humiliating, as I remember that I'm just a little 140 pound sissy man. I even look at men's crotches out in public to see what they're packing. What a little cock loving faggot I turned out to be, right? So, now, with no sex for so long, I just jack off like a little sissy boi. A lot of the time, I even rub it like a girl would, in circles, or up and down with palm down and two fingers. I've started even playing with my clitty while my wife sits next to me on the couch, about two feet over with my leg bent up a bit. I get horny and go put on my pink thong panties. Very discreetly so my wife doesn't see, I rub my little clitty like a girl for a while. Then I bring my hand up to my mouth and lick my hand to use my spit to rub myself, the whole time trying not to get caught. The other day I got close to cumming and began to decide whether to leave the room so she wouldn't see me shaking or something. But then I thought, No, since I'm such a sissy husband, I deserve to sit here and cum on myself and clean myself up. I felt so embarrassed and humiliated. And when the time came, I came in my hand. And did the unthinkable. I brought my hand up very slowly to my mouth, with my wife sitting there watching TV, and I licked all the yummy cum out of my hand. I wiped some of the extra off my soft clitty and licked that too. And I just kept sitting there watching TV, knowing that I'm the opposite of a real man. A real man would have just made his wife have sex. But not me. I just played with myself and made myself feel so good. About three months ago, my wife came onto me on the couch. I could tell she wanted to have sex, so I ran to the bathroom and took a little penis pill, which she doesn't know I have, so I could get it up with a woman without having to fight the mental side so hard. And we did it. We had sex twice that night on the couch, and afterward, she said "Wow, I'm proud of you. You got it up sissy boi." Oh my gosh. She's been thinking all these years that I can't get it up---that I'm a little weak wimp of a husband. How embarrassing. Also, while we were making out, she rubbed my smooth butt and exclaimed, "You need to stop shaving your butt. Men are supposed to have hair." I responded, "I'm not shaving it." Because it's permanently smooth from the laser removal. She said, "Oh, I guess men lose their hair as they get older, because you used to have hair." Did you catch that? I haven't had hair on my butt for 12 years, but she's not realized it. That's because she never touches me, doesn't look at me naked in the bathroom, and does not like my body.(I actually have a cute body: thin up top, short, but with really feminine legs---toned but skinny. My legs are so feminine that she makes fun of them. They look like girl legs, especially because they're smooth. From the waist down, I could pass for a girl, even with my little tiny clitty which fits perfectly inside my panties. The other thing I realized that night is that a few days prior that same week, her ex-husband had called her for the first time in 20 years, to talk about some nonsense business matter. She avoided him for a day or two, but finally decided to answer. And that was that. However, think about it! Out of nine years, the week she comes on to me is two days after speaking with her ex-husband, the real man with the real man's dick! That's too coincidental. She was obviously stimulated by the memories of her ex, the real man who used to make her feel good all over. And then there is me. I've turned into a total sissy boi. A gurl, really. I've been rubbing my little cock like a gurl clitty almost all the time. I've also been eating my own cum every time I play with it. Usually, I put my legs over my head and squirt onto my face and mostly in my mouth. In the past, I always thought about doing that but always chickened out after cumming. But now, I make myself do it because I'm so tiny and gay. One time I bought a flesh-textured penis extension thinking I might sneak it on while making love to my wife, like a surprise. But then I decided that she'd feel it and would freak out. I chickened out. And then guess what I started doing with the dildo extender. Yep...using it on myself. I had first touched my boi pussy before I was married, and had enjoyed that for a while. But never a dildo. The first time I used it, I was pumping myself slowly, all lubed up. Then I did it faster and was feeling so good. But it got so intense that my little dick went limp. I got on my knees and sat on the dildo and bounced up and down. I started bouncing really hard and fast. My limp clitty was flopping all over while I was bouncing on the dick like a woman. All of a sudden I started feeling an orgasm coming. I wasn't even touching my clitty, but I was about to cum. I thought oh no, I'm about to cum like a girl, just from having a man's dick inside me! I kept riding hard and fast and bam! My totally limp sissy dick started spraying cum all over me and all over the room, flinging cum droplets everywhere, flopping limp and flinging sissy cum all over! I couldn't believe it. I came from only having a dick inside me. It made me feel like a total woman. I knew that no real man would ever have done that. And I loved it. Afterwards, I looked online for limp dicks cumming like that and saw that there's a term for it---a analgasm. I had a analgasm! I think now I want to be with a man. I want a real man to make love to me. I want him to hold me, kiss me on the lips, and rub his big man dick on my tiny little boi dick. I want us to hump each other standing up, bouncing our dicks on each other. I want to sleep with the man, all night, in bed, nude, holding each other. I want to be romantic with a man, looking at each other in the eyes, rubbing each other, rolling around the bed together. I want the man to put his big meat inside my little hole. I want to feel it. I want him to fuck me like I'm a gurl. I want him to put my legs up with my little wee wee pointing toward my face. It will be so hard. I always get so hard when a man is inside me. I will probably cum without touching myself. I'll cum like a little sissy just from having a man go in and out of me. I want to then bounce up and down on the man's real man dick. I want to bounce and bounce and bounce like a woman, while my tiny clitty is flopping all over the place, having gone limp. My limp clitty will probably be flinging cum everywhere, flopping like a little tiny sissy limp dick while I ride the man. Then I hope he will come inside me so I can feel it. I want to be kissing him as he cums in me, really making love to him and making the man feel good like real men should feel. And he can cum all in me as we lay there kissing like lovers. That makes me gay. So gay. I want the cum to run down my legs after we get up. I want to remember that the real man has made me his gurlfriend. I want to go put my pink panties on now and refresh my makeup and lipstick, so the man can cuddle with me properly. I can no longer get hard for women. Because I'm a faggot. I am totally gay now. I am about to cum in my pants now at work. My office door is locked. I'm totally nude except for my thong panties. I'm rubbing my clitty through my panties, in circles, and also with palm down and 2 fingers. And I plan to eat my own cum after I squirt my little boi load in my panties. I am a real sissy husband. Right? |
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wow what a conundrum you’re in girl you’re total lil sissy faggot bitch now wanting cock yet married to woman (such a good lil sissy bitch you are too w your self training! I hope you get the cock you deserve want crave & need…too bad you’re in Cali not TX to finally become the girl you are!
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