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The Benedictine Monks of Santo Domingo de Silos - Chant #FreeKesha That was this post's original topic. Time spent on countless articles and tweets to find an objective opinion without instinctively taking a side. See "Afroman" for why that won't be happening. It's either a money or human's rights issue. What's a contract worth if there's nothing to lose? Personally I side with Kesha, but the third voice in my head is saying "meh" so it's immaterial and not worth noting. And now the actual topic is....forgotten. How long after you've stopped being yourself do you forget who you were? Placebo - Running Up That Hill Starting tomorrow I'm moving all my movie reviews, rants, and other insights to a facebook/twitter page called SeaGreen Cinephile. Various reasons for this but mainly because I'm starting to feel forgotten. When I did my Halloween marathon it seemed like I had purpose again, if only to try and bring back the feeling of fright into my life. Now most of anything I say is ignored while updated profile pics get a thousand likes, loves, and comments about how life altering it is. I don't consider myself a vain person, in fact I have very low self-esteem, but this seems to be something I'm good at and have fun doing. Truth be told my job is soul-crushingly monotonous and I'm losing sense of who I was before this path started. But my dad keeps saying I need to keep this job, and I have that mental block where I'd rather be a dial tone with a pitiful paycheck then be myself with no "real employment." I have to care about money and other people's material possessions now; this is my life. I used to look in the mirror and think about endless possibilities and scenarios. Today it's a mixture of boredom, fear, shame, and regret. But I have a job so I need to shut up; pity party for first world problems, hooray! Anyway....I'm starting my page with a Kubrick/Spielberg matchup and have several other lists written up. It's grasping at straws, I know, but I have to do something other than bitch and moan. The last few years have made me more cynical, pessimistic, and jaded than I used to be; I'm great at parties, though. So follow SeaGreen Cinephile on facebook and twitter "or do not; I am not a beggar." Ron Swanson. |
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