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the calm after the storm I a mild form of Tourette’s syndrome that has stayed pretty manageable most of my life. used take some pretty extreme situations manifest any symptoms, but I’ve been fighting off tics and verbal outbursts for as long as I can remember. Combine that with Misophonia and you get an easily (and highly) irritated person is trying keep himself under control, and , when he does outbursts, is quite irrational and dramatic. They are explosions that I a difficult time stopping, but at least they are typically brief, and I am able to get back to a place of calm and rationality fairly quickly. That detail right is something that concerns, or at the very least baffles my roommate though. Here’s a for instance; I spend a lot of time at my computer doing the thing, day after day. Everything will work fine, and then one afternoon something will go just a bit awry and I will lose my patience. My laptop, that performs the functions time and time again is suddenly having a problem, and my reaction is verbalize my frustration. I don’t yell, but I do sound as irritated as I feel. A few cuss words roll out of my mouth, then a few more, but that’s . I don’t slam my fist into walls or stomp my feet, and I don’t scream with rage, I just cuss my computer out. This venting allows me to keep that frustration from building and exploding in some less wonderful way. I cuss, and then I am back to calm. You might liken it to a roller coaster except those explosions are too few and far between. I’d them more like bumpy stretches or rough patches in the road. You get through them and then you the other side where the pavement is smooth again, and that’s when you settle down and get back moving forward, toward your destination. That’s how I at , and that’s mostly how manifests physically. I cuss, I calm down, and then I sometimes lightly sing or hum distract myself from dwelling on the negative. That’s about as healthy as I can get when comes these types of situations, and it’s that last part that my roommate says bothers her. The humming and singing. How can I go from grumbling “ you, you worthless piece of shit” at my laptop to humming like it’s a beautiful sunny day outside and everything is great with the world? I at this way; everyone handles stress and frustration differently, and this is my way. Some people grit their teeth or make a fist when they get upset, while others simply bury the feelings deep inside themselves. I know folks cuss, throw things, and completely give up in disgust. I found the healthiest thing for me do was verbalize, and then move on. So I bitch my laptop out, feel better, and lift my spirits with a tune. That calm after the storm or explosion is a good thing, isn’t ? I mean, short of making the storms stop, or at least lessening their intensity and severity, doesn’t that quick return to normalcy seem like a positive step in the right direction? As unsettling as I guess my mood swings can be, I suggest the alternative would be much less enjoyable. I don’t allow myself to sink or dwell, and if I did ’s no telling how that would physically manifest. I’m sure curse words would be the beginning.  |
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