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crashed and burned So I had what I thought was a brilliant idea, and I got myself so worked up over it, and so convinced it was going to be given the go ahead, that I don’t think I was fully prepared for<b> rejection. </font></b>I wouldn’t allow myself to consider it, up to and including the moment I was presenting it to my sex slave. The gist was that I wanted to escape my current living situation by kind of sort of moving into his place for a brief period of time. And by kind of sort of I mean I wanted to move into his place long enough to purchase the things necessary to make a go of it on my patch of land in Southern Oregon. I wanted to set up my geodesic dome in his back yard, test my equipment, work out the kinks and then get the heck outta there. Maybe it would only take two weeks, maybe a bit longer, but that was the basic idea. Alas, he could not accommodate me, so I’m not sure how things are going to proceed from here. The anxiety of knowing my plan was not going to pan out didn’t hit me until later in the evening, but when it did, it hit like a half ton of bricks. What this means, is that my timeline has changed drastically, but possibly for the better. I was desperate to get myself situated on the land I am purchasing, and now I may have no choice but to change that move-in date from April of next year to the 1st / first day of January. Moving to an isolated spot like this, with little or no knowledge of what I might be facing might seem foolhardy, because it is, but I am really down to no other options. It just means I have to adapt quickly and get my buns in gear when it comes to the research department. And with Black Friday coming I also need to start being on the lookout for deals to take advantage of, but I can’t do that if I haven’t decided what I need to buy, or at least what brand, model, etc. So there’s going to be a cramming session going on these next few days. I’ll hopefully learn a lot, and be able to take advantage of that knowledge during the sales, and the last few days of the year. Because after that it’ll be too late to order a refrigerator or decide which generator I need. There are roughly 40 / forty days left for me to get my act together in every way possible. That includes selling my car and purchasing a truck, packing all of my belongings and selling everything I can that I know I can’t keep. I never fancied myself a slave to my “things” - the things you own, own you - but after working so hard to find some of them I feel compelled to try and keep and enjoy them for just a bit longer. Mainly I’m talking about my book collection which, if I’m honest, is nearly pointless because I hardly have the time or patience to read anymore. That’s a shame, but so is lugging around 12 / twelve very heavy boxes of them every time I move. There are stories and characters in there that I want to meet again, but realistically, will I ever? It makes me sad to be making these considerations and concessions but all of it will hopefully lead me to a good place where the lack of books won’t offset the benefits of my surroundings. This is a very confusing, depressing, exhilarating moment right now. SO much is at stake but SO much is to be gained. This is the freedom I’ve always sought, but on a level I never thought possible. Did I envision myself in a geodesic dome when I thought about this in the past? No, but I am not the person I once was, and my desires and reasons for wanting to live “in the country” have changed over the years. What used to be romantic is now essential to my sanity. All the rest is just details I can figure out - or die trying.  |
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