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luciferzspawn 49M
38 posts
7/3/2014 7:18 am
The unseen pain

Here i gather my shields and build my walls...distractions and disguises....designed to veil the agony that truly lies within ones soul...how long can i defend...now ...as..slowly the claustraphobic hand of agony squeezes my throat..my cup of inner strength near drained..i seek the light ..the re-birth of what was once the true me...

cuzisaid 53F  
14988 posts
7/5/2014 10:17 am

 Little grains of truth and sand
Sometimes I make a move, sorry to leave my home, but hope I will find another of equal character.
At night I gaze at the starry mass with no idea to which one the earth attached.
May'be that cute little one over there or that one that sits alone in the inky black.
~~ 'My place amongst the stars' c/o former member SPB ~~


luciferzspawn 49M
37 posts
7/12/2014 11:02 pm

 Smiles thank you for reading my thoughts,and sharing a different perspective..be well...regards Luciferz


luciferzspawn 49M
37 posts
6/15/2017 8:42 pm

 I have looked to the stars all of my life looked up from the gutter im wa kicked into looked up when all hope was lost ..so mnay times i cannot recall..how many times must i raise my gaze before i feel anothers arms to help me ...do such?...


Blushinbutt 55F
5 posts
4/29/2019 9:40 am

 this post was just over 5 years ago, I pose the question. Have you found the rebirth of what was once the true you?
Or through your struggles have you created a better you?
It is a question that I ask myself on a regular basis also.

As I read your blogs I find myself wanting a pot of coffee on a comfy couch and an in depth conversation with you.

I feel I know where your mind goes, as mine has been known to go there to.


luciferzspawn 49M
37 posts
4/29/2019 3:38 pm

 Thank you once again for taking the time to read my thoughts....its nice to share and find out how others feel.Comforting somehow.Unfortunately i'm still in conflict still trying to re find my spark my inner soul again.Some hurt is irrepairable.But id never admit defeat ill keep trying.I adore deep conversation and i'm sure coffee and chat with you would be interesting.Take care and again thanks for sharing it is much appreciated.


Blushinbutt 55F
5 posts
5/2/2019 3:49 am

 hurt i believe is only irrepairable if we choose to let it be that way.
Hurt, pain, angst and a miriade of other emotions can take control and consume us if we let them. Take us down a path of sadness, dread, darkness a place where not only our mouth cant smile but neither can our heart or soul.
In moving forward, we cant just keep trying to change the outcome or the circumstance and no matter what tools we bring to the table to enhance our well being and state of mind, the struggle will remain until we accept, understand and lay to rest the pains of the past.
Hope to catch you soon for a chat.


luciferzspawn 49M
37 posts
5/4/2019 3:48 pm

 I have found some pain impossible to repair with those scars i tend to try and just accept them as part of who i am and live around them....and i'm unable to reply to mail here but would love to chat with you sometime...regards..Luc.



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