Feeling Overprotective tonight. 04/16/2015
|
Posted:Apr 26, 2015 1:52 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2024 12:8 am 26980 Views
|
Just got done chatting with Heather tonight, I had been worried about her today with things she is going through. She is doing well adjusting to things, but her personal life, well I try not to intrude.
I try to remember that those that do not grow up in the life, have a hard time. She seems to be more at ease that I would expect. But being a Daddy I get over protective of things in her life, someone hurts her, or whatnot, I get into one of those dangerous moods like I do with my own family when someone messes with them. Those dark places I hide from others seem to just be there begging to be released. I forgot how much I enjoyed those dark places, but swore never to let my see me that way, and I never go anywhere without one as a safety mechanism.
I am going to try to switch to a different sleep schedule for a while, That way I am awake when she is, instead of being just to bed when she is waking up. That and so I can spend more time with my little boys. I helped her today with her page, she has shown more Bisexual traits and I am happy with her for that.
Other than that I am Very Pleased with her, and I will be excited when the time comes to go see her. She is become more a Partner/Slave/baby-girl to me than I realized. Not that I mind. Just means I will think more about how things progress.
Wife and her where chatting today as well, so that sounds good. But my wife and I had a discussion, that drug the older 2 into it. Not about my Heather, but my wife's health. She has contently been forgetting her meds, and its having a bad affect on her health. We have a pattern, I am awake while everyone sleeps, and her and the eldest are up while I get what sleep I can. Other than I cannot make sure she takes her meds when I am asleep, and she has been not taking her meds or sporadically for 2 months now. Her lymphedema has flared badly for the last 3 weeks, and I could not figure out what was going on! So I guess that is another reason to be up on a normal sleep cycle for a while, to get her meds straightened out. I want her to live as long as she can, so she and my youngest 2 boys can have as many memories as possible.
My thoughts though always come back to My Heather. I would not feel right to loose my wife and then bring her into their lives to help be a stable support for them. It would not be fair to her as well, she has her own family outside the life, and I want her as my family as well, but do not know how that would work.
My Job to take care of my family, by blood and by love. I will care for my wife and take care of her till she passes, that is my job as well. Never realized how hard those words where going to be "in sickness, and in health, till death do us part." How can I be a Man of My Word, and not live up to that oath? Never thought of leaving my family, never even crossed my mind. But to watch my loose their mother, I am not sure I will handle their grief well, How do you make someone pay for hurting your when its a cancer? How do I punish that, or will they blame their mother? The Eldest 2 have known for a long while that their mother is dying a slow death with no cure. But the babies on the other hand do not! I do not know how to be a mother to them, but at least their boys. I can handle that better than if it was girls!
Nothing like gloom and doom in a post! But that is what I have to think about and figure out answers on tonight! Then I can sleep. NOT! I guess I will sleep when I am dead! Till them there is too many things to think about and to make happen, or to fix!
|
|
|
0
Comments
|
|
04/15/2015
|
Posted:Apr 26, 2015 1:51 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2024 12:8 am 25255 Views
|
I talked to Heather on the phone today, it is the first time I have talked to her. She have the most amazing voice! Made me So Damn Hard hearing her say "Yes Master" That I had to wait a while after finishing up the call to get out of the truck!
She is simply Amazing! I hate calls, and making calls, I do not even need to hear my voice when I talk. She I made an exception for! I don't even like calling my wife or or unless I have no other choice. But for my Slave Heather, Yes I will call her.
The woman I came to this suite for, after I put up Heather on my page, unfriended me, not that it bothered me, but she seemed not to want to speak to me in months anyway. Still like her, but she is not what I need, and I have not seen here if over 20 days anyway.
I have gotten rid of most other slaves, and the likes, I still have a spammer, that thinks she will get money from me to move up here, someone to fuck with, mainly because I know the game, and how to deal with them.
I was going to delete this page before she came along, but now I have a reason to keep one here. So lets see when she will be ready to join me in other suites, or maybe well will put together a profile together when she feels she is ready for that commitment.
Yes, my wife knows, and actually seems interested in playing with My Heather! Was not expecting that one, Joey has not wanted to have any play time at all till lately. I think Heather turns her on as well as me! They are chatting, and whatnot, and Joey seems to approve of My Heather! That is a big plus in my books none-the -less!
I have to get some sleep soon, I have slept 3 hours in 2 days and its taking its toll on me right now.
I will write later.
|
|
|
0
Comments
|
|
04/13/2015
|
Posted:Apr 26, 2015 1:50 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2024 12:8 am 25122 Views
|
So I have been away from this suite since February. Was thinking about dropping it all together, But then I got a friends request on a normal suite.
This woman is What I have dreamed of all my life! Red Hair, Green Eyes, Beautiful Lips, China white skin! She has had a Great mind, an artist. She has a small sensual body! She is everything I ever wished for in one package!
I have started to train her as my Slave, She thought she would be hard to train, but she has made strides that have amazed me, if about a week, she has went from defiant to someone that takes directions, like she has been raised in the life. She is simply the best I have seen in a very long time! Hell if I was not already married, I would proposed to her. LOL
She has went from resistant, to supplant, she reinforces my training on her own, she now calls me Master of her Universe, from just Sir in a mater of days. She is like putty, Heart, Mind, Body and Soul! Makes me so proud!
I named her Heather, She had a fire in her, she is a Flower of Passion unto my soul, she soothes my relentlessness. Hearing from her stirs my unbridled Passion for her. Its been a long while since I have had much reason to feel that!
I got her to start a profile on here, I have helped her with it some. She is going to be my Best Creation Ever!
She is a bit scared at doing this, but she is coming around and I cannot wait till the time she will be ready to come out about being My Slave, and publicly announcing that she is mine.
I am counting down the Days, and Weeks till I will see her, with my own 2 hands, to take her out and share her with those Women, and men that I feel honored enough to partake in her as I do!
|
|
|
0
Comments
|
|
01/22/2015
|
Posted:Apr 26, 2015 1:49 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2024 12:8 am 7119 Views
|
Well it has been a busy few days, Have you ever had spammers? OK, I have to admit it, I love messing with them! When someone starts our with trying to get you interested in them, and then they slowly start hinting that they are into the same things as you. Then comes the hints, that they want you to fiance their trip to see you, then want you to send them money to help take care of them, and so on. I always wander, "Are you Serious?!?!" Come on, I know some are probably real people, Some are just looking for money for legit reasons given, but most are not!
I like fucking with them, its like role play by a keyboard. I know what the game is, and I will play along. But I have had Real slaves, and kept more than enough to know the mindset, and the effort they put into being just that! Scamer's don't think things through that far! Come on! Learn your trade, If you claim to be a slave that only looks to serve your master in all things and in all ways. Then when asked what they how they would want to serve you, and ask for details, to answer like you have some Idea of what a slave would say? Skip answering, says you have no training, or you are a scammer! I may of been away from the world for about 10 years, and things have changed a bit. (Really allot when you move to a different state with half the population, and 4 times the land mass!)
When pressed why is it that scammers act like they do not understand the questions? IF, for chance, you claim to be experienced as a slave, then you would know, that a question from a Master is to be answered quickly and truthfully!
I have 2 people that tried to play a scam game with me, One is from another country, so yes, english is not their first language. They can be forgiven for that, but when asked they try to deflect? When asked "If you where here, serving me as your Master, What would your day be like, ideally, From waking up to time you go to bed?" Do you not think to answer? When pressed, lick your dick and balls. Is that the best you can do! My God, if you claim to be experienced as a slave, and have been trained correctly, is that the best you can answer? You do not think much of your former Master's training if that is the best you can come up with!
I am not saying that everyone is like that, but so many more seem to be than there used to be, and what ever happened to messages, and e-mail with coherent sentences! To win over a Master, learn how to write! Nothing is more invigorating than to read a well thought out impassioned response to someone you will call Master! If you cannot, then how can you win the right to call someone Master?
Yes, I am a hard ass about things like that, and I make sure that anyone I even think of for that type of position, is well vetted, I will not allow anyone into my life, or around my family, friends, loved ones, that cannot show that they are worthy to such distinction. Serve me, and become a part of my family, you earn it! Its not freely given out, it has to be earned!
|
|
|
0
Comments
|
|
01/21/2015
|
Posted:Apr 26, 2015 1:47 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2024 12:8 am 2746 Views
|
Well lets see where to start. I have been talking to a Special woman for a few days, she suggested this suite, because she makes me smile, when I see her texts, I decided to give it a try.
Ok, I was told to look a a book series by a toy (ok, toys to me are slaves, so that you know, its how I have always named them till they earn their name). She though I would like the Gorean Idea's, so I am getting ready to read the Gor series.. Authors name is John Norman. Don't know much yet other than some research into it, and I think she was right.
I belong to a few other suites in this world, Alt.com (a.k.a. Alt.com , Adult friend finder, and ecta. Been apart of those suites off and on for,.... Hell I would say over 15 years, I dropped them all for a while, but things have changed in my life and it is time a started up again.
My wife has been with me in the life since the beginning or she would not of been allowed in my life.
being bisexual
open relationship
willing to try anything
Her health has taken her out of the picture, she has lymothdema in her lower extremities, they have filled up with fluid, and has started putting pressure on her internal organs. We are not thinking she will make it another 10 years before it kills her. There is no cure, she is dying. We have excepted that. I do not want to start from scratch on finding and training a new one. (I got her when she was 19. Been married for over 20 years now)
I am a blunt man, born and raised old school in Kansas, I am honest and blunt to the point that most people do not handle me well. Not ever been a worrier of what people think of my in general. (there are some exceptions, family by blood, and non-blood) There are family, and non family. Not much else to me, other than toys, and the right ones of them become family themselves.
I never like having too many toys, 2 are normally my limit at a time. Tried having more once, it ended badly for 2 of them. Most toys that I have had where married, I find them more secure in the relationship, not that it has always been true, but on average.
Lets see, I have been a Master, and I love it, fits my personally, and Daddy as well, nothing like feeling needed.
Its hard to put everything down here, so I will probity update this area as things arise. I have met a couple of people on here that I have chatted with. Its a nice thing on long nights, and I don't need an interpreter program to understand them! LOL (Problem when allot of people I chat with and get along with are from places like Australia, Japan, Germany and the likes!)
|
|
|
0
Comments
|
|
Been here off and on for over 15 years.
|
Posted:Apr 26, 2015 1:41 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2015 1:56 am 2140 Views
|
Ok I have been here off and on for over 15 years, and here shortly Married for 21. I have been in the life in one form or another since I was young. I have 4 accounts in 4 different suites. This is the one I most enjoy!
I am on Fetlife.com, and its ok, I had My Slave start an account there to work her slowly into the life. She is still in the closest about it. She is from a warmer state, Texas. She is in training right now, and I cannot wait till she is ready to come out! She has taste in bestiality, playrape, gang bang, glory holes, to name a few!
My wife is not on here, but the old profile she was. She quit playing years ago, because of health problems. With my new Slave, she is wanting to play with her, and help train her as her Slave Sister. I am happy with this, she is not very oral, whereas my wife is, so wife can teach her how to make her Master happy.
I am also on AdultFriendFinder.com as well, and I do a bit of looking there, not much in the way that I am interested. and the last on I just started and am not liking so much. Its called BDSM Date Link.
I am a Master, Daddy, and I have never hid it, I have enjoyed playing with so many of the scammers on here lately, not much else to do I have not seen many real women here as of late. So its interesting. Most of my blogging I do on Fetlife, so if you want to know more, just check over there, I will Probably copy everything from there to here soon enough.
|
|
|
0
Comments
|
|
