Reflections on Being Bound
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Posted:Dec 7, 2014 11:14 am
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i was thinking this week about how i feel when i'm bound as part of daily meditation and inventory.
There are generally several categories i can distinguish when reflecting on being bound:
o Physical
· Security
When i am bound the feel of the ropes is like an amplified and constant touch, which i crave in my daily life. Touch is the base sense we have that literally connects us to another person. i think my brain interprets the binding as a proxy for the person binding me, and in that sense translates into the equivalent of being entwined with another in physical embrace.
Those of you who have had the blessing of having a newborn in your arms know how important it is to swaddle them tightly. Bondage must recall those base memories or instincts that allows me to know I'm safe, secure, and need not concern myself with anything else in the world.
· Beauty
I am lucky in that my Mistress is thoughtful, knowledgeable, and artful with her bondage techniques. She always has a desired form she strives to attain in each session. She knows how to construct, sometimes via complex tactics, the strength to enable suspension without undue wear on me. She can create barely manageable predicaments of imbalance (one of my favorites). And while making the structure and function of a bondage session, She keeps an aesthetic eye on the end presentation.
I see beauty in all of those levels; architecture & technical; form & style; creative & elegant. Few things delight me more than when my Mistress steps back from her work and smiles!
· Eroticism
Getting naked turns me on. i do it as often as i can, and think about being naked when I'm not. To date, getting naked is my first step toward being bound. And since bondage is often part of playtime with my Mistress, there are typically carnal delights to be had during each session. Since my Mistress is also a Sadist, and i am finding more and more about my inner Masochist, my bondage also often brings pain with that pleasure. And while the bondage often is part of the pain, more often it serves to set the stage as opposed to being the core theme. But, damn, i get hard whenever there's rope out when i enter my Mistress' dungeon!
o Emotional
· Care
In being bound by my Mistress i explicitly experience Her care for me. She thinks of how the overall experience fulfills parts of my inner fantasies. She knows i how i feel secure when in Her care and uses the ropes to express that. And i know I'm giving satisfaction to Her and express my care for Her in submitting my body to Her will when being bound.
· Vulnerability
When bound i am physically vulnerable by definition. That state is a sweet spot for me emotionally. Years of therapy, mentoring, marriage, and parenthood have taught me that. i have often been told by not only intimate partners but those i interact with socially & professionally how my openness and vulnerability actually comes across as a sign of my strength & tenacity. Telling those i interact with what my weaknesses are means i am thoughtful of them in my interactions, and removes them from being available to hurt me. i know my limits, and when in bondage i have a whole new set of limitations i am forced to cope with.
o Spiritual
· Surrender
Surrender is a base spiritual tenant i accept in my life. Bondage is another physical manifestation of that principle. By allowing myself to be bound i remind myself that i accept many limitations in my life, and that’s ok. i trust my Mistress to no end, and when bound i am reminded of that trust.
· Serenity
There are moments being bound, especially when subsequently suspended, where i can totally relax and still be supported. This becomes a meditative state for me. Those moments of utter serenity allow not just my body total relaxation, but also my mind. The bondage is the setting that enables the deeper separation from life's debris for me that usually is complemented soon with unbearable pain and unbelievable pleasure.
· Love
Ultimately i see bondage as an expression of both my love for my Mistress as well as Her love for me. 'Nuff said.
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