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Posted:May 25, 2023 11:07 am
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 826 Views
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EVENTS IN PAADISE today.
NOTHING much happened.
went to pediatory and hqad a bit of 'dead' skin cut away AROUND gERALD THE WOUND. quite a bit of claret on the floor. was told to go home and rest foot. so did and fell asleep,,,,again.
hospital dressing of Gerald in the morning. people who came to see my flat about swapping flats phoned. they wanted as near to Wickford as they could get. i was going to see their 1 bed flat on friday but not now. as they have excepted a swap with a flat IN wickford.
yesterday while at the hive pond i saw this insect, its about 1.5 to 2 inches long. besides 'its a big bug' anyone have any idea what it is ?
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tue 23 may 1935hrs
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Posted:May 23, 2023 11:54 am
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 803 Views
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well today in paradise, went to the gym early as yesterday got wieghed and i have put ON 1.6Kg. spent 2 hours at the gym and only left as i was feeling very light headed, went to morrisons and bought some english asparagus and had that fried in garlic butter with a bit of taragon and olive oil with 4 poached eggs. felt much better. THEN at 1100hrs went to meet some floosey ive been randomly chatting to on qa fetish dot com, supposedly 56, lives in Wickford and single. met her at the rossi ice cream place along the sea front. total fake, married lives in Vange, so not 100000 miles away i guess BUT her profile pic...in the flesh 2 totally different people. oh and shes not 55 nearer much older, admitted to being 74 ! Finished my coffee and left thanking her for her interest but a little too old for me.
went to the hive. laid out new flower bed for the spring bulbs im expecting, all smelly ones. cut some 4 inch long stems of roses and put in potatoes to enharnce growth and edged new bed with them. i saw it on ebay the potatoe thing so thought give it a go.
hospital in the morning then thursday pediatery who are going to start de briding the skin around my wound.
after hospital fri off to tunbridge, to look at a poss flat exchange .
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tue 22 may 2008hrs
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Posted:May 22, 2023 12:17 pm
Last Updated:May 22, 2023 12:17 pm 689 Views
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[SIZE 5]update
sat took grandson to Dymchurch went to the little fun fair there had lunch and then on the light railway. didnt get him home till quite late.
sunday and monday just went to gym and rested my foot
today had foot done and watered garden. came up to my glat had a sarnie and fell asleep till a little while ago. was thinking wouldnt it be nice just to fall asleep and not wake up, that way the empty ;lonly hollow feeling inside me would end
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FRI 20 MAY 0030HRS
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Posted:May 19, 2023 5:36 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 677 Views
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TODAY IN PARADISE had phone call at 0730hrs from James, they had had a big row so NOT going to great yarmouth this weekend
SO...planted up hanging baskets in the garden.
went shopping
went to hive pond and put in water lice insects which arrived this morning.
went to the gym
came home and had a bit of a sleep. woke a little while ago and felt hungry as the last thing i ate was a bowl of gruel at 0700 with blue berrys. so had 2 slices of toast
getting foot done in the morning then may go to liegh on sea for the free SEA SHANTY DAY, and sunday pick up jamie and take out for the daY ...
PICS OF first of the pond / water planted iris's
the Gunnery bog bed i made the other day
the NETTLE harvst going well, soon to be gathered it, put in bunches and sold at LAM..
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tue 16 may 1948hrs
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Posted:May 16, 2023 12:11 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 884 Views
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Well in paradise today,,,
had foot done at 1000hrs it was hurting worse than normal. apparantly its still getting smaller. the wound not my foot lol.
then at 1130 appointment with the kidney doctor, he was happy too, since last appointment 2 moths ago ive lost another 5kg, blood potasuim and red cells have staberlised both withing normal levels, i so dream of a bacon sarnie with smashed advojadoe but those days are over.like many things that are over.!
then went to hive pond to feed the tadpoles move the water mint into deep deep water build a little U shaped enclave out of black painted bricks to hold the nitarate free pond compostin and plant a Gunera that had become too big for its pot in. so its always in a boggy place.
went to the gym for an hour 1700hrs till 1800hrs then was going to go to toby as have a voucher for 50% off but couldnt be bothered i have a morrison med salad in the fridge ill have that with some raw tuna
have pediatry on thursady before foot is done by opat, pediatory will cut away some of the maserated skin around the wound so it will heal quicker, then gping over to sons and stay the night so can take them to great yarmouth fri morning.
HOW DO I FEEL ? like every day, marking a lonly time.
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sat 13 may 2104hrs
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Posted:May 13, 2023 1:58 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 1250 Views
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TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY IN THE other paradise. Kent.
got up at silly oclock, loaded the car with 5 large flower pots with planted bulbs of the colour yellow, my mums fav colour for flowers and set off before 0730 to beat the traffic at the crossing. Which for once was a plan that worked. lol i used to reply when asked what time do we need to leave by to get to place XYor Z, at least 45mins sooner than i thought we would need to leave by as we always seemed to leave 45 mins later than i planed. so to leave now at 0730 i was at my mums by 0845, 45 mins before the agreed time with James to meet.
At 0930, right on the button number 1 , ANNAMRIE, not Anna as it seems to have been shortened to, James number 1 and Jamie number 1 grandson, arrived.
2 hours later my mum was still explaining about the people who bought the house built on the old barn at the bottom of her / MY garden, had bought the land over the storm drain not knowing there was a storm drain that in 30 years has never had a trickel of water through it till, they had built an extention to their house, where the black barn was, and then the first time,,,,washed the new extention away...wish id seen that !
we then in 2 cars. jamie in mine, set off for breakfast at cafe rouge at blue water using tesco vouchers. Cafe rouge breakfast, i forgot to take a pic but it was fandabbydozey. 2 runny poached eggs, 2 has browns 2 huge saugers 3 crispy not burnt bacon 2 black pudding stingey portion of b beans 3 slices of sour bread toast £10.39. one of the best breakfasts ive had in ages and beats weatherspoons hands down. 3 hours at the gym sunday lol.
then to HEAVER castle as recomended by a good friend. good call W , loved the mazea good hour of a lost in there. then the pedlo on the lake with complaining grandson who wanted to first sit in the back with grandad then in the front and drive. annamarie and james pederling like mad but the wind kept blowing us back so after 40 mins we where no where near the middle of the lake and james was thinking of jumping out at towing us back, after i told him the lillis growing in the lake didnt grow at a depth greater that 2 to 2.5 feet. so the lake was very shallow. (the things you learn while stocking a pond, see the Hive pond lol ) if he had jumped out it might have come as a hock however, that the lillies growing where we where at that point, their normal depth is about 15 feet. anyway he didnt and after 2 hours we finally made it to shore. though jamie fell for my knock knock whos there john the baptist joke about 10 tims. got a bit wet before he stopped answering me when i said knock nock jamie.
he didnt like the water maze though, despite he thought it funny grandads leg was soaked at the first paving slab, he didnt like getting squirted. got a right monk on. BUT couldnt drag him out of the play park, when finally after 3 hours in the mock wooden castle slide thing, james picked him up to go back to the car, jamie started a tantrm then shouting STRANGER DANGER at the top of his voice. took us 10 mins to convince the attendent he was james !!!!! it was only cos i had pics on my phone of earlier in cafe rouge and we all had pics of taking him out in other places the attendent accepted our storey.
went to the mexican place in tonbridge for tea, as mexican food is really 'spanish' food, ish lol. INSITE FROM THE VERY YOUNG, while in the mexican place waiting for our food....
Grandad, why do you look so sad?
Im not sad Jamie.
Annamrie, is this the place you posted once on face book about being here with xxxxx.
Me, yes, but you have to try and move on
Jamie, if being here makes you sad grandad we could go some where else.
(me thinking, but the some where elses all closed after we ate there) but said to jamie, its ok, its a happy place now cos of you he then with out any proppmting gave me a big hug.
i came home from there and they went home in Annamaries car.
i felt so pissed off when i got home, even bought a bott;e of gin at lidl (left it in the car) tried on a shirt i bought the other day, only because i liked it but not convinced it would fit. guess what, i does. and not tight or anything. i know dear reader your not going to be impressed with this at all, BUT there was a time i would never buy supermarket clothes as their sizes where iffy. BUT this is a REAL 3XL, i know im still a fat lump of fucking lard who cant walk 100 yards with out a rest, but to me 3XL is a fucking HUGE step.its like a new me to me, i dont care if your not impressed . i am with myself.
look if i can change my body so much, though theres still more to go, but if i can change the outside i can change the inside, as the song goes
if i could change back time.
.,,too late gris to late!
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fri 12 may 1815hrs
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Posted:May 12, 2023 11:37 am
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 692 Views
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today i cancelled my tv licence as for the last 3 weeks i cant get any tv channels, no thats not true, i get them but are pixilated and sound keeps breaking up.
i have retuned my tv 7 times and each time its the same. nice man from the the bbc help desk told me its prob interfirance from a nearby pirate radio station or even southend airport.
i have enough on line channels to watch anyway.
had foot done thursday and today , i thought today i was picking up in law and grandson and take to great yarmouth for weekend break but my mistake, thats next weeknd. so sat im taking grandson to see my mum then iether heaver castle maze or junior go carting at lake side or go ape at leeds castle. have to see what the weather does if it rains i have a back up plan, indor lazer quest at rayliegh .
dont know if jamie will get a chance to see the hive as thats what he would like to see, where grandad spends a lot of time
went to the gym for 2 hours as i had nothing else to do and it beats just sitting in front of the tv doing nothing and brooding about how much i fucked up, still after all this time everything still feels raw and fresh almost as if if i just appologised everything would revert to how they where but i think its far too late for that
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wed 10 may 1800hrs
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Posted:May 10, 2023 10:01 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2023 10:15 am 806 Views
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]since i cant do anything about the 3 issues, i cant MAKE some one change their mind all i can do is wait to be given a chance to prove they are wrong about me, no matter how long that may take, if ever.
i foolishly came up with a 'plan' that would work, well work for me, and by and large it was the way things where 15 or so months ago, but I cant see it working now, due to other issues. its all about ..... issues issues we all fall down !
I bet you just re run ring a ring a roses in your head, lol,
something said the other day that i would have to drive to some where to have my aese kicked. Id be happy with that once in a while too
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tue 9 may 2107hrs
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Posted:May 9, 2023 1:09 pm
Last Updated:May 9, 2023 1:09 pm 796 Views
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been sitting in the dark all evening dwelling upon something said to me today.
i thought i had 2 basic issues to come to terms with BUT now i have another one, so that makes 3 !
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sunday 7 may 1951hrs
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Posted:May 7, 2023 11:52 am
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 12:39 pm 803 Views
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In paradise today, i had to go to billericay yo get my foot done or wait till this evening, how its changed...Oh the fagility of the human mind. How soon we forget the reality and convert back to how good we thought things where. In my salad days, the summers where hotter and longer, in the winter the snow was deeper, and crunchy, not cold and wet., birthdays and Christmas presents where better and more plenty full and weatherspoons breakfasts where, hot with lots of baked beans, grilled tomatoes came as standard and when you ordered runny eggs you got funny eggs. Not the COLD rock hard ones, the COLD bacon, the COLD baked beans, the COLD hash browns and the COLD mushroom I ASKED NOT TO HAVE! Inew I should have just had a bowl of gruel this morning!
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