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My journey ... so far
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Posted:Jun 21, 2023 6:38 am
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2024 2:15 pm 9613 Views
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Recently, a member here, with no BDSM experience, contacted me to see if I'd be interested in a new playmate. And after a few message exchanges, I was very candid in why this wasn't going to happen.
And when I now read it back, I see it was basically a quick and brief journal of where I am in my sexual journey.
And wish to share this below:
"I have many playmates that don't originate online (I’ve been on other sites besides ALT – and I've been here a little over 6 months). I do have encounters with some from here – for specific purposes (and not really playmates per se. See below) The nature of online sex dating sites requires time and effort to get to know each other to move from online to offline – and moreso with an alternative sex site (see My Profile).
If you read my profile, I am basically a very normal, educated, confident and happy woman with a professional career – albeit a woman with a large and diverse sexual appetite.
I’m a wealthy widow slut who traverses the wide world of sex mostly on my own.
I love more than one playmate at a time and learned a while back to be very “egalitarian” in my choice of partners. And I also go to many clubs and parties where that's provided.
AND I love others watching me “get down n dirty” which fuels my sexual rhapsody exponentially. If he joins in on the fun and is telling me what he’s seeing … O M G!
And I'm not shy about this with my playmates. My bfs (with just a few exceptions) must be fully on-board to actively share me with other men and women.
And I have some bfs and a few local cucks arrange for larger (rougher) group sessions where they love to watch and listen. (but not always only just watching and listening)
It's very much a leftover from my hot-wife days. (it's a very spiritual Zen attribute that makes the sharing so uplifting to the parties; and is a major factor contributing to my rapturous orgasms)
But I’ve noticed ever since my husband's passing, I’ve been turning up the volume to approach previous ecstatic pleasure levels. (as my current tastes were once far beyond my previous limits AND I don't expect any other person to love and share me as wondrously as he had and mutually experience the blissful joy.)
In my current state, I believe I need to push my boundaries much further and beyond my comfort zone. So I have taken the big step necessary to seek true sexual fulfillment in BDSM (It's the darker, dangerous side of what I love)
I've had dates with Doms and Dommes from here and have sampled the pleasures of pain and edged/forced orgasms. And frankly, I love it!
So here I am pushing myself past my current comfort zone to indulge in the fear, uncertainty, pain and humiliation of giving up all control as all part of the incredible and numerous orgasms BDSM sex provides-- or as much as I can without full submission and without the strings or commitment.
I also believe I am an Alpha domme more than a sub (I've tamed many a man who've tried to tame me. Don’t get me wrong, I love being handled as a rag doll and owned). At some point, I hope to progress towards my dominant role and learn how to harness this power into mutual BDSM sexual pleasure.
And while I am seeking BDSM here primarily, there are still many other kinks and taboos that intrigue me. It need not be BDSM only. As a matter of fact, I still thoroughly love “vanilla plus” sex with one partner and I love my many other sex scenarios and [almost] all forms of sex is fabulous fun.
Wish me luck on my journey.
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My Bull or Stag? You choose.
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Posted:Apr 13, 2023 4:02 pm
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2024 2:15 pm 9342 Views
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The times, they're a’ changin.
“Cuckolding” involves a man who loves to be humiliated while watching his woman have sex with another man – preferably a larger, more adept man. His level of participation varies.
But not all men who love to watch his woman with another man are cuckolds.
Today the term has been modified to “Stag and Vixen” – involving the same thing but WITHOUT the humiliation and stigma. A Stag is a man who is every bit a man who can satisfy a woman in bed AND he loves to watch and listen to his sexy woman (Vixen) gettin’ it on with another man – sometimes a Bull (self-evident description).
It’s fine here for all the macho dominant men watching his woman masturbate for her and his enjoyment. But these same “dominant” men balk when pushing their own sexual limits by taking this to its next natural level - that she "masturbate" in front of you with a human sex toy - ain’t nothin’ like the real thing baby. And don’t yourself thinking your woman / woman of your dreams doesn’t want this.
Is there anything sexier to watch and listen to than your own sexy woman moaning, writhing and shaking, abandoned in her sexual pleasures in muscular arms and … Listen to new sounds of passion she may have never made with you ... or that you never fully appreciated? And most importantly, lewdly seeking sensual sexual pleasure au naturel - in the arms of a man - another, different man than you - different in physique, different from she's getting from you
I LOVE being watched. And an integral part is knowing you are getting rapturous pleasure in what you see and hear -- watching me enjoying my own pleasures in an authentic erotic sex show – without any direct participation or manipulation by you, and with you in my mind,. So much much better than watching online porn. Actually, the ultimate porn!
So to all you so-called dominants out here on ALT, I ask you to place your so-called manly pride on the shelf and answer me truthfully. Assume you've been one of my many lovers – which would you rather be – my Bull or my Stag?
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