When too much is not enough
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Posted:Feb 17, 2024 2:53 pm
Last Updated:Mar 20, 2024 11:23 am 3266 Views
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I met a sadistic women this month at an event. I guess you can say her mistik captured my attention and kept me like a puppy dog, sniffing and viang to know more. Not sure if being aloof was just her method or her way of saying girl you trying to bite off more than you can chew. Nonetheless, I got what I wanted, which was her time and attention. We hit it off very well and I learned that she enjoyed hard core fetishes and kinks that scared me. Not as a result of bad experiences but society norms said so. I find so many lifestyle fetishes that we avoid because someone at some point said "we should."
Our friendship or should I say, our acquaintance went back and forth to different levels, personally and sexually. I knew or should I say I wanted this woman to fuck me, used me hard and have her way with me. All the extreme or hard core fetishes that appeals to her, excited me in a carnal way. It scared me and excited me at the same time. That's an addictive drug for me mentally. I didn't fear her as a person but, I feared myself. That I was wanting something that I should avoid or keep a distance from. I wanted to be bad, naughty, riskey, her pain slut and temp her to want to hurt and enjoy me in sexual ways. I'm not a pain slut but the emotional and sexual high that I receive when I've been pushed or used hard says differently and that scares and excites me. Everyone with a crop or paddle is not sadistic or mature enjoy to master such experiences. I gave myself to her and the tears, welps, marks, the use and abuse was too much for my mind and body but she knew I wanted or needed to be pushed further. She fucked and used every part of my body like I never imagined. My orgasms, tears and screams excited her. That was an enormous turn on for me and kept my body begging for more.
How many people want or need to be pushed further but don't know how to ask for it? Or even worst, don't have a relationship with someone who is experienced or trustworthy to take you to such depths. Debauchery, and degradation are not the same to every person. Nor is is required for the pleasure and exploration by sadistic individuals. My woman friend is an experienced jewel in her own right. I was the naughty brat who stuck my head in the noose and she gladly tightened the rope. Fetishes and kinks are fluid. If you explore or experiment, you will want or need to go further. I'm the type of person who need to be pushed beyond my stated limits. For internal reasons, I have lied to maintain a degree of safety but I wanted it more intense, harder and even ruthless. This way of thinking excites and scares me for some reason.
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Consensual but off limits?
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Posted:Jan 17, 2024 3:26 pm
Last Updated:Feb 18, 2024 5:15 pm 3564 Views
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So I was looking to upgrade my home security system. Get something modern and have remote outside monitoring for when I'm away for work or vacation. I finally got a proposal and price that was reasonable. Much to my surprise the installation technician who was assigned my upgrade was a female. YEAH, great. I love to see women in business and technology, holding down jobs that has for year have been shielded and given to predomily white males.
Anyways she was very smart, friendly and sexy as hell. I'm not one to stumble over myself or to be caught off guard but this woman made me hot. She wasn't dressed like some cheap porn star. No was she making advances. She was very professional but everything about her was an erotic turn on to me. At first I thought it was just me, being horny and having lustful thoughts, but I discovered that it was mutual attraction. She flirted with me just a hard as I was flirting with her. Did we connect and fool around sexually? Yes, we had some hot, kinky sex. It wasn't like a mindless porn movie but it was something that just clicked sexually between us. After a half day of talking, flirting and luscious looks and stares, we ended up in the bedroom fucking like crazy. Unapologetic and it was all consensual. Perhaps it was off limits. fucking your contractor. Not just once but we kissed, touched, teased and fucked me several times. We both wanted sex and just went for it. When is it okay to cross the line and give in to carnal desires?
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Faked orgasms or pleasure
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Posted:Aug 29, 2022 1:31 pm
Last Updated:Mar 6, 2024 4:25 pm 4007 Views
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Have you ever faked an orgasm or pretended to be be pleasured for the sake of your partner's pride or ego?
For women it's easier to do, than men for obvious reasons. Does that strengthen or diminish the relationship? Strictly from a sexual perspective, a woman will keep going back for more and more if the sex is great. Even if her partner's personality sucks. Yes, women view kinks, fetishes and erotic desires from two totally different perspectives and playing fields. The male specie typically think kink is fulfilled if you suck their cocks and let them fuck you in the ass. For women kink stems from not what you are doing to me but rather how you are effecting me mentally and the thoughts you are deeply stirring with in. Not leaving me to hope you realize that there are multiple elements to sex, not just you cumming. Yes, we are all pleasure sluts. We love to feel good. But for women it goes a step further and we love to give in totally mind and body, which is a deeper pleasure and often can be far more naughtier than the male could imagine. If you are a male, don't limit your female partners need to expand, explore and release her true inner slut. Men typically are sexually fulfilled within 3 - 5 minutes of most sexual pleasures. A woman's sexual pleasure is transitory. It rises steady when feed and will remain very high when properly stimulated. At most time the male is over and done and the female pretends she is fulfilled or fakes it.
Most of us are here because we love sex, exploration, stimulation and the feeding of our cravings. We search for that one or many who pushes 1 or some of our hot buttons. Don't push the button if you are sexually lazy and not willing to take the journey all the way. All the way does not mean a LTR or marriage but rather investing in the knowledge of your partner's needs and desires, not just your own. When it comes to sex, women are not complicated at all. We know if we want to fuck you in less than 5 minutes of a conversation. You simple have to not say something asinine or stupid that turns us off. Newsflash, women LOVE sex. You don't have to convince us to get naked. It's wanted and desired. All women have a kinky and erotic side. Every woman wants her her slutty buttons pushed and used thoroughly. This is true from the convent to the house. It comes down to how it's hidden or expressed. The word slut is not a bad word. The problem is society forces us to mask or hide such desires. If you could see and hear all the nasty thoughts and desires of your lover, it would change your life and perspective. Given the chance we would love to let our hair down if given that opportunity. The key is allowed to be real and not having to fake it. Getting out of "role play" and going whole heatedly into "real play'.
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The sluttier the better
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Posted:Apr 19, 2022 3:45 pm
Last Updated:Feb 6, 2023 8:47 am 5242 Views
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Most won't admit or surrender to dark cravings and levels of debauchery, primarily out of shame, embarrassment or personal beliefs. Yet, we cater or hang around the edges of perversions, seeking that person who will push us beyond our mental and sexual safety zones, giving a cause as to why we behaved in such a manner should our perversions be exposed. A seldom few will take ownership or be the author of their carvings and desires.
Perversion is a very strong attraction and it seldom leaves or stop tempting us. We want it. We think about it. We masturbate to the thoughts of it. We often discreetly seek that one person who will push and take us where we deeply wish to go.
While growing , I was often told never say never because your sexual interest and desires will evolve and possibly consume you on a willing basis. That nature and perversions that you tease, feed or silently fantasize about will eventually have you in a state of lustful shame or humiliation, but you will love it and want more. "So sad is the slut who hides in the closet, to dream in silence about her dark cravings."
I've on several occasions have met or cross paths with a Domme or a friend who seemed to strip away my sanity and exposed dark cravings and desires that I thought were well hidden or disguised. Being exposed and used fully in deeply slutty and intense ways made me shameful. Made me cry. Made me cum harder than ever. Made me surrender to all forms of perversion and use. Made me want to be used harder and more. Brought to light those hidden desires, as if she knew what my soul was seeking.
Yes, I would go back over and over again for more degrading and use. Each time telling myself that I shouldn't but I couldn't say no. Scripted play and fun is exciting but I discovered a deep level of satisfaction and fulfillment when used hard, pushed and made to succumb to the perversions, fetishes and desires of others. No topping from the bottom. No "do me" list or pussy control. Just hard core use and unscripted pleasures. It doesn't have to be abusive, but rather can be the gateway to bringing that true hidden slut or out of yourself. It's this level of dominance and use that is a strong attraction for me. I don't hide it, nor do I flaunt it. But it's very real and rewarding for myself and the Domme(s) who sees my cravings and who enjoys taking me to such levels.
Nice to meet you stranger. I hope you have arrived to that deeply dark sexual and fetish place as myself. That place that you shamefully talk about but love being a part of. I apologize for nothing.
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Dirty girl
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Posted:Jul 27, 2021 1:50 pm
Last Updated:Mar 6, 2024 4:27 pm 7096 Views
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My pool pump motor started making weird noises and eventually died. Every Tom, Dick and Jane with a killer smile offered to come help me repair or replace it. Half of those offering help didn't know what a pool pump was, nor how to replace it. Nonetheless, I appreciate the offer and invitations to come over and ravish me. LOL me.
Im a single woman with my own home and a DIY tool box and devices that I have yet to use. I looked at and closely examined the death of the pool pump motor and concluded that I should just call a pool repair place. Its not that I dont like getting dirty or breaking a nail or two but it looked like a job best left to the professionals. Will they try and over charge me? Yes, probably so. Women are not suppose to know any better and accept whatever this male driven world tells us. Hell, at one point today I was tempted to take the afternoon off, put on my favorite pair of booty shorts, a t-shirt and some sneakers and tackling it my self. But a sane girlfriend talked me down from the ledge.
This motor break down, blow up or what have yo caused a lot of after thought. I dont care much about the repair cost. Nonetheless, the whole incident caused me to think how more rewarding if would be to get down right dirty and fix it myself. It put me in a mood that I kept thinking about all morning. Being a dirty girl. hands and body covered in dirt and grease or what have you.
I recall when someone whom I has seeing / playing with on a regular basis wanted to fuck me but she wanted to incorporate food, sauces, candies and chocolate syrups in our sex play. It was not a thrill or a big turn on thinking about it because the idea of food and sex in that capacity never clicked for me. Did i let her, yes. Was a hot experience but wasnt on my list of earth shattering sexual moments. But she loved it so I loved it too. Now, years later I got this crazy yearning and desire to be used and enjoyed in that way. To be a dirty, girl covered in something, getting used and enjoyed in such ways. Its probably illegal is some counties the way I was looking and thinking about my banana this morning !!
Its just funny how desires and turn ons shift with time, people and ages. Things that I once frowned upon Im now wanting and thinking about them more and more. Fetishes and kinks that were low on my list seems to have moved or shifted. I guess that would be a good thing? I never wanted to be THAT person who desires gets locked into a stale personal and sexual mode and not keep exploring or re-visiting desires.
I suppose thats what a great lover does for you? Right? He / she is fluid in their desires and constantly challenging or erotically pushing you to let go and experience more and more with them?? No, MORE for me does not mean doing something insane or chopping your head off and calling it great.. LOL Im often told that Im a very kinky, erotic and super passionate person but I have met many who wants me to be locked down to the proverbial mind set, missionary position of sexual pleasures. I left those lovers behind because it bored me. Not the acts but the mindset of those partners. Im not a liar or cheater. So I coudnt fake it, so I said good bye.
It dawned on me this morning that I want to explore being that dirty, kinky girl who gets her hands and body dirty in all kinds of literal and proverbial ways; that excites and pleases my lover or partner(s). Maybe this strange urge will pass. Maybe its here to stay for a while. Nonetheless, it has me stimulated and curious to explore.
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Humiliation or just a Kink
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Posted:Jun 25, 2021 10:23 am
Last Updated:Aug 10, 2021 2:38 pm 6126 Views
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If you enjoy , is truly humiliation?
This is the question that I have asked myself for years. Why do I like if its truly humiliating? When the definition of humiliation it's self is "an unpleasant emotion brought about by feeling that one's social, personal or even sexual status or public image has decreased or shamed"
can derive sexual pleasures or stimulation from being put in such situations? Yet, for nearly a year while in college I kept returning over and over again a powerful Domme friend used and humiliated me physically and sexually. Each time made me want her even the more. That was one of the most confusing relationships that I had every experienced. Her use and control over me seemed become stronger, when she used me more intensely or in ways that I can't even discuss here.
Is the act or is the person that we are drawn . Indulging that person's desires, even when performing for them is deemed "humiliating" but arousing me because I sense that I am pleasing them. Everyone has had or do have fantasies of pleasing someone such levels. Or have gotten aroused at being used in unspeakable ways.
If you haven't experienced such levels of uninhibited use, live more !!
If I had my way, I would replace the word humiliation with something new because every time within the lifestyle, when I have been used or put in sexual or lifestyle situation, I've been very stimulated and ended up wanting or coming back for more.
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