An experience to never be forgotten.
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Posted:Jan 21, 2024 3:49 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2024 8:38 pm 2703 Views
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Ok... So my husband and I provide massages. Yesterday we had a gentleman come over for one. I had a picture of him and he looked to be in his late 60's. After getting to know him and hearing his story we found out he was really 78 years old. Then we found out his wife is 84 years old. He proceeds to tell us how sexual and beautiful she is and how much of a flirt she is on a regular basis. Example: They went out to dinner last week and he was walking in front of her. She tells him where to sit. He turns around to see where she is pointing and sees that she has her hand behind her grabbing the restaurant's owner by his private parts. Both my husband and I just kinda laughed and nodded. We were pretty much in disbelief. When the massage was done he ended up showing us pictures of his wife. And I 'll be damned... she was the most beautiful 84 year old I've ever seen. Apparently she was a nude model at one point and you can definitely tell. The way she carries herself, she dyes her hair brown, puts make-up on and wears incredible dresses every day. Some of the dresses were shorter than what I would wear. It caught us completely off guard. She looks to be in her early 60's if not younger. No joke!! Never judge a book by the cover. That man is one lucky guy.
RoseBudCouple
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Growing up and Mental Health
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Posted:Jan 14, 2024 10:51 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2024 8:41 pm 2266 Views
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Hey y’all.
Just checking in. It’s been a long day. I don’t have any of my babies at home anymore. It saddens me and breaks ny heart. I never thought in a million years that I would say something my mother always said… “they grow up so fast”. It seems like just yesterday I was toting them to day care or school. I had such a busy schedule. Yet now… I just don’t know what to do. My house was always filled with kiddos laughing or yelling. Lol. It’s just too quiet now.
Anyways… enough of that. What I really want to talk about is Mental Health. I have change a few avatars to be wearing green, the color for Mental Health Awareness. So I don’t need back lash or nasty words but if you would like to say something positive that would be just fine.
So when I was in my middle school years I was diagnosed with depression then at 16 I was pre-diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). In my early 20’s I started taking antidepressants then in my early 30’s I was officially diagnosed with Major Depression Disorder, Generalized Anxiety, PTSD-C and officially diagnosed with BPD. Some say I’m f***ed up. Others can relate and are understanding without judgement. I’ve done and still do counseling. I’ve done EMDR and DBT.
Now I’m going to give you brief descriptions of traumas that have actually happened to me. (I will say BPD can be past down from generations and also can be triggered or started after traumas have occurred.)
6 yrs my father threw me and my mother across the room and a fan fell on my head. There was always fighting and yelling between them even after they split.
6+ yrs I had sisters, parents and friends who made me the odd man out. I was made fun of. Picked on. Beat up on. I always found myself alone, crying with our farm animals praying I would hurry up and be 18 already.
13 yrs old I moved out of state to be with my father and his wife. I was then molested by my fathers dealer. My father denied me and blamed me for iti all. My father’s wife was a witch to my sister and I.
13 yrs old I moved back with my mother. I have court and things for the stuff that happened at my father’s house. My father still denying me and blaming everything on me. “I’m a manipulator. “
14 yrs I was going to a Christian school and got kicked out cause I had sex 1 time. I had to write a 10 pg essay with using scripture explaining why what I did was wrong and what the consequences would be if I didn’t repent and turn away from my wicked ways. (My mother and step father were workaholics so we had a live in nanny that took care of us.) My mother, step father and siblings would go camping and for no reason, which I have witnesses, my mother would call me a slut and they would also accuse me of sleeping around. I still have only kissed 3 guys and had sex 1 time.
15 yrs I started running away. We had strict rules. Only 15 mins on the phone with only girls. No talking to boys. I couldn’t have friends unless they went to our church and my parents knew their parents. Only Christian music. Christian school. Church 2 times a week. At this point I’m so “out of control” that my mother and step father would pray over me then make me repeat some of the prayers to them about casting out the demonds that were inside of me.
16 yrs old we went on a family reunion trip out of state. It was my step father’s reunion. His went too. When we got there it was my step father and his family and his then my mother and younger sister. I got left out of everything. I was so sad. I might have smiled in 1 pic but that’s it. Towards the end of this trip I made a call to a friend. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was balling. I told her I can’t do this anymore. Help me get out of here. We get back into town, she came over, we went to church and we ran away to her house. Her parents kept me safe. My mother and step father finally find me after a couple of weeks. The dragged me out of a restaurant restroom kicking and screaming. They had a few people with them. My mother found condoms again I’m a slut but I still have only had sex 1 time. They drove to a Mental hospital and told them I was crazy. When the hospital tried to release me I told them I would try to commit suicide if I had to go with my parents. We found a half way house that I stayed in for 2 days then I bolted. I meet my 1st ex-husband in March and we started dating in April then Aug comes around and I get a call from my mother saying I have to either fly to Reno to get married or go to a all girls lock down facility. We were married by Sep.
18 yrs old I’ve been homeless living in a station wagon with my then husband and stay at his grandfather’s when we could. He got me started on drugs. After some physical abuse and him cheating and also sleeping with my sister we got divorced. I meet a boyfriend I had for maybe 6 month. He was the worst physically, mental and emotional abuse I ever experienced.
19 yrs old I met my oldest daughters father who as a dealer. When I got pregnant I left him and got clean. I met my 2nd ex-husband. My was born later that year.
20 yrs I get married to # 2 husband. He adopts my . He neglects me. I find out he was cheating. Divorced.
Early 20’s I met # 3 husband. We click. Hit it off great.
Mid 20’s he adopts my oldest . (Yes she was adopted 2 times cause her first 2 fathers were selfish no good guys.) We get married and have a . I’m struggling mental but it was hard to focus on anything but transporting , working 40 hrs a week, making dinner and keeping the house clean.
After 6 years of being married I found out that my perfect Christian marriage aka my reality was in shambles and was nothing but shit. My heart was breaking. The pain was too much to bare. I even went to the hospital thinking I was having a heart attack. He was cheating on me. I gave him another 3 years with him still lying and cheating on me. I lost so much weight. Couldn’t eat. My Mental Health went down hill so fast I ended up on disability for 5 years.
2015 we got divorced. I met # 4 husband. Tons of physical and mental abuse. 2017 he forced me to marry him at the courthouse.
2018 we got divorced. I met # 5 husband.
2019 we got married and ended up moving out of state.
We are still together without anyone cheating. It’s been a hard bumpy road. But he is worth it.
2023 my moved out of state to live with their father. 💔
Off and on for 20 years I have worked for my parents. They have f***ed me over 3 times. Long store short, every time they have messed me over it was always more trauma on me.
So I say all that to say, there are some people that would look at that and says it’s a lot and others would say get over it. Well with my Mental Health Disorders and all that I struggle every day to get out of bed. I sleep 12 - 14 hrs a night. I cry over everything good, bad and the ugly. I feel like I’m on an emotional rollercoaster ride and it’s very unpredictable and it sucks. I’m waiting for disability to come back. I can’t work. I’ve been fired 3 times in 1 year. I gave up. I have so much emptiness in me. I feel like ever time I climb the stair I get almost to the top and be normal then another trauma happens and I get pushed down the stairs and I have to start all over again. It’s a never winning battle. I’m in a state that doesn’t help people with their Mental Health.
If you have insite or think you can help plz speak up. I’m not suicidal, even tho I have days were I don’t want to be here, you having nothing to worry about there. Right now I’m only being treated for Major Depression Disorder and I am under medicated. I need to find somewhere who will see me at no cost. I don’t have insurance. Thanks for reading.
RoseBudCouple
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Today
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Posted:Jan 6, 2024 6:12 pm
Last Updated:Feb 15, 2024 12:37 pm 2799 Views
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Well, I'm feeling frustrated and not in the way you think I am. Lol. 😉 I am trying to get an many points as possible but I can't figure out how to do some things on here, like updating my phone number. I can't remember everything but I know if I can just figure out how to do these things then I can earn more points and get some of their toys.
On a positive note hubby and I are doing good. We are looking forward to seeing everyone tonight when we go live. It's so nice hearing from people especially the compliments and getting the tips. I know those tips help us get one more step closer to the toys. Buzz Buzz
I hope everyone who reads this has a great rest of your night. Love the ones who love you and don't worry about the haters. They ain't worth your time or energy.
RoseBudCouple
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Our dog &...
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Posted:Jan 5, 2024 9:00 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2024 9:11 pm 2561 Views
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Every time we try to go online our has to sit in my lap. It's so frustrating cause I'm trying to go crazy on my lover so all can watch us, yet he is always in the way. I feel bad for kicking him out of the room but I guess I got to do what I got to do. Lol.
Now as to going crazy on my lover... Well, you will have to watch us when we go live. There are big titties to see, I give him oral and if you are lucky you may even see us having sex. Come on big tippers!!
RoseBudCouple
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Waiting
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Posted:Jan 2, 2024 3:04 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2024 9:21 pm 3263 Views
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I've never done this before. 😁 So I hope I do it correctly.
I'm at home waiting for hubby to get home which should be shortly. It's raining out and very cold. I'm wrapped up in a blanket. When he gets home my love cup will be filled. I'll get my hugs n kisses that I have been longing for from him all day. He will get showered up, then dinner then maybe some online webcamming. We can't wait to see you all. 😍❤️😘 rosebudcouple
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