If they only knew!
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Posted:Aug 17, 2019 11:23 pm
Last Updated:Mar 8, 2021 8:51 am 9040 Views
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Last week, I was at a conference for work at a local hotel. All I could think about was the last time I was at that same hotel. I was wearing nothing but silver high heel pumps and I was bent over the bed, taking it deep and making a special gentleman very happy!
(It looked something like this...)
I found it difficult to pay attention to the guest speakers, and I probably was blushing as the thoughts about the good time I had there kept running through my head. I wonder what they would say if they knew...
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What if I had said Yes...
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Posted:Aug 12, 2019 7:18 pm
Last Updated:Sep 13, 2021 3:56 pm 7654 Views
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When I saw the second picture that is included in this post, it reminded me of a night a long time ago. It was one of the first times I ever went dressed. We went to a TV-friendly bar and my friends convinced me to wear a very short red dress and high heels. I was more than a little nervous about being in public like that, but they insisted that it would be OK.
When we arrived, I felt very self-conscious about my appearance, so I quickly downed a couple of drinks to relax. We had been there for about an hour when the bartender handed me a drink and pointed out the gentleman who had bought it for me. I looked over and he smiled and began to walk toward me. I was literally shaking as he approached, so I took a few quick sips to try to calm down. He introduced himself and I thanked him for the drink. We chatted for a while and then he asked where my boyfriend was. I told him that i was there with friends and didn't have a boyfriend. I should have let him know that I wasn't interested in men, but I wasn't thinking at the time. He said he was shocked that a beautiful, sexy woman like me wasn't taken. I could feel myself blush, and I replied that this was one of my first times out and it was all still new to me.
I wasn't interested in him (at least I didn't think I was), but it just felt nice to be talking with a man like that, and have him looking at me that way. We sat down and continued our conversation. He was very easy to talk to and seemed be very attentive to my responses. I started to relax a little more, and he got us another round of drinks. He was getting a little flirty with me, including touching my arm and shoulder, and I really didn't do anything to discourage him. A little while later, he asked me if I would like go back to his place. I was having fun and considered it for just a moment, but then I realized what he really meant. Oh no, I couldn't do that!
Looking back, it's pretty obvious now, but at the time I was shocked when I figured it out. I was just there to be out as Suzy, not to be with a man, but now a man wanted to be with me!
I'm sure that he could tell how surprised I was, and I told him that I wasn't ready to do anything like that. He gently persisted, saying that he wouldn't make me do anything I was uncomfortable with. I was definitely flattered that a man would want me like that, but I insisted that I just couldn't.
I felt a little bad turning him down since he was so nice to me, and I hope it didn't come across as strong as this lady. I think this moment was when I first started having a interest in men. I liked him buying me a drink, complementing my appearance, wanting to spend time with me, and even wanting to get physical. I was surprised that it hurt to say no to him, and somewhere deep inside me I think I wanted to go, but I didn't know it and just wasn't ready.
But now I wonder what would have happened if I went. It could have been a night of firsts - kiss, blow job, maybe even sex? Things would have been different if I had gone with him that night, and although I don't have any regrets about the way it all turned out, sometimes I still wonder.
Note: Somehow, multiple words were randomly deleted from this post. I hope I fixed all of them and it reads a little better now
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The best gifts are those that you can share!
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Posted:Jun 4, 2019 8:09 pm
Last Updated:Aug 17, 2023 3:19 pm 7578 Views
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I would certainly not complain if the gentleman who wins my hand and earns himself a lifetime of satisfaction wishes to buy me a little engagement gift (or two) - nothing too big, maybe C cups. I've always dreamed of filling a top like the ladies shown below, and It would be so nice to have options like these for our big day!
And I'm sure that he could find something to do with them when the gown comes off... 
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I would if I could. Oh yes, I would!
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Posted:May 27, 2019 11:21 am
Last Updated:Mar 8, 2021 8:41 am 7890 Views
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It's been a dream of mine for years to find a sweet, charming, loving man who will take me to be his devoted bride. For the privilege of being his one and only, I would quit my job and vow to cook, clean, and completely satisfy him as long as we both shall live.
If he gives me this...
I would give him this...
and this...
whenever, wherever, as often as he wishes. When my man is happy, I am happy. (This doesn't sound too submissive, does it? I'm really not a sub. Well, not too much... am I?)
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Sub? Oh no, not me!
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Posted:May 13, 2019 2:17 pm
Last Updated:Jul 6, 2022 10:30 am 7991 Views
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I really like to think that I'm not sub. Definitely not dom, but surely I'm somewhere in the middle, right?
Then I think about what I must look like on my hands and knees as a real man sinks his hard rod into my bottom and begins to ride my smooth, feminized body, using me for his own pleasure until he deposits his creamy gift deep inside me.
Then there are the times when I'm on my knees, tingling with anticipation as I drop his pants and release his wonderful cock. And then I'm kissing, licking and sucking it until finally I'm swallowing his delicious cream, hoping that he's satisfied.
And to be honest, I sometimes miss this kind of thing...
Dammit, I'm not a sub, and I'll suck off any man who thinks I am! I'll show them who's in charge!
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You know what I mean when I say that
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Posted:Jan 29, 2019 7:01 pm
Last Updated:Mar 8, 2021 8:43 am 8344 Views
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This may be true for some girls...
but when I ask for a back massage, I really hope he tries to get me pregnant!
(It won't work but it's so much fun trying!)
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My New Year's Resolutions
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Posted:Jan 13, 2019 12:12 pm
Last Updated:Mar 8, 2021 8:45 am 8863 Views
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I'm a little late, but here are a few of my 2019 resolutions:
1. Lose about ten pounds so I will feel better about how I look naked
2. After succeeding with #1, spend as much time as possible naked or in lingerie
3. Try to increase the amount of protein in my diet
(It's so good, and good for you!)
And now the more serious and difficult one...
4. Figure out where I'm going and what I want to do with the rest of my life.
I've been feeling lately like I'm stuck in neutral. I'm not getting any younger and think I need to take a good look at myself and decide which direction to go in. Whether it's breast implants, or a serious program of hormones, or even the first steps toward a transition, I need to either move forward and become the Suzy that I've always dreamed of being, or maybe just give up on the dream and just have the wonderful memories.
The easiest thing would be to just keep going on like this, but I can't do this forever. It could potentially mean big changes in my lifestyle, my work, and my family situation, but I really think it's time to put on my big girl panties and make some tough decisions. Fortunately, I have two wonderful men in my life who have pledged to support me with whatever I do, with one of them possibly being the one to share the results with as a full-time partner.
Now it's just up to me to get the map out and decide which path to follow...
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It was a very Merry Christmas!
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Posted:Dec 30, 2018 7:46 pm
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2021 1:15 pm 8687 Views
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Steve stopped by on Christmas Day for a little holiday celebration. After a warm greeting (it's been a few weeks since we've been together), we sat down with glasses of eggnog (generously spiked with bourbon) and Christmas treats, including my famous chocolate chip cookies. Besides the obvious reason for missing him, I also really missed just sitting and talking with him. He's a very interesting person and also likes to hear about my interests and what I think about things.
Eventually, it was time to exchange gifts. We had each purchased several presents for each other and we were having fun opening them. Some were silly things, while others were practical and thoughtful.
Steve had a extra big smile on his face as he handed me the final present, so I knew that it was going to be something special. As I tore the paper open, I got very excited when I saw the Victoria's Secret box, and then was thrilled to see what was inside!
(No, this is not me, and I can only dream of filling out the top like she does)
Steve suggested that I try it on to make sure it's the right size. He didn't have to ask me twice! I scurried off to the bedroom, quickly stripped, and slipped on the beautiful little babydoll. Oh my, it felt so nice! I skipped the tiny little panty that came with it (it wasn't exactly made for girls like me!) and hurried out to model it for him.
I twirled around to give him a good look and his reaction told me that he liked what he saw. I sat down on his lap, gave him a big kiss and thanked him for the pretty present, which then turned into several more kisses. This was one of those powerful moments when I was almost nude and he was still fully dressed, which makes me feel vulnerable and submissive, yet completely turned on. I asked if I could take him to our bedroom and properly thank him for his generosity. He accepted my offer without a bit of hesitation, and off we went!
And the rest of the evening went just as wonderfully as I could have hoped for.
I hope you also had a very Merry Christmas!
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