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Ramblings of a sadistic sub

Whatever i feel like saying, on those rare occasions i feel like saying something...

Tags myself, LOL
Posted:Apr 2, 2008 5:26 am
Last Updated:May 12, 2008 4:07 am
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No one sent it to me, but i figured someone might want to know some of these things about me... and if not, don't read this!! LOL

(X) Gone on a blind date
(X) Skipped school
(X) Watched someone die
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been to Florida
(X) Been on a plane
(X) Been lost
( ) Been on the other side of the country
( ) Gone to Washington, DC
(X) Swam in the ocean
(X) Cried yourself to sleep
(X) Played cops and robber
(X) Recently colored with crayons
( ) Sang Karaoke
(X) Paid for a meal with coins only?
(X) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( ) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(X) Danced in the rain
( ) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
( ) Watched the sunrise with someone you care about?
(X) Blown bubbles
( ) Gone ice-skating
(X) Been skinny dipping outdoors
(X) Gone to the movies

1. Any nickname? Jinxie, LOL

2. Mother's name? Patrina

3. Favorite drink? Mt Dew

4. Tattoo?? No, a scar.

5. Body Piercings? Ears.

6. How much do you love your job? Pays the bills, hasn't driven me insane... yet.

7. Birthplace? San Jose, CA

8. Favorite vacation spot? Bed? no, hmm.. camping somewhere without too much dirt.

9. Ever been to Africa? No.

10. Ever eaten cookies for dinner? Must i admit it?

11. Ever been on TV?? No

12. Ever steal any traffic sign?? No

13. Ever been in a car accident?? Fender bender

14. Drive a 2-door or 4-door vehicle? Four

15. Favorite salad dressing? light mayo

16. Favorite pie? Lemon cream

17. Favorite number? 23

18. Favorite movie?. Shawshank Redemption, Braveheart

19. Favorite holiday? Xmas, gimmee LOTS of pressies!!!!

20. Favorite dessert? Ice Cream

21. Favorite food? American

22. Favorite day of the week? Saturday

23. Favorite brand of body wash? Olay

24. Favorite toothpaste? Whichever is cheapest

25. Favorite smell? Rain

26. What do you do to relax? Read, chat, crochet

27. Ever Love someone so much it hurts? No

28. How do you see yourself in 10 years? Don't know. Know where i HOPE to be, but won't say til i know.

OK... thats it.... If you wanna leave a link to YOUR blog where you answer the same or similar questions, please do! Or just comment.... Just please do NOT answer these questions for yourself as a comment... i WILL delete!!! *grins*
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Getting banned
Posted:Mar 24, 2008 2:52 am
Last Updated:Apr 3, 2008 3:27 pm
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OK, so i was nice and helped a friend make a profile for her Man, then passed along the information in a private post. For which i now get to be banned from chatting for 24 hours. Is this fair? Does helping members really conflict with Alt's rules???

*sigh*

More later.. maybe... unless i get banned from posting blogs too.
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Disobedient cunt.
Posted:Oct 2, 2007 8:26 am
Last Updated:May 12, 2008 4:09 am
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My cunt belongs to my Master, and He is training it to obey Him, but sometimes i am bad and let it disobey. When this happens, it must be punished, so it learns. This happened last night. Master was letting me be played with, but i was not to let my cunt cum, and i let it. By disobeying, it earned a 2 quart ice water enema, as well as an ice dildo in my cunt. i would have to hold the enema until the dildo had melted completely. Master says that maybe this will cool my hungry cunt enough to keep it obedient. To heighten the effect of the punishment, He sent me to bed, to wait until now to endure it. i will also face a week of being aroused to the point of climax 5 times a day, with no orgasm.

Anticipation of the pain leaves me on edge all day, and when i come home from work, there is a note on the table. Master will come by later, i am to attend to my own punishment. He knows that i am an attention slut, and the pain of punishment is worse when i know no one is enjoying seeing me that way. He also knows that without Him there to question or beg, any decision i make, i will choose the more painful option, to avoid further punishment for slacking.

Quickly i strip off all my clothes. Normally i would shower, but i know better than to do anything that would make me more comfortable. Going to the bathroom, i roll away the rug, leaving the cold tile exposed. Taking the hotwater bottle, i fill it with lukewarm water. If Master were here, i'd ask if i were allowed lube, but without Him, i decide not. Hanging the bottle from the hook in the ceiling, i kneel on the cold floor, head down and ass high in the air, then shove the nozzle into my dry ass. The pain makes me bite my lip to keep from making a sound.

Releasing the clamp on the hose, i feel the water filling me. i take as much as i can, then clamp off the hose again. Looking at my watch i time myself for 5 minutes, during which i constantly move to ensure the water in my ass reaches everywhere. Then i pull the nozzle out and sit on the toilet to release the nasty fluid. i repeat this 4 times, doubling the amount of time i hold it, until after holding it for 40 minutes the final time, when i expel the water i know i am clean and empty.

Filling the bag with warm water, i fill my gut one more time, letting the water run for a full minute past the 'comfortable' point. This i will hold while preparing the punishment enema. First, i take the hotwater bottle, and refill it with two full quarts of cold water from the tap and add 2 tablespoons of salt, shaking it well to dissolve the salt into the water. Walking awkwardly to the kitchen, i take several trays of ice from the freezer. i empty one into a big steel bowl, and sprinkle the ice liberally with rock salt, then i put the water bottle on top. Breaking the rest of the trays of ice into the bowl, after each one i add more rock salt.

The rock salt will make the ice melt faster, which will make the water in the bottle colder faster. The water in the bottle will get very, very cold, as the salt in it prevents it from freezing at 32 degrees.

To give the salted ice time to work, ensuring the ice water is as cold as possible, i check my phone messages. Other than a few telemarketers, there is only one. From Master.

"Hopefully you are listening to this before your punishment, or you will likely earn yourself more pain by not doing it properly." Gods, i am trembling with relief that i choose to play it, and fear that i have perhaps messed up already.

"I'm certain I do not need to remind you to clean yourself thoroughly before the punishment. I want nothing to interfere with the chilling of that disobedient cunt of yours. Make sure the water is as cold as possible bitch, i want your body in an icy hell. Use the large tube so your bowels are filled swiftly. Because your cunt has proven it cannot be trusted, to keep it from expelling the dildo, after shoving it in you will kneel straddling the edge of the tub, with your knees spread wide so your cunt bears your full weight. Blindfold yourself so you are not distracted from your lesson.

"This is important cunt so listen closely. If at any time you feel you are too cold, you will turn the shower on and stand under the hot water for the rest of the time it takes to melt the dildo inside you. i do NOT expect you to allow yourself to get sick. Showering will earn you 10 crop strokes on the clit. Making yourself sick will earn you 50, as well as a repeat of this punishment, with me and my cane showing you the exact point you ought to have chosen the shower. Do not disappoint me.

"Oh, and there are three ice cocks for you to select from. Choose wisely my cock-hungry little slut." Click. Damn. That tub edge is not as bad as a wooden pony, but darn close!

Waddling back to the kitchen i peer into the freezer. The cocks are three different sizes. One medium, one large, and one very large that i am not sure i would even be able to get inside me and would surely take hours to melt. i start to reach for that one, thinking He must wish me to really suffer, then pause to think. He knows i would pick the largest one, why would He have left that comment? i realize that if the cock took too long to melt, it might cause damage... worse, if Master came over before it had melted, He would have to wait to use me.

Praying i made the right choice, i grab the second largest ice cock, knowing it will still take endless agonies of time to melt. Grabbing the now freezing hotwater bottle, i head for the bathroom with a detour to grab my blindfold.

My body is quite relieved when i finally release the warm water inside me, not knowing how grateful it should have been. After standing and sitting several times to ensure i work all the water out of me, i hang the icy bag from its hook. Setting a medium buttplug on the edge of the tub, alongside the ice cock, i switch tubes on the bag, replacing the thinner tube with one that will let the water flow with punishing speed. Master did not mention bleeding the air from the tube, so i don't. The water behind it will force it into my ass, adding to the cramps i will soon suffer, but i know i don't deserve anything less.

Setting a small timer to beep at 10 minute intervals, i kneel on the cold tiles once again, and shove the nozzle deep inside my ass, then reach with trembling fingers for the clamp. Holding the clamp in my hand, i pause, speaking aloud to the empty bathroom.

"i am a filthy little cock hungry , with an unworthy fuckhole that refuses to obey its Master. Until the stupid cum thirsty cunt learns to obey its rightful Master, it will be punished. Master deserves a good, clean, sweet cunt to serve Him, and i am just a worthless nasty bitch, who has earned this punishment. Please make this unworthy regret choosing to let Your cunt displease You.

"Please punish me, Master. i beg You Master, chastise me with pain. i beg You Master, castigate me with humiliation. i beg You Master, crush me with despair. Thank You Master, for punishing me."

After reciting the last ritual word to the empty bathroom, i release the clamp, feeling the water high above me rush down the tube, shoving the air from the tube into me with a strange sensation, before the fiery agony hits.

After the last warm enema, the sensitive flesh of my rectum is completely unprepared for the icy needles assaulting it. As the freezing water forces its way into me, i am already cramping from both the cold, and the rapid expansion of my colon. i have to clench my hand into a fist to keep from grabbing the clamp to stop the flow. i have never felt such an intense pain; it is as if knives of fire are dancing inside me, ripping my guts to shreds. It takes only a few minutes for the water to fill me, and several more minutes of agonizing cramps before i am able to gasp out, "Thank You Master, for punishing me."

Choking back moans, i reach up for the buttplug, then my other hand slowly pulls out the enema nozzle. i take move slow because my bowels are screaming at me to empty themselves, and i fear a sudden move might break my control. Nudging the buttplug against my anus, i shove it hard and fast, needing its help to keep the hellish enema inside me.

Dragging myself to the tub, as my belly twists and cramps, i can barely get my leg high enough to move over the edge. Finally i do it, and push myself up into a crouch, one leg in the tub, one leg out. i move the ice dildo so it is under my cunt, then slowly let myself down, wiggling it into me. After filling my abdomen with ice water, i would have thought the ice kilo to be little worse, but my cunt has far more nerve endings and every single one protests the icy invasion. It feels more like a blowtorch than a cock of ice. i am trembling from cold and pain, my skin dripping with sweat.

Trying to straighten my body is excruciating. i fumble for the blindfold, wrapping it around my head and making sure it is snug. Fighting to keep erect, i make myself spread my knees, taking my weight on my cunt, hating it for causing me such pain. The edge of the tub shoves the dildo deep inside me, hard against my cervix.

In anguish, i lift my hands to the back of my neck, balanced on the edge of the tub, my abdomen clawing at me to bend over and relieve the cramping misery. Whimpering, i force the words from me, "Thank You Master for punishing me.

"Please punish this cunt, Master. i beg You Master, chastise this cunt with pain. i beg You Master, castigate this cunt with humiliation. i beg You Master, crush this cunt with despair. Thank You Master, for punishing this cunt.

"Please punish this , Master. i beg You Master...."

Over and over, pausing only when the cramps prevent me from forcing air through my vocal cords, begging to the empty room. Each name Master has given me must beg for its punishment.

Cunt, , bitch, slut.

My body shivering more now, i don't know if it is from cold or pain. i don't think it is enough to need warming. Not yet. The words still coming from my throat. Adding adjectives now, so as not to anger Master by repeating myself.

Filthy slut, stupid cocksucker, disobedient , worthless cum dump.

Trapped behind my blindfold with no distractions from the pain, my brain bounces between them, calling attention to the frozen tissues of my cunt, then the cramping in my gut, then the crushing of my clit between tub and pubic bone, then the pain of muscles fighting to obey me and stay upright, on and on, with no relief, no chance to sneak off into the mercy of oblivion.

Eventually i wonder if the punishing ice inside me has melted yet. It is impossible to tell without checking by hand, too much pain to discern whether one particular pain is still present. i wait until i hear a small beep from the time, then lower one hand to my cunt, rocking back to my ass sends me into further waves of agony, as i hunt for ice inside me. As my fingers touch the chilly remains of the dildo, i choke on my words, unable to deal with the thought of still more pain. However, i force myself to lift my hand, back to my neck, then a whining moan as i rock back onto my cunt and clit, crushing them onto the tub edge again...

"Please punish this disobedient, fucked up excuse of an ass licker, Master. i beg You Master, chastise this disobedient, fucked up excuse of an ass licker with pain. i beg You Master, castigate this disobedient, fucked up excuse of an ass licker with humiliation. i beg You Master, crush this disobedient, fucked up excuse of an ass licker with despair. Thank You Master, for punishing this disobedient fucked up excuse of an ass licker...."

The words making me bleed with shame nearly as painful as the churning anguish of my body. i let several beeps go by, before tormenting myself again to check. Still there. Almost gone, but not quite. i am still cold, but i don't think i will need the shower. The needle sharp pain is blunted slightly. Or perhaps i am too cold, and just don't know it. i shiver, afraid i am beyond judging my temperature.

i wait through two beeps, then check. Finally! i shove my fingers deep, my numb flesh barely able to feel them. No ice. All gone. Breathing a deep, painful sigh of relief, i drag the wet blindfold from my eyes, opening them to the sight of Master, leaning against the doorjamb, watching me with a blank expression. His eyes narrow as i start to open my mouth, and i close it, sensing He does not want my attention. My punishment is not yet complete.

Knowing i will never be able to drag my body to the toilet, i push myself off the edge, into the tub. Fighting the cramps to get my knees under me... i reach down and wiggle the buttplug free, feeling the still cool water shoot out of my ass. Leaning forward onto my arms, i relax my body as best i can, letting it empty itself.

Laying there for several long minutes, with my eyes closed, occasionally squirting more water out of my ass as it worked it's way down my colon, i was suddenly startled as the shower came on, full blast, soaking me with cold water. Twisting around jerkily i look at to see Master, still blank faced, grabbing the hand held showerhead. Twisting it to a hard, pulsating massage setting, He sprayed me down, paying particular attention to my ass and legs. After a few moments He turns off the water. "Dry yourself bitch, and get your fucking ass in the bedroom."

"Yes Mast--" i was cut off by a sharp slap across my face.

"Silence, stupid !"

With a soundless whimper i watched Him stride out of the bathroom, then carefully stood and grabbed a towel. Vigorously rubbing myself down, i made sure i got every drop of water, then rubbed my head, getting my hair as dry as i could.

Aching from the painful punishment still, i made my way to the bedroom, where Master grabbed my arm and threw me at the bed. Following me with ropes in His hand, He soon had me immobile, my hands tied to the top two bedposts, knees pulled up to the headboard, spread wide to leave my tits exposed, and my ankles pulls harshly down toward the endposts. To keep my head from movement, He first shoved a jawcracking large ballgag into my mouth, tightening the strap till the leather was nearly cutting into my skin, then He used a rope through the D-ring at the back, to lift my head, tying the rope to a hook in the ceiling so i had no choice but to look down my bound body toward my cunt.

"So, did that cool your hot lil cock hungry cunt down, bitch??" He asked me, staring at me. Shoving His long fingers into me, He smirked cruelly. "Bet this cold lil fuckhole ain't gonna disobey, is it? Unfortunately for you, i like my pussy a lil warmer. I'd better warm it up a bit before i test it."

My eyes widen as i see Him lift a leather strap, 3 inches wide and liberally spattered with holes. He examines it before me, letting me get a good look at it, then He sets it down and picks up another, this one with round metal studs in rows all along its length. "Which one do you think would work better to warm your nasty lil hole with? Hmmm?" Looking at me as if waiting for an answer. i mumble into the gag, begging for the holed one, knowing the studs of the other would shred me in moments.

"Speak up bitch, i can't hear you! Which of these straps will be baptized by your filthy cunt juice tonight? If you don't choose, i will just have to assume you want to try both!"

Shaking my head as best i can, i try desperately to indicate the holed one, grunting mutedly into the gag. He sighs loudly and shakes His head, "I guess you are just a greedy lil , wanting both."

i quiver as i see Him pick up the studded strap, my already tormented cunt open and defenseless to it. Lifting the strap high, He brings it down hard onto my open thigh, forcing a scream behind the vicious gag. Again He raises it, bring it down on my other thigh. Slowly, allowing the pain of each stroke to build and start to ease before landing the next stroke, He carefully paints my thighs a deep pink, spotted with uncountable red dots. My face is wet with tears, watching each stroke from so close i could feel the air move.

With a cruel smile, He takes up the other strap. With an almost graceful air, He lifts it, bringing it directly down on my open cunt with such force i am stunned, feeling nothing for an endless long instant before all the torment of the evening is redoubled, concentrated on my fuckhole. i convulse in excruciating pain. Uncaring of my agony, He immediately opens His jeans, pulling His long hard cock out. He kneels on the bed, and before i am even aware He is there, His cock is thrust deeply into me, His body lying heavily atop mine.

As my body shakes and shudders, trying to deal with the merciless pain, He simple rides it out with a smile. Once i calm slightly He begins thrusting hard into me, using me like the fucktoy i am. "Would you like to cum, you fucking little ?" He whispers into my ear, as each thrust of His adds to my torment. "Is your cold little hole going to beg for satisfaction?? How long til that greedy cunt starts to get wet for me, i wonder. How many strokes will it take for your disobedient twat to begin arching up to me, begging my cock to please it?"

Each biting word a whisper in my ear, a scream to my soul. His hands clawing at my tits, leaving long red stripes as He mauls them, leaning His weight onto me, leaving me sucking for air desperately. He moves His head down, biting my nipples. Chewing on them til i squirm in furious pain. Laughing at me. "That’s right, bitch, squirm for me. Show me how much you want it." He pounds into me with relentless force, until he suddenly slams into me viciously, groaning in loud pleasure as He cums inside me. He rolls off me, "Good cunt."

After laying there a while, Him replete, me in ruthless torment, He rises and begins untying me. Once my bonds are all gone, the rope lifting my head removed from the ballgag, but the gag still in place, He looks down at me. "I did not get RM's email address from Him. You shall write this up for Him in your blog." A cruel grin on His face. "Take as much time as you like, resting before you write it. That gag stays in until it is written, posted, approved, and you have informed everyone in FFF and Humiliation chatrooms of its existence. If RM is present, you will request His permission to remove the gag, after He has read the blog. At His direction you may either remove it, or loosen it to sleep in. If He's not there, you may call me. I will review your blog, then decide if you keep it or not." Leaning down toward my head, He blocks my view of His hand reaching toward my fuckhole. Pressing His lips hard to my forehead, His hand grasps my cunt and mauls it, reigniting its agony, His fingers like claws digging at my nether lips.

With a hard flick to my clit, He lifts His head, moving to whisper in my ear, "Good night you worthless fucking . Set your alarm early, you don't want to be late for work, and you might need a bit of extra time to get this filthy cunt of mine to heat up in the morning." A hard slap between my legs as if to leave no doubt which cunt He means. "Before work, at your lunch, and after work before leaving, you will have this disobedient, cum hungry hole begging to cum. I will help you with the final two times."

He lifts His head to stare deep into my eyes with a hard, cruel look. "I don't think i need to remind you that it must beg, but will NOT get what it begs for, do I??"

In terrified pain i shake my head no.

"Good." A soft kiss to my forehead, and He is gone, leaving me shuddering in pain and mental agony. i think about just going to sleep, but the gag is strapped so mercilessly tight i know it would be impossible. After laying there for a while, i struggle to my feet, moving out to the living room where my computer desk sits, currently minus its chair. One more little humiliation to face, as i kneel at the keyboard, and slowly start typing.

"My cunt belongs to my Master, and He is training it to obey Him....
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Kegel Training
Posted:Aug 9, 2007 7:32 pm
Last Updated:Mar 12, 2008 10:36 pm
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Find a nice comfortable spot for this, a recliner or such would work well. I would advise placing a few towels under her.

Tie your naked girl firmly with her legs spread, so she can't move too much... arms, legs and chest ought work fine. Now you can either use a butterfly, or set a vibrator against her clit, as long as she can't dislodge it. Next, attach nipple clamps lightly, just so they remain attached. Finally, insert a kegel monitor, that detects whether her kegel muscles are tight or relaxed.

(i'm not an electronics whiz, so find someone else to tell you how to do this next bit, LOL )

Now, set it up so that as long as she is tight.. she gets the butterfly... if she relaxes her nipples get an electric shock.

Now, at first all we are working on is getting her to be able to keep her kegels tight... a big benefit to You... a side benefit to her. You might let her cum, if she gets that far, and begs nicely. Of course, You'd choose to remove the nipple shocks for this reward... right? LOL

As soon as she is skilled enough, You can could change it so she has to clench to a certain rhythm... too fast and the right nipple gets shocked.... too slow and the left nipple... just right gets her the nice butterfly/vibrator.

If her kegels are already good, You could tell her she isn't to cum.... if she gets too close, she would have to stop clenching.. and accept nipple shocks... *WEG* Or You might set a time limit... an hour or two... and she can cum all she likes, but for every time her nipples get a shock, after her kegel session she will get a spank/belt/crop... how soon can she get her kegels tight again after a climax??
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