Out of the normal posts for me
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Posted:Jan 7, 2012 11:10 pm
Last Updated:Apr 23, 2012 7:26 am 79702 Views
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For those that do not know I am a single parent of teens. One boy age 17 and one girl age 16. Both are considered special needs. My has severe ADHD(no longer on meds) and Bi-Polar2(on meds) and my has a birth defect called congenital scoliosis.
Although they both look normal they have issues. My is the better off of the two by far. So far the prognosis for her adulthood is VERY good.
My on the other hand... well.. he is on meds for life. Raising these alone has not been easy by any means. I've sacrificed a lot of my life and time for them. I wouldn't change that.I feel blessed to have that are special needs.
That being said, tonight my and I had an impass.(sp) He is acting in a way that he does not understand nor do I. I am going to take a few days away and have close family friends stay with the and try to help me.
This is a part of my life that I have not been open about in public. I feel isolated and alone and many would not understand. I would and have done everything I can for my . I would never change that. They are blessings to me.( I was not supposed to be able to have )
I am facing a very difficult time with my right now. Some very difficult decisions need to be made within the next month. Decisions I've dreaded. Decisions I was hoping I would NEVER have to make.
I bring this into public view now as I cannot believe that I am the only one who lives and breathes this lifestyle that is facing this challenge. I fear what others may say and I fear what my will think of me. My are my life.Those that know me... know this to be very true. I'm not sure if I should mention the decisions I may have to make in the very near future as yes... unfortunately I know how fickle public opinion can be... especially from those that have never had to deal with what I am right now.
I will not be leaving modeling or pro-domme work or the lifestyle. That much I promise. No worries there. Am just asking for some support and any kind of help for what lies ahead of me and my . I may have no right to ask... but yet, here I am asking anyway. See... I may have to institutionalize my . Not something any Mother ever wants to do or consider. It's not easy to write this or admit this in any fashion.Those that know me...know...this....I've tried to hide it for a very long time.
I know I may not be saying everything with this but.. it's more of a start than I have shared in public. Gods give me the strength to do the right thing and please don't let me be alone.
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Looking forward
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Posted:Dec 26, 2011 11:34 am
Last Updated:Jan 2, 2012 9:02 pm 73269 Views
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While I am looking forward to a New Year and new beginnings. I keep think of my father and my desires rage and burn. I then let my mind wander to my most taboo of fantasies.
Been constantly horny for months now.Am hoping the new year means I may actually get lucky sometime during that year..lol
Right it just seems that nymphos, like myself, aren't in style as it were.I'm into a lot of things and keep many to myself as I've been judged by many who don't understand.Tis hard to find even friends who would understand what I am into.
Hoping that next year things will change.
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Back online
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Posted:Dec 14, 2011 4:48 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2012 10:06 am 73725 Views
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I am finally back online after 3 weeks of my computer being down.Took all of my xmas fund to get it fixed but...at least it's fixed and operational.
I hope everyone has a wonderful and blessed holiday season.
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Rantings for the last few days
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Posted:Nov 21, 2011 11:02 am
Last Updated:Dec 19, 2011 5:49 pm 71443 Views
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Apparently I have upset yet another male dominant by not addressing him as Master or Sir. I don't do that with one that is not my own or people I do not personally know. How is that wrong?
I tried to explain to the gentleman that it was not out of disrespect. I was taught and trained that the titled must be earned and not expected by all. Those that I know I do address in such a manner out of mutual respect for who they are.
If you have a complaint with me take a number and when hell freezes over in about a month or so I may have the time to get back to you. Thank you and have a beautiful day.
I know what I want and I really won't settle for much less than that. I can make certain exceptions of course..but to totally go of base as far as what I want? I'm not a slave nor do I have a slave mentality.
You only know me as far as I will let you. Some know more than others and even fewer still know the entire person that is me.Even then I still decide whom I let in and how far. I choose what I share with others. Most of it is all out there for the world to see. However, very few know it all. I can count them on one hand those that know all about me.
Time to go play with myself until I can find a suitable cock to fuck.
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Sex drive in overdrive
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Posted:Nov 17, 2011 8:01 am
Last Updated:Apr 25, 2012 1:49 pm 74812 Views
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Having so many naughty thoughts and desires right now. Blatant wanting of long hard huge cock and maybe just maybe more than one at the same time.
Not really sure I care exactly what the cock belongs to at this point. That's why they make blindfolds.
All I know is that I want to cum.. over and over again. To be so lost in the lustful bliss of orgasm to not care what is giving me such sweet pleasure.
Am pretty sure that not even the naughty santa is going to be visiting me this year..lol
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This week
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Posted:Nov 12, 2011 9:27 pm
Last Updated:Dec 9, 2011 9:40 pm 73334 Views
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This coming week I am looking forward to the possibility of finally getting my first DP. My first MMf threesome. I am really hoping that this happens and that I enjoy every last bit of it. I really think I need this right now.
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Stress
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Posted:Nov 3, 2011 10:41 pm
Last Updated:Nov 8, 2011 10:10 am 70975 Views
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Dealing with much more stress. Of course normal everyday BS from teenage but then my fence to my home was tagged with grafiti of somekind. I won't sleep much. I reported it to the police of course but they took a picture and said it will get to right department then said I might hear back but don't count count on it. Now my paranoia is up. No sleep tonight until I can paint my fence tomorrow.
Tis a bit scary I will admit that.The symbols don't mean anything to me but the symbols seem japanese or at least asian in nature.
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hmmmm
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Posted:Oct 25, 2011 10:36 am
Last Updated:Oct 30, 2011 9:00 pm 69832 Views
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Well my birthday was great. Lots of friends came out to celebrate with me.
I even managed to get laid this year..lol
Brought home this gorgeous 22yr old asian boy. 6 hours of solid sex fun.
Now am back on my mission to bring my fantasies into fruition.
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Birthday time
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Posted:Oct 10, 2011 7:53 pm
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2011 5:26 pm 70323 Views
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Hard to believe that my Birthday is just a week and half away. Planning a great party and hoping at least one of my Birthday wishes comes true.
The last 6 months have been hard but good things are bound to be on the horizon.Nothing is gonna keep this hot lady down (unless I'm bound that way for my Birthday)LOL.
My Birthday is Thurs the 20th. I'll be celebrating all next week. This MILF is gonna get naughty and if I'm lucky.. I may just end up with a few new pics in the process.
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The KNOT
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Posted:Oct 3, 2011 9:17 pm
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2011 9:19 pm 70835 Views
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I am asking for some help.
I have a young gentleman that doesn't seem to understand the dangers of playing with the knot in any way shape or form.
If you are experienced in this arena please post here on this blog about how important safety is...trust is... and most importantly knowledge and experience of a knot and it's owner.
The resource sites I had are not longer running and this young guy scares the hell out of me.
Thanks
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