Getting Back on Track
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Posted:Jul 22, 2010 7:17 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 36119 Views
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Mistress and i had a wonderful chat last night. my general funk had continued and while it was not directly related to my service to Her, it certainly was affecting that service. i felt very badly about that but i had been unable to shake the mood and get myself back on track. This was a clear obstacle to continuing O/our relationship and so W/we did the only sensible thing: W/we talked about it. There was no drama, only honest communication. This has certainly strengthened O/our relationship.
W/we both live busy lives. When W/we can find the time to spend with each other it is wonderful. The cam sessions, particularly the e-stim sessions, have been spectacular. i also enjoy O/our chats, Her direction and Her fantasies.. Lately, however, i have found it tough to do my assigned chores and She has found it difficult to find the time to spend. It seems that W/we were both feeling badly about it.
Several things came out of the conversation. First, i confirmed Her ownership of my cock, balls and ass. i told her that i earnestly want to continue i Her service. Second, She reduced my chores to a more manageable level. Third, W/we agreed to look at the situation and make further adjustments after the middle of August. i look forward to the future of O/our relationship with new hope now. W/we are participating in a partnership. She wishes to have me and i wish to be used. That is perfect.
Interestingly, Mistress ordered me to continue with my dildo riding chores. Now i must do this three times a week instead of twice. Also, the riding times have been changed. i can either ride the black beauty for a minimum of fifteen minutes each time or i can sit on my new dildo for a minimum of five minutes. The new dildo is somewhat larger than i have used before. It is a realistic cock and balls with a head diameter of slightly over two inches. The shaft itself has a two inch diameter. i am amazed that my ass stretches that far. Certainly it gives me a very full feeling. To date i have not been able to ride it as Mistress would like but i can take it balls deep. The thing slides in, opening me as it goes, but there is a special moment when the tension of the intruding head overcomes the grip of the sphincter. At that moment, the dildo seems to enter me with a little rush. It is quite a feeling, pleasant and profound.
i am confident that i will accommodate the larger dildo more easily over time. It will just take training. i have started wearing my butt plug for longer each day. my intention is to wear it for the majority of each work day. So far today it has been in for 10 hours. I also plan to make my sessions with the black beauty longer in order to promote the stretching and then finish with the large dildo. All this i will record on video for Mistress's amusement. Since She has little time, i will send it to Her so that She can watch it at Her convenience. It will give Her a record of my progress and amuse Her. For my part, i find the idea of the video very exciting.
So, there is both hope and fun to be had.
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Subus Interruptus
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Posted:Jul 12, 2010 1:16 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 35504 Views
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Okay, what is going on here? My kink has gone awol and i am sitting here trying without success trying to get my sub on. Perhaps it is the change in the weather, perhaps it is a busy schedule, perhaps i am just feeling hormonal (probably not). This is decidedly weird.
i probably just need to be strapped down and given a good flogging.
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Not as Macho as i Thought
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Posted:Jul 9, 2010 9:44 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 34444 Views
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i thought that i could take the clover clamps for the entire commute for an entire month. What macho nonsense!
Let me be clear about this: there is no way that it is happening. Yes, Mistress did warn me it would be too much for me. i knew better. i could take it. i was a manly sub. i was not afraid of a little pain. Okay, i am not afraid of a little pain but in my book this goes beyond a little pain. i guess i will just chalk that one up to experience like the incident with the white pants. (see below)
So, Mistress has given me two weeks to find tweezer clamps. They used to be common in the shops up here but they are proving hard to find at the moment. Now isn't that typical?
As far as the butt plug goes, i discovered the other day that i am actually looking forward to using it. Isn't it odd how the world turns?
Anyway, i must be off to get off. The die gave me permission to cum five times today and i intend to take advantage. Who knows when i will have the chance again?
c 1d 5r - yipee
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Under Control
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Posted:Jul 8, 2010 12:59 pm
Last Updated:Jul 8, 2010 1:03 pm 34192 Views
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The title of this post refers both to my work and myself. Coming back from holidays i found that things were a little backed up. In addition, i had some personal projects that required my attention. i was also feeling a little rebellious...not entirely willing to return to the servitude related to my commute. There was also the matter of the month of nipple clamping to pay form my earlier orgasm. There were a lot of conflicting thoughts bouncing around in my head. Mistress has kindly told me that i many have up to three days off each month when things get too hectic in my life. i took two of those days to get myself together while clearing my desk and my head.
After some consideration i have decided that i have given Mistress control of my cock and my balls and my ass and it is my earnest desire that they continue to be Hers as long as this amuses Her. i will continue to be denied, to be teased and to suffer for Her amusement.
That is why i am sitting at my desk with my ass filled with the plug She told me to buy. That is why i commuted to work this morning not only with the plug in my ass but also with clover clamps on my nipples and why i will be wearing them on the commute home, and for the next month of commuting. That is why i will be riding my dildo tonight to stretch out my ass for Her. That is why i am writing this, to remind me of my place at Her feet. Rebellion sometimes has the effect of reinforcing a bond, of showing the importance of respect. While i was railing against the agreement i had made, i found that inside it was what i profoundly desired.
As for the clamps, i will just have to live with that. The first two attempts with my brass clamps did not work well. The combination of body movement and clothing pressing against the clamps worked them off the nipples quite quickly. Mistress suggested teaser clamps, which i will be picking up as soon as i have an opportunity but i needed to get started with paying my debt. Mistress granted me an orgasm and the price was a month of commuting with nipple clamps on both ways. i made the deal, even suggested the price, and i will live with it. Therefore, this morning i put on the clamps before setting out. i expected that the nipples would simply go numb and that after a period of time i would feel little until i removed them at work. i was wrong about that. The general activity created by my commute pulled and twisted on the clamps throughout my trip. Far from going numb, my nipples continued to ache throughout. At some points they positively burned. Of course, that was nothing compared to the feeling when i took the clamps off at work. However, far from distracting me, the clamps seemed to focus my thoughts entirely on sex. The weather has finally turned warm here and every lovely lady on the skytrain was wearing a tight top and tighter jeans or short skirt. i watched everyone pass, imaging the body beneath. If this is a sample of what the month is to be like, i will be one randy bugger by the end...well randier....much randier.....
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Back to Work
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Posted:Jul 5, 2010 12:39 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 33822 Views
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Holidays are over and that means back to the routine. The routine means back to the morning roll to see when i will be wearing my plug. It means nipple clamps in the morning shower. It means getting back on schedule with my dildo riding. It means keeping up my blog.
It was strange slipping the plug in this morning. It has not been in my ass for a week. It felt both oddly familliar and strangely alien. Of course, wearing the nipple clamps on the commute was a new experience. The right clamp slipped off as i was walking to the station but i wore the left one in all the way. It was not so bad once the nipple went numb. Taking it off was an interesting experience. i think the dents have gone away now. That's one commute down and 39 to go. Tomorrow i will try the clover clamps rather than the tweezer clamps. They have more staying power and will be less likely to be worked off by my clothing.
i am commuting with a stainless steel plug up my butt and a pair of clamps squeezing my nipples while sitting in my business clothes amongst the throng of other commuters. It makes one wonder what secrets their clothes might be hiding.
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Back to the Edge Again
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Posted:Jul 4, 2010 10:37 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 33885 Views
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The die have spoken once again. i am back on the edging for at least the next five days. Next week i begin my month of wearing my nipple clamps to and from work on my commute. This is to pay for a change to cum during an edging period. Mistress offered me the chance to buy my release and we agreed on the price. i was allowed to cum, now it is time to pay.
Now that holidays are over, it is time to get back to a routine. That means regular riding times for the dildo, morning meditations, nipple clamps in the moring showers and my butt plug during the commute.
Life returns to normal or at least my kinky version of normal.
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Four Fingers
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Posted:Jul 3, 2010 8:25 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 33903 Views
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Last night my wife had four fingers up my ass and it was wonderful. Mistress Smotheryounow was quite correct when She commented that filling one's own ass and having someone else use it are quite different. Feeling her fingers fucking me was exciting and when she ordered me to play with my cock it did not take long to bring myself to the verge of cumming. It took even less time to push me over when she took over and wrapped her hand around the cock. Of course, she did not stop. She loves to see how much she cam make me writhe after i cum.
At the moment, i am cumming a lot. i am not edging. i am cumming. The die roll required that i cum six time each day for the last two. The fact is, cumming is more difficult than the edging. i only managed two orgasms yesterday. Today we will have to see. i apprecate the chances to cum and i want to take advantage of them but the more i cum the harder it is to get it up for the next.
Tomorrow i roll again and there is no telling when i will have an opportunity to cum again.
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It Comes Back So Quickly
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Posted:Jul 1, 2010 4:56 pm
Last Updated:Jul 1, 2010 4:57 pm 33609 Views
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Even though Mistress allowed me to cum two days ago, i am once again as randy as ever. Edging five times a day tends to have that effect. I have been on holiday this week and so things have been rather relaxed but next week i return to work and then i must start paying for the gift of my release. My poor nipples.
Curiously enough, it has been harder to find times to do my chores while on vacation. During a regular work week i have a set place for every task. Without that structure, i find that everything degenerates into chaos. It is relaxing chaos, structureless days of spontaneous action, but chaos nevertheless.
i feel a little as though i am drifting.
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A Price to be Paid
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Posted:Jun 29, 2010 10:12 pm
Last Updated:Jun 29, 2010 11:10 pm 33972 Views
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i had a wonderful time with Mistress last night and She allowed me to cum. Of course there is a price to be paid but more about that later.
We had spent the afternoon shopping online for toys that i must buy. Mistress wants a larger dildo in my ass and i must buy a realistic model because that will be more humiliating for me. She also told me to buy nipple suckers and an enema kit.
Mistress wanted an evening of e-stim and i was happy to oblige. This time W/we used the new stainless steel penis plug and the njoy butt plug as electrodes. The sensations were amazing, ranging from intense vibrations deep inside to a pounding grip on the head of my cock. It is hard to describe the feelings adequately because they are not precisely like anything else. They are shifting, amazing sensations that both torment and excite. Mistress loves to hear me moan and so She experiments with the settings, looking for the most effective combination of power, pulse rate and frequency. She discovered a few amazing combination in this session. At times i was quite unable to speak. At others i was panting. Other settings had me gripping the sides of the chair as i held my breath. The evening was everything i had hoped to experience.
After the e-stim, Mistress watched while i edged. If i was impossibly horny before W/we started the evening, i was close to insane with lust by this point. That was when She ask me what i would do for a chance to cum. i made some offers but Mistress kept telling me that more was required. In the end, i agreed to wear my nipple clamps on my commute both ways for a month. And so i was allowed to release.
After i released and licked up the cum , Mistress ask me if cumming was worth the price. i told Her that i would know by the end of the month.
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Wanting and Not Wanting
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Posted:Jun 28, 2010 4:48 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 12:48 am 33856 Views
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i admit to feeling somewhat conflicted. my balls are aching and i very much want to cum. On the other hand, that ache reminds me of the control i have surrendered. It is like my Mistress' hand gripping me and telling me that my sex is Hers. i no longer choose when i cum. i am pleasured or tormented at Her discretion alone. Sometimes the pleasure and the torment are so intertwined that i cannot tell them apart. The lovemaking yesterday with its combination of joyous sensations and denial made more of a mark on me than i had originally realized. The need for release is so strong today. i did ask to cum today. She said, "No." That is the end of the matter.
However, that is not the end to my tasks. i have edged once and ridden my dildo as required. However, i have not yet clamped my nipples or completed the rest of the edgings. In addition, i also have an e-stim session to complete which Mistress may or may not supervise personnally. She has instructed me that it is not to be too comfortable. i know what She wants. i know She wants me to gasp as the power courses through my tender flesh. She has told me to broadcast the session on ALT because She knows i love to be watched. That will be from about 7:30 PST to whenever tonight. She is a wonderful Mistress. If She is present, i know that She will push me further than i would willingly push myself. i hope She can make it.
The last e-stim session the most wonderful and intense experience i could have imagined. The possibility of having another such session has butterflies fluttering in my stomach. Oh i hope She can make it. i so want to be subject to Her whim, to please Her with my suffering, and to feel Her eyes on me. Oh, please let it happen.
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