Another Five Days
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Posted:Jun 27, 2010 6:23 pm
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 7:23 pm 35785 Views
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The die has spoken again. i will be edging for another five days and i will be edging at least five times for each of those day. Oh my aching balls!
Of course, the wife decided to do a little hands on work this morning. There was a long tease in the shower. There were three or four edges there. Then, after spending a little time with my head between her legs licking her moistening sex, she lubed my cock thoroughly. There was another edge there. Then she ordered me to fuck her. Of course i did not have permission to cum. It would have been so easy to loose control. Just sliding in might have been enough. Somehow i managed to keep control of myself. It certainly was not easy. At the start i thought that every stroke would push me over the edge. i moved slowly, deliberately, controlling the level of sensation but the wife wanted much more. She wanted to be taken hard. She wanted me to drive my cock into her. Controlling my orgasm was my problem, not hers. i gave her what she wanted and somehow still held on. i drove in deep and hard and she began to moan. Her body moved seductively under mine. She became sweaty and slick. We slid together and i slid inside her. Still i did not cum. She did. Having a woman cumming on the end of your cock when you are not permitted release is a powerful experience. I drove deep and hard. Burying myself completely into her pussy, grinding my groin into hers with rhythmic thrusts. Grinding against her clit, holding my cock in place as i pivoted my hips around it as though it were an axle, i denied myself the stimulation that would have pushed me over the edge. As she thrashed and panted, i started to thrust again in long, hard jabs. Always, as i reached the edge, i drove deep and ground against her. Beacuse i was not cumming, because i was constantly at the edge, because i ached to cum i stayed hard and the fucking went on and on. It continued until she had had enough. She told me to get off her and, as i lay there panting, she stoked my hair and told me how much she had enjoyed it.
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Tomorrow i Roll Again
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Posted:Jun 26, 2010 10:26 pm
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 7:23 pm 36271 Views
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So, how long has it been since the last time i had permission to cum? Well, i had permission to cum his week but i missed the opportunity. Before that it was two weeks, perhaps longer. How many times have i edged since then? i do not have a clue. i tend to edge far more that the required minimum number. i may have edged hundreds of times, quite literally, since my last release. my balls are aching. i am thinking about my submission to Mistress all the time now. The longer i wait for my next orgasm, the more the need grows, the more i am denied, the stronger my feelings of gratitude grow. Why should that be. my only regret is that i am not kneeling before Her at this moment, displaying my gratitude in whatever way would please Her most.
Tomorrow i must roll the die again. A roll of one or two means that i may cum. Another other roll means more denial and edging. i honestly don't know which way i want the roll to go. No matter what the roll brings, i will do as it directs and thank Mistress for the game She makes Her toy play.
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White Pants...Butt Plug...Bad Idea
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Posted:Jun 25, 2010 10:12 pm
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2010 10:26 pm 40456 Views
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Just for the reference of O/one and A/all, it is a bad idea to wear white pants when one is wearing a butt plug on a hot day. The lubricant tends to get rather thin as it heats. What seemed like just enough lube to get the plug into your ass can leak out and spread surprising far, carrying a yellow brown stain with it. This may not be a problem if you are in private or wearing dark pants. However, wearing white pants in public is maybe not the best idea. It is entirely your choice of course, or your Owner's, but you have been warned.
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Opening Up
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Posted:Jun 24, 2010 1:16 pm
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 7:23 pm 38989 Views
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Opening up my ass that is. Since Mistress loves the idea of my ass being stuffed, i have been dutifully wearing my njoy plug (one to three hours per day depending on the morning roll of the die) and riding the black beauty twice a week (minimum requirement is ten minutes each ride but i have been averaging over an hour). However, on my last ride black beauty was not providing any challenge and Mistress likes me to have a little challenge. So i bought a new dildo. While it is not a monster by any means, it is somewhat longer and thicker than the beauty. It also has a rather blunt head. It seemed manageable in the shop but when i got it home and was sitting in front of it all lubed up, i began to wonder if, as Mistress had put it, my eyes were too big for my ass.
The real surprise was how easily it went in. Far from being too large, i now think i should have been more ambitious in my size selection. The fact is that the ride was wonderful: deeper and more sensuous than every before. While Mistress could not watch, She was kind enough to listen to streamed audio as i worked it in and then slide down the entire length. After the first ten minutes was over, i began my edging. Stroking my cock with the invader up my ass was equally wonderful. As time went on some icy hot was added around my anus and used as lube on my cock. Mistress loves to hear the results of this and i was loving it too. i begged to add nipple clamps and She agreed. By now i was as hard as iron and ready to cum.
The sensation of the dildo, the tingling icy hot and the tug of the clamps were driving me a little insane with lust. my cock was hard, red and swollen with need. Pre-cum was oozing. i wanted to cum. i needed release. But it was not my day to cum. It was my day to edge, to obey and to be denied. And so i stroked my cock and pulled on the clamps and fucked my ass with the dildo to reach a place of Ecstasy i was not permitted to reach. It was sweet torture. i realized how much i craved it and how much i wanted Mistress to push me to experience it again and again. i moaned as i stroked. It seemed to go on forever.
In the end it had to end, of course. Pulling my hand away from by cock, extracting the dildo and removing the nipple clamps were some of the hardest things i have ever done. i wanted to live there in that moment forever. i could not. But the moment will live forever in my memory.
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A Question of Style
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Posted:Jun 23, 2010 12:32 pm
Last Updated:Jun 23, 2010 12:33 pm 38050 Views
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my kinks are certainly about submission, intensity and denial but there is an aesthetic dimension as well. Mistress enjoys watching and hearing me suffer for Her. i want to suffer for Her. i want to moan and shiver and pant as i experience all She chooses to give me. And i want to look stylish as i do so.
It is sheer vanity i suppose but i like to think of a scene as a picture where all the parts should work together. i have long admired the work of such photographers as Ken Marcus whose composition and attention to detail produce the most exquisite images. At its best, a scene is a crisp tableau that is a delight for an eye as well as the other sense. Each object is chosen for both function and form. They work together to entertain, torment and delight.
One of the things i have been trying to do is collect a matching set of toys...black leather and polished steel. But now i have found and bought a pair of funky steampunkish nipple clamps. They are a lot of fun visually and they work very well. They do not fit with any of the rest of my gear. On the other hand, steampunk has so much potential as a style for fetish gear. With a little tinkering there is no end to the fantastical mechanisms of mad masochistic fun that could be built. i think i have a few projects ahead of me.
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A Missed Opportunity to Cum
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Posted:Jun 22, 2010 6:10 pm
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2010 6:37 pm 39250 Views
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Last night i was chatting with Mistress and She expressed a desire to watch me play with myself on cam. Now, being a fervent exhibitionist, i was more than happy to comply. She shared a few fantasies about what She would like to do to me. How She would share me with Her friends. How she would bind me. She then told me i was permitted to cum, after a little session of edging. Now, it has been a couple of weeks since i have cum but i have been edging multiple times each day as part of my service to Mistress. After all that, with Mistress watching and Her fantasies fresh in my mind needless to say, i was more than willing to cum. At least i was willing but unfortunately my cock was not. i came very close several times with the edging, clamping down hard at the last moment. Then the moment arrived. Mistress told me to cum. But as hard as i worked my cock, as much as i pulled, stroked and slapped it, i could not cum. The moment had passed. Mistresss gave me thirty seconds, then ten minute (now there is mercy) and still nothing. Only frustration.
Now i have missed the moment and my latest roll of the die is a five. No more cumming for five days. At least two edging sessions a day for each of those five days. Oh my aching balls.
Sometimes you win, sometimes not.
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The Routine
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Posted:Jun 21, 2010 1:00 pm
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 7:23 pm 38360 Views
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A little time away can makes all the difference. The weekend was crowded with events, issues and concerns that had nothing to do with any kink although they were far from mundane. Since Mistress has not prescribed any particular tasks for the weekend other than my morning meditations, the weekend was largely free of thoughts of my service. While the weekend was very full, it felt empty as well.
And now it is Monday , and the routine begins again. The morning shower with its nipple clamps, screwed very tight on my sleepy nipples just because it is Monday, was followed by inserting the butt plug for the morning commute. This evening i will wear the plug home again and then fit in my first required dildo ride of the week. Life feels more normal now. i have discovered that i now miss my kinky chores when they are absent. How odd that they have become such a part of my life in such a short time. Just as the dildo riding has changed from a requirement to a pleasure, so my duties to Mistress have changed from novelties to comfortable parts of my life.
Life and how we live it changes us.
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Fucked in the ass.
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Posted:Jun 19, 2010 11:47 pm
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2010 6:38 pm 38990 Views
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Mistress has ordered me to spend at least two ten minute periods each week riding a dildo. Now, i have always been interested in anal play as a symbol of subservience. i have always been curious about taking it from a strapon for the same reason. However, much to my surprise as i rode the old black beauty yesterday, i discovered that i actually enjoy having something long and firm fucking my ass. The sensation was amazingly sensual and satisfying. How very odd it should feel that way.
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The commute yesterday
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Posted:Jun 19, 2010 12:14 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 7:23 pm 37763 Views
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Well, it was an interesting commute home last night. The power went out in the office at about 5:30. Power failures are uncommon in the business district but they do happen. Unable to do anything more productive at my desk, i made preparations to head home. Since i had rolled a three that morning, i was obligued to wear my butt plug both ways on the commute. The first problem was that normally i would just duck into the washroom and slip the plug into place. Of couirse, during a power failure the halls are lit by emergency lights but the washrooms are dark as the pits of hell. A little light spilled in if i held the washroom door open but as soon as i moved to a stall the door closed and all traces of light vanished. So, there i was, standing in pitch blackness, my trousers around my ankles, pushing the plug into place. In the darkness i could not find the lube in my bag, so i just popped the plug into my mouth to lube it and then pushed a little harder to get it into place. Okay, job one accomplished. The butt plug was in place.
Then it was time to get out of the building. The stairway was the only route out and it was a bit of a hike. Down i went, flight after flight. Now the interesting thing about the njoy plug is that it is stainless steel. This means it is heavy for its size. As a result, walking down stairs results in the plug tugging with each step down. So that was my progress down the stairs: tug, tug, tug. Where the plug usually makes me feel like i am about to lay an egg, walking down stairs with the plug in place makes it feel like the egg is actively trying to get out.
Anyway, once on the street i made my was to the skytrain station. It is a relatively short walk. Unfortuntately, the same power failure that had shut down my office had also shut down the station. Since no one could provide any information about what was happening, i decided to walk to the next station and see if it was outside the affected area. It was not. Having gone this far i resolved to continue to the next station on foot. So far i had been walking for about half an hour. I was almost to the next station when i realized that i had left some important papers on my desk. I had no choice but to retrace my steps.
So far the commute was not going well. Unfortinately, Mistress had ordered that the butt plug stayed in from the time i left the office to the time i got home. After nearly an hour of walking i was back where i had started, plug still in place.
That was when my luck changed. Power had been restored. Rather than having to hike up the stairs, i could take the elevator and collect my papers. Once these were in my bag, i could begin my commute again. And so, two hours after starting, i returned to my condo.
Then i realized that it was time to ride the dildo to meet my weekly committment.
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Finding time
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Posted:Jun 18, 2010 12:35 pm
Last Updated:May 1, 2024 7:23 pm 37627 Views
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i have to admit, it is becoming a little difficult to keep track of and keep up with my chores. Some of Y/you will have noticed the cryptic little code at the bottom of my latest entries. These are notes to myself on what day it is in the edging programme and how many repetitions are required per day. i need to also add the number of dildo rides completed per week. Mistress has ordered two minimum ten minute sessions per week. Of coure, haked contemplation, the butt plug and the nipple clamping are easy to keep track of since they is a daily requirements. They are actually the easiest to accomplish since they coincide with typical activites, my morning preparations, my daily commute and my morning shower. The dildo is the hardest to fit in and, ironically, the one i find most enjoyable. Still, we must make time for those things in life that are important.
There should be time for frivolity too, of course. Mistress has told me that i am free to flirt and play with others so long as i do not forget a few things:
1. my cock, balls, ass and nipples (and any other part She wants) belong to Mistress;
2. i must not damage Mistress' property;
3. i must do my chores;
4. i must not cum unless i have Her permission; and
5. all pre-cum and cum i produce goes back into my body one way or another.
She is happy to have me do anything that increases my desire to cum but does not satisfy that desire. And i am happy to comply with that. i am feeling even hornier (if that is possible) just thinking about it.
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