A Lovely Session
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Posted:Nov 6, 2010 10:22 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 37039 Views
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A Dom or Domme can make an average day on ALT a great adventure. Today it was a Dom, one i had submitted to before, who popped up when i was e-stimming on webcam. The IM, which had been giving me trouble all day, suddenly worked and i was presented with demands to serve. These were demands i submitted to with delight. Mistress loves to hear that i have submitted to Doms and that i have been well used. i believe i can honestly tell Her tonight that i have been well used.
Just like Mistress, the Dom wanted to hear me moan. He wanted to watch me shudder and twitch under the effects of the e-stim. He wanted me to ride the pain. And He wanted me to thank Him for the pain. i did thank Him. i thanked Him earnestly. He rewarded me with more torment. He had me add nipple clamps and pull on the chains. He had me moan loudly, to tell Him i wanted the pain, to tell Him how much i wanted to serve Him. i told Him about Mistress' desire to see me suck cock and to be roughly filled by a cock. He laughed and told me to tell Him that i was his faggot pain boy and i told Him. i told Him again and again that i was his faggot pain boy. And i meant it. i told him i was a slut. i ask Him to use me again and i thanked him again and again for using me. i was grateful and anxious for Him to demand that i serve again.
When the pain brought me to the edge i begged Him to let me cum because Mistress will now let me cum under e-stim if a Dom permits it. i begged. He laughed. And then He said yes. All i had to do was cum into my hand and lick it up on cam. i wanted to do that for Him but when i finally had permission to cum i found i could not. i lost the chance and my frustration remained intact. i was used, tormented and denied.
It was a wonderful day online.
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Cumming Through
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Posted:Nov 4, 2010 9:26 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 36928 Views
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Sitting on the train i knew what i was required to do. There was no question that i was required to cum. i was required to sit there and endure what followed until i could reach my home and the keys that would unlock the cb2000 and the case to release myself from the wonderful torment of the e-stim.
i had no idea what would happen when i did cum. The power was so high that i was afraid to cum. Even though i had brought myself to the edge before leaving my office for the train, that fear had pushed me back from the edge. Now i was sitting in an awkward limbo, tormented by the e-stim but unwilling to let it push me over the edge. Fear, it seems, can be a very effective method of avoiding orgasm. But i was not permitted to escape it.
Mistress had commanded that i was to cum on the train and i was determined to obey despite my fears. For the first third of the journey home i fought for control, relaxing myself as the pulses in my cock and ass drove me to contract and spasm. i opened myself to the feelings. i did not endure them. i welcomed the sensations into my body. i tried to feel them fulling and slowly things began to change.
But now i was starting again. i was resigned to cumming but the edge was gone. Now i worked on getting it back. With people all around me i began to let the excitement grow again. i began to feel the need bloom inside me. i felt the welcome pressure build in my groin. Time was beginning to run out. The stations were passing by. i was required to cum and i would not leave the train until i had. i wanted to cum. i wanted to cum for Mistress. i wanted to cum for myself. i wanted to cum on the train surrounded by strangers. i wanted it so badly.
The pressure built and my home station approached. i still had no idea how i would react when the cum filled the condom and the strength of the e-stim jumped but i was determined that it was going to happen. And it did just as i was approaching my home station. The pulse of the e-stim pulled it out of me. In the last moments i had no choice. i felt the first contraction and there was no change and then the second. Then the flood of cum reached the electrode and flowed around the head of my cock. The stroking throb became a crushing pressure that prickled along my sensitive organ. i probably jerked in my seat but i do not know. For a moment i was lost in a private world. The strength had jumped but the sensation had changed as well. It was not what i had expected. It was so much better. i contained the force of it but i wanted to shout. It was potent and wonderful and dreadful. i wanted it to stop and to never end. And when the doors opened at my station i managed to stand still shuddering with the pulsing shock driving though me and i walked stiffly off the train. i walked into the night. i walked home. It was a long and wonderful walk in to the keys that would set me free.
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Never too Busy to Cum
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Posted:Nov 3, 2010 7:56 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 36397 Views
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Of course. while i am never too busy to cum, it is rare that i am permitted to cum. Mistress owns my orgasms. She gives them to me when She sees fit and not when i want them. It is therefore fortunate for me that She decided that i should help Her celebrate mid-term election by cumming on the train. This was the second time i have been required to do this. Indeed, Mistress has hinted i may only be permitted to cum in public from now on. She understands my exhibitionist nature so well.
For this ride W/we had made some adjustments to the routine. i understood the ET-312 box better now and so was ready to use the ramp function. It was also agreed that i would use a condom to encase my cock and the electrode on the tip. This would trap the highly conductive cum in place and make my experience all the more special. As before, i was to lock the electrodes on my cock in place with a CB2000 and lock the ET-312 power box into my case. i was to lock the case at the start of the ramp cycle so that i could not stop it from feeding more and more power to the electrodes. Needless to say, it was an interesting walk to the station as the power surging through my cock and ass (yes, i was using the butt electrode too) increased with each block. i could feel the power as it jumped by increments. At times it was hard to walk, particularly hard to start again after i stopped for a light or an escalator. i had set the power so that it was high at the start of the ramp cycle. By the end it was hard not to moan out loud.
Once at the platform i noticed that there were quite a few people waiting to board, just like last time. Are there really more people on the train when i have an assignment or does it just seem that way? Upon boarding i found a good seat and tried to relax. Relax?! i had an invisible hand wrenching and pulling at my cock while a phantom was fucking my ass. Relaxing was not in the cards. i did manage to get enough tension out my buttocks to avoid cramping but only just. i was not going to be able to relax. All i could feel was the intensity of the current.
Then i thought about what it was going to feel like when cum filled the condom and the level of conducted electricity suddenly shot up just as i was most sensitive. The thought sent a chill through me. i had thought about this before, of course. That was the entire reason for the condom. However, it is one thing to consider the event in abstract terms and another to be presented with it in real life, particularly when faced with already intense stimulation. Would it be more than i could take...not that i had any choice in the matter now that everything was locked? Would i thrash about? Would i shout or moan or scream? Could i contain the force of the sensations that would be forced upon me.
As i sat there trying to look relaxed and content, fear was creeping through me.
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Keeping Up The Desire
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Posted:Oct 29, 2010 11:42 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 38133 Views
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i am sitting here e-stimming. That will not surprise anyone who reads this blog. The electric pulse is throbbing through my cock and i really want to cum. i do not have permission to cum. And that is the point. This is part of the devotion i owe my Mistress. This is teasing and denial. The new power box makes that so efficient. The pre-programmed routines could easily take me over the edge but with the right power setting they can hold me at that edge almost indefinitely. It is a wonderful feeling: hours of teasing by a tireless and invisible hand.
In a long distance relationship there can be no direct touch but the e-stim machine can provide the "other hands". This machine can be Mistress' hands to pleasure, tease and torment. That is what it is doing now. There is no point in denial alone. The need must be felt. The more keenly the need is felt, the greater the sense of denial. i really want to cum right now. i could. All i need to do is adjust the settings a little and the machine would take me over the edge to orgasmic bliss and it would not stop. It would keep going, sending pulses of Ecstasy through me. i want that so much. Mistress would never know. But i would know. i am Her slave and it amuses Her to deny me. For that reason i will continue to tease myself to the edge, i will feel the need and the denial. i will make myself desperate for release and beg Her to allow me to cum while knowing She will not permit it. That is Her please. That is my pledge of service.
i will also seek out those who will tease and torment me on Her behalf because as She has said, "Anyone who makes me moan is Her friend." i will live in need. i will seek the need. i will inflame the need and seek those who enjoy fanning the flame.
Yesterday's activity:
3 edges
1.5 hours of e-stim
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A Quick Update
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Posted:Oct 28, 2010 10:28 pm
Last Updated:Oct 28, 2010 10:29 pm 37850 Views
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i have had a chance to chat again with Mistress, which is wonderful. i find myself curiously at ease when we do not speak for a while. Her life is busy and complicated at the moment. W/we chat when we can.
My experimentation with the ET-312 continues and it is wonderful. There is an addiction in the making there. i can hardly wait until Mistress uses it to force an orgasm out of me.
Activities yesterday:
4.5 hours of e-stim
4 edges
Activities Tuesday:
1.0 hours of e-stim
5 edges
1 orgasm by my wife's hand (that will cost me)
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Ramping Up
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Posted:Oct 26, 2010 12:51 pm
Last Updated:Oct 26, 2010 2:59 pm 37534 Views
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One of the interesting features of the ET-312 is the ramp routine. The principle is simple. The ramping starts out at a defined percentage of the power setting. The factory default is 70%. This means that when the power delivered at the start of the routine is 70% of the dial setting. For example, if the power level is set to 50, the unit is only actually delivering 38 at the start of the routine. Of course, that changes. Over a preset time period the power rises (71%...72%...73%....) to 100%. i tried this last night, setting the ramp and setting the power to a comfortable level at the start of the routine. Of course that comfortable level was only 70% of the power setting and as the strength of the signal began to climb i squirmed more and more.
This has real possibilities.
The ramp routine can be set as high as 50%. That means that the strength of the signal will double from the beginning to the end of the routine. A power setting that is intense at the beginning could be excruciating by the end. When combined with self-bondage using ice locks there is considerable potential here for mischief. Imagine being at the mercy of a relentless digital Domme that will make you endure the torment She provides no matter how much you plead. Now that might make for an interesting webcam show.
Activities yesterday:
1.0 hours of e-stim
4 edges
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Getting Back to the Routine
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Posted:Oct 25, 2010 1:14 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 37940 Views
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It amazes me how easily i loose the rhythm of my regular routine. After Thursday i had a few hectic days which has throw my regular schedule out the window. In addition, i have been unable to chat with Mistress since Thursday evening. This leaves me feeling adrift. As someone who appreciates order and structure, these departures from the regular are vaguely disquieting. i am confident and hopeful that order will return however.
i have found time to indulge my favourite activity. In the process i am getting to know the ET-312 much better. Trying the various factory routines and some of the audio input files has been a great deal of fun. After months of dithering on whether or not to buy the expensive e-stim box, i can say without reservation that it was money well spent. Even the basic features provide a wonderful selection of sensations. The more advanced settings must have amazing possibilities.
i spent much of Saturday evening edging with the ET-312 set on the "orgasm" programme. At times it was very hard not to cum. The way the stimulation builds from a slow throb to a frantic stroking is delicious. At higher power settings there is no doubt it would have made me cum despite my best efforts. As it was, one edge nearly went too far and i was obliged to quickly turn down the power before the moment of release. By the time i was done there was quite a mess of precum. The session made me wonder what e-stimming to repeated forced orgasms would feel like. The sensations are relentless. i imagine it would be exquisite torment.
The next webcam session will be interesting. Since the ET-312 accepts audio input and converts the sounds to e-stim sensations, i intend to connect the box to my computer speaker port so that i can "feel it" when someO/one pages me. Those Dom/Dommes that keep telling me to turn up the power will probably be amused to see me jump every time They send me a message. That will be only one channel, however. The other channel will be set to one of the regular routines which will provide an ongoing stream of sensations. In the past, i have frequently maxed out the power on my PES box. That seems unlikely with this unit. Based on my experiments so far, i will be a whimpering mass long before this unit reaches full power. That will make for more intense sessions and happier Dom/Dommes.
And that's a good thing!
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Adventures on the Train
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Posted:Oct 23, 2010 10:24 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 38088 Views
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Friday was a very busy day and Saturday has proven to be full as well. As a consequence i have not had an opportunity to write out my adventures of Thursday. i did trade a few comments with my Mistress when i reached home to reassure Her all was well and that i have fulfilled my assignment. i had time for only a short chat that was shorter on detail. She told me at that time that i was a dreadful story teller. i promised Her an epic depiction of events. i have not yet done so but this is an omission i now mean to correct.
Mistress had ordered me to cum on the train while e-stimming. W/we had worked out that the electrodes would be locked in place using a CB3000 and the ET-312 would be locked in my case so that i could not reduce or otherwise change the settings. This was my little contribution to the plot. i wanted to assure Mistress that once i began i would be committed to the act. The locks where taken to work open and the keys left at home. Once everything was set and the locks were closed, i was committed. The only out was the ability to yank the leads free if necessary but that was to be done only in the case of an emergency.
After work Mistress and i chatted briefly. i told Her that the electrodes were already locked in place and that i was finding the best settings. There were pair on my cock. Another electrode was wrapped around the top of my scrotum and an anal electrode as inserted. The cock felt as though it were being roughly tugged, stroked and rubbed. There was also a deep throbbing my balls. i had decided on using the "wave" pro gramme by this time and was seeing how high i could raise the power level and still function. She ask a few for a few details about the particulars and then told me, "Do it. Lock the power box in your case and leave the office."
i did as She commanded.
With the power making me twitch a little and finding it hard to concentrate, i locked the ET-312 into my case and snapped the lock into place. i had been very nervous about doing this all day, even considered backing out, but as the lock closed i felt calmer. Perhaps it was partially resignation. Partially it was the sense of horny mischief i felt. It had been just over a month since my last orgasm. Now i had a chance to cum again and i was going to do it in public. That rampant exhibitionist in me was shaking with anticipation.
From the outside i appeared relaxed as i strolled down the street and onto the platform. There were a few more people than i expected. The train was actually quite full. By the time i leave the office, volumes have often thinned out. So, there were to be more eyes than i expected and no chance to sit in a quite corner. i found a suitable spot and installed myself.
Walking down the street i had been somewhat distracted by the activity of the stroll but now there were no physical distraction. Now i could feel every subtlety of what the ET-312 was doing to me. It was at this point that the teasing nature of the programme became obvious. In the office i had been concerned that it might even make me cum before reaching the train. Now i realized that cumming was going to be harder than i had initially thought. The programme produced stimulation in waves, just as the name suggests. These build in intensity and then stop...only to start again at the lowest level. i found myself riding those waves, feeling the stimulation and my excitement build, bringing me close to cumming and then stopping short. If i had been able to do so, i might have tried to turn up to power even higher. i do not know if i could have taken the higher setting voluntarily but i so wanted the unit to push me over the edge. Instead, i did what i could. i closed my eyes and concentrated on the sensations. i played fantasies in my mind, willed myself to cum with each wave and failed repeatedly.
Part of the problem was that while i was building towards orgasm inside, i also needed to keep my composure. To some extent i was fighting against the desire to abandon myself to the sensations of the e-stim. My left leg kept twitching. i was fighting to keep it still. There were people sitting facing me. They could clearly see anything i might do. i was very much on display. While this added to the excitement, it reinforced my desire to continue to act as natural as possible. i was developing a desire to moan as well, which i stifled. All i could do was sit there, feel the teasing surges in my groin and try to keep all the lust inside. We arrived at stations and left, people embarked and disembarked. i remained, seated and repeatedly on the edge of cumming. And then my stop arrived.
i could have left the train at that point and accepted failure to obey my Mistress but i did not want to admit failure and as a slave to my Mistress i could not disobey. i made the decision that i would stay on the train. i would stay were i was. i would continue to ride the waves to the edge until i tumbled over and waves of orgasm mixed with the electricity. And that happened three stations and five minutes later.
i will not say it was shattering but it was wonderful. i teetered at the edge for a moment first and then a last electric pulse pushed me over. The power surged through the cum and i felt it prickle down my leg as the moisture spread taking the charge with it. i contained the excitement and release within myself, sitting quite as the force of it ebbed away. Then i got off at the next station and changed to a train going back to my stop. Minutes later i was walking homeward with the pulse still shocking me. There was no release from the torment until i reached home and after cumming the pulses were more pain that pleasure. As i walked, i silently thanked Mistress for the command to cum on the train and i still thank Her for the experience.
When i briefly reported the events to Mistress that night, She told me that it was good that i had enjoyed cumming on th train because i will not be doing it again for a long time. i thanked Her for that as well.
i am Her slave.
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Dry Run Two
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Posted:Oct 20, 2010 10:13 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 37908 Views
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Another day, another ride and another e-stim session. It was a wonderful commute.
Tomorrow, however, will be something else. Mistress has given me permission to cum. In fact, She has ordered me to cum. She has ordered me to cum on the train using the e-stim. i will have the settings high so that i cannot avoid it. There will be electrodes on my cock and in my ass. The settings will be so high high that i will have to fight for control. When i cum.... i am sure that control will be that much harder. And there will be no way to stop the power poursing through me. No escape from the sensations.
We shall see what happens then...
i am Her slave.
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A Post from Home
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Posted:Oct 19, 2010 9:58 pm
Last Updated:May 2, 2024 5:54 am 37663 Views
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It was a wonderful ride home, sitting there stimming amongst the commuters. i had the ET-312 set to the "orgasm" programme so that it could tease me right to the edge. And it did. i rather lost track of the stations.
It seems i will be doing the same tomorrow as well. Mistress has told me that i may not cum until the Thursday commute home. She has told me that i may cum as many times as i can during the Thursday journey and i will try to make the best of it because i do not know when She will permit me to cum again.
But that is Thursday.
At the moment i am experimenting with the box, trying to learn its capabilities. It is a very pleasant task. It is also making me incredibly horny. i really wish i was allowed to cum tonight. Oh do i need to cum.. This feels so good...waves programme at power level 60. Intense and teasing. This could push me over the edge so easily.
But i cannot cum....
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