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Pondering life

My general ramblings on thing affecting my life. The good, the bad, the mundane and many other strange and wonderful thing that make life interesting like my thoughts on BDSM and sexuality.

Life passage
Posted:Sep 2, 2020 5:33 am
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2021 3:43 pm
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It's interesting as you age and think back you travels through life the people you met along the way and opportunities taken and missed. You think of the things you would or wouldn't have changed. Being a closeted gay I think my biggest mistake was living at home as long as I did. I should have gone out on my own earlier and let thing develop as nature intended. Then again had I done that perhaps I would not be around now remines as having lived through the great pandemic that wiped so many of the gays and druggies off the earth. well late worry about that now.
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Seduction comes in many forms
Posted:Sep 1, 2020 12:06 pm
Last Updated:Dec 16, 2020 12:00 pm
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Nowadays a cottage off in the wilderness with a sexy boy would be entertaining. The last time I was at a cottage this young under aged boy tried seduce me with his hard on. He had a crush on the older boy next door. He was friends of the family and lived next door. I was in my late early twenties still in the closet so I told him to cover up. i still have flash images of him or his stiff cock as we were boating around the lake.
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Covid 19
Posted:Sep 1, 2020 7:40 am
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2021 3:48 pm
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This pandemic is driving this normally loner over the edge. The mere fact we are being forced self isolate and social distance is driving me bananas. I have been hit on more people since this pandemic started than I have over the last five years. Every one is horny, people are having look farther afield partners. Having pass on some sexy guys I would probably not get the chance play with under normal circumstances. Such a shame. [
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Back to active membership
Posted:Aug 4, 2020 8:19 am
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2020 11:01 am
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After years of taking a break I have jumped back into the active community. Hopefully it is as active now as it use to be. Looking forward to net 18 months.
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Male Box
Posted:Jul 5, 2020 1:18 pm
Last Updated:May 21, 2024 7:39 pm
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Just couldn't resist the misspelling of box in the title for this blog.
Being a standard member I thought I would open a blog where other standard member or for that matter any other person can leave a should they so desire.
I check my blog daily so if you want contact I will get the and we might be able communicate.
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Woes of an aging queer
Posted:Jul 1, 2018 5:41 am
Last Updated:Nov 11, 2021 3:50 pm
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First off I am strictly a top. People 15 to 20 years my junior always seem to be hitting on me.Unfortunately as one ages the reason you are always in demand is that bottoms are looking for a stiff hard cock to fuck them but you can no longer give them what they want. Rather than disappoint them I have retreated from the social aspects of the gay community.
Unfortunately everything associated with being a top doesn't stop. I still love a man's body want to caress, fondle and make love to a man. If only I could find a bottom willing to settle for love without the need to have a stiff cock up his ass my remaining days could be enjoyable rather than plain old boring.
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profiles
Posted:Oct 25, 2017 5:20 am
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2018 7:43 am
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I sometime wonder if people on this site ever read profiles or if they just check out pictures . I constantly get mail from members that I can't read because I am not a paying member on this site. Had they spent a couple of minutes reading my profile they would have found out how to connect with me. Lost opportunities, such a shame.
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Living without sound
Posted:May 1, 2015 6:45 am
Last Updated:Dec 12, 2015 3:56 am
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Yesterday I went to a walk in clinic because one of my ears was blocked solid with a build up of wax. The doctor confirmed a wax build up and said the other ear also had had a lot of wax in it even though I could hear perfectly fine out of it. He said he would flush both ears out for me.
He tried to clean the first ear out and couldn't because the wax was packed solid and very hard. He then tried to clean out the other ear and managed to block that ear as well. Thanks doc. I had now lost the hearing in both ears. He prescribed putting some oil in it to soften the wax and said to return in two days.

I left his office and went next door to the pharmacy to get ear drops and found that I was temporarily deaf. The pharmacist was talking I could see his lips moving but couldn't hear a word. It's a tough world to live in without our hearing. Driving a car is scary you can't hear horns or other cars zooming pass you. At home I found I couldn't watch the TV or listen to the stereo, the computer was silent as well no ping, nothing.. I can't hear bathroom fans running or kitchen range fans going and had left them on without realizing it.. My life was sucking at the moment but fortunately I would eventually get my hearing back.

Life without sound is tough and you really don't appreciate it until it gone.
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New Boy
Posted:May 31, 2013 4:54 am
Last Updated:Dec 2, 2013 6:46 am
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I got myself a new boy. He is a little inexperienced but very willing. He is very receptive to sounds and loved being fisted. Electricity just has him humming and his body a twitching. Flogging turns his white ass a nice beet red.The drip of hot wax has him moaning and the sound of it put a smile on my face.
I posted his picture do you think he looks like a keeper.

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Room with a view
Posted:May 22, 2013 9:41 am
Last Updated:Nov 6, 2014 6:35 am
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I recently sold my condo and relocated to New Westminster BC.
I knew exactly where I wanted my new condo to be located that is in the old part of New Westminster, the district referred to as downtown, close to the bars and restaurants, transportation and my favorite entertainment center the baths.

My real estate agents kept stressing the views and I kept saying that views were unimportant to me. One doesn't sit and look at the view, it's just there. Well after living in my new place with the great view I have to admit I was wrong. I now understand why people pay big money for a view.

No I don't sit and look at the view but as I move from room to room I have a tendency to look out the windows and admire the view. Every window in the condo face the Fraser river a working river with ocean going vessels and tug boats towing barges or log boons. Standing at the sink in the kitchen I can watch the traffic going up and down the Fraser. Then there is the view of the mountains and Mount Baker on a clear day.

Yes I have to admit I am so glad I purchased the place with the magnificent view rather than the other unit I liked that lacked a view of any description.

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