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Posted:Jan 5, 2020 3:41 pm
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2020 3:53 pm 6704 Views
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26
that is the the sticker said as i walked down that emergency room hall this morning
And no if your wondering i wasnt injured.
..it's never me.
Your has never broken a bone,never had a surgery,never had an infection...hell never had an antibotic..
Fuck i have never been a patient in a hospital
work truck got
from behind by a semi doing atleast 50 mph..it sent a shock wave through the bed that bent the frame and shattered the back windshield
And i walked away without a scratch
..you know the old saying..God protects ,drunks and fools.
pain comes in the form of seeing loved ones get sick,grow old and eventually die.
So i have a huge phobia about hospitals. Its the sitting..the waiting...and you cant do a damn thing help but pray.
And yes your
can pray...atleast.
roommate got dizzy/ vertigo yesterday..she nearly blacked in the shower. She seemed
be better that night but told
take her the er this morning.
She could barely stand,light caused her pain,she was throwing up. It was like she was anemic or something
When i got there they put a tag on me... 26.. signify which patient i was with..
And i had that omg flashback of
parents..where i looked into their eyes and it's like you could see their light slowly fading away.
I literally thought
roommate might die
They ran a shitload of test and had her on a stroke protocol.
Hell they even put an oxygen mask on her
The nurses couldnt fine a useful vein so they called in some specialist?
Then the cat scan doc walks in with some great news...there is no sign of a stroke no bleeding in the brain...he cancealed the other specialist for the mri...
He basically gave her meds and sent her home..
Apparently it is something w the inner ear that was buggy...it might bother her the rest of her life or never again. Its a wait and see situation..every patient is different
But omg to see someone so strong suddenly appear so frail...
Brought back alot of night terrors for me.
brother died with in 6 months of being diagnosed with aggressive skin cancer. It went straight
his spine,he fell,couldnt walk. He died in hospice from an od of a morphine drip ( a mercy passing by the doctor)
I watched as
yr old just stopped eating
day and slowly lost his inner light... within a week he faded away and we put him down
I visited
87 yr old mom a month before she passed over..and it was like she was barely even there
Its never
..i honestly think i could roll with it. Im 51 fuck..
If i got cancer tomorrow id be cool with it..
But its never
..maybe witnessing their pain is
punishment.
But it's scary as fuck
see someone rushed the ER like that. hold their bodyweight in your arms cause they cant stand..
It literally scared the shit
of
26...it felt great
take that sticker off
shirt..a huge relief
Maybe your
got another of his famous 10 cent fixes ..
Or maybe that lil bit of praying helped ...
Either way it felt like we barely got away..
roommate still is on heavy drugs and sleeping in her bed tonight.
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God alt is chewing up my content..small words like.to..my ..numbers just disappear
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Posted:Jan 5, 2020 6:54 am
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2020 6:55 am 5851 Views
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Hopefully you all still enjoy my blogs.
No i am not a complete . Alt seems to go out of it's way to delete small words from my post...
So the words...i'm,to, my, out,numbers will randomly disappear and my content will not make sense.
I thought now alt would have corrected this nonscense..
Sigh...its a bitch to constantly go back in and edit my own blog.
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Do men hate lesbians?
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Posted:Jan 4, 2020 8:53 pm
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2020 7:03 am 5405 Views
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Well the obvious answer is...duhh hell no. Hell most of the cooler women i ever knew were lesbians
Despite the bad feminist bs...men dont care if women hook up.
Hell im playing a new video game called outer worlds.
In which your first companion has a hard time deciding wether she wants to hook up with another female.
And honestly it isnt sexual for me...as a man you want her to be happy and find herself. You actively encourage her to get with this woman and see it through.
Despite the huge bs against male gamers etc.. i think you'll find most are cool dudes.
I think you'll start to see a greater acceptance of bi or gay characters in the near future
But in the meantime it's cool to see a lesbian character in a game expressing her fears/ desires when contacting another female character.
You just wanna sorta push the two together.
And duh id feel the way..duh..about two dudes
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Ww 3..did we drop the oprah bomb
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Posted:Jan 4, 2020 7:59 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2020 8:55 pm 5084 Views
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So maybe you heard weight watchers decided brand itself a newer hiper ...
Ww...and ofcourse launched a program with oprah..
So ofcourse twitter..being twitter had an orgasm this and linked it the drone strike/ killing of that iranian general..with ofcourse a dumb #
Ww somehow now meant ww3.
It literally caused the ceo of weight watcher canceal the program and probably the brand.
And you thought your business got off a bad start this year.
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The manipulation of people...are we really that petty
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Posted:Jan 4, 2020 7:18 pm
Last Updated:Jan 5, 2020 6:48 am 4606 Views
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So you havent seen
Me blogging on
Here much of late
Ive been putting
My energies in starting
A youtube channel.
But
Untilit is up and running...i've been watching videos,studying styles..
And writting killer comments...
which youtube will notify you if the channels creator responded
To or enjoyed your comment.
It's a wonderful feeling
To break through that 4th wall and get some sorta of response..
Its like getta a...atta pat on the ass ( if you remember that classic friends episode of chander at his work place).
So i thought your
Boy was on point and had alot share.
Then i started
To notice how many other responders were getting " loves"/ hearts for their replies..
Like jesus christ i thought i was special...and now i feel like the dumbass at the strip club that thinks the women actual like him.
It's just another technique
To fluff the audience..
Give everyone a " loved your reply " heart emoji and youtube sends a notice to their box.
Your more likely come back
Tothat channel.
Plus you get the feeling that the youtuber is reading the vids comment section.
Now i dont mind this small shit..
but alot of youtubers now beg via patron page or outright have a livestream session and people .
.
If your into all of this... then don't tell
Me you luved my replies when you didnt even read them.
Sure you may crank
Out okay content...but alot of people stay for the comments. They want that interaction with the youtuber or the fans of the blog.
And even the lame assed comments are receiving hearts.
Its like you get a car..and you get a car...and you get a car.
This is where i stand
Out. I enjoy interacting with an audience and providing an arena for honest discussion.
I don't normally do it on
Here due the toxic nature of some of the members. But im tons more engaging on fetlife.
But id never lie and say i liked your shit ( heart emoji)..just to get you hard.
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Holy shit its christmas..my alt points are up to 320
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Posted:Jan 4, 2020 6:23 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2020 6:24 pm 5337 Views
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Wow i guess christmas came when i wasnt looking.
Im up 20 whole fucking points for a years worth of blogging. Yep ill now have just enough for that gold mem?...
Not enough?
Well then the silver membersh....
Huh? Not enough..
Well obviously i still can the points in for actual us ?
Nope...fuck im so alt.com broke that i cant even afford their merch.
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It's not for you..then dont bitch when i don't go to see it
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Posted:Dec 30, 2019 7:02 pm
Last Updated:Dec 30, 2019 7:03 pm 6214 Views
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really surprised when hollywood makes a movie or tv show and says it's not for men...
Then are surprised when half of it's potential audience doesn't show up..
The latest example little women...i have a penis...and i loved the original novel. I never thought the story wasnt for me.
The girls are wonderful
I watched the 2000s movie version and never once did i think that it was not meant for me.
But in 2019 this age old classic must now be filled with x,y or z,.
And apparently i a huge fan am not wanted..cause i am .
How is this feminism/ equality?..
Instead of inclusion i am told by the ny times no less..men are the reason movies like these are bombing the box office.
It is a shame..i actually loved jo,beth,amy etc...
But some producer decided it wasnt meant for me..
And i say...reap the wind..crash and burn
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New years..dont be stupid
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Posted:Dec 30, 2019 6:43 pm
Last Updated:Dec 30, 2019 7:20 pm 5987 Views
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Now i know its new years eve
And deep down you probably thinking you could drink your the table..
And probably drive him as well...
But you'd be fuckin wrong
...honestly
You are
Just don't be ...a dui will you over grand in the long run....have a dd, phone a friend, your dad, an uber.. ..fuck i will gladly drive your drunk ass home
Do your ..
a big favor on his birthday...yes the 31st is my actual birthday...happy birthday to
And dont drink and drive....
Its the best present you can give
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How do..we measure a man?
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Posted:Dec 28, 2019 5:17 pm
Last Updated:Dec 28, 2019 5:17 pm 5450 Views
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I think it's ironic that we still measure a man by his size or the of muscles he has.
We see this alot in the ..we assume the big guy is alpha.
Have we not heard of the slogan.. it's not the size of the in the fight
But the size of the fight in the ...dog.
I've had bucks threaten . They even called an " old man"..one guy literally said he wanted to .
I looked him in the eye and thought..dude i would put you through the fuckin wall.
But your has that whiskey tango about him. Yes he has anger issues..and doesn't give a...well fuck
You don't wanna threaten what you can't finish.
I've recently thought this is what i need to be..
I am..basically
wolverine..i am the the honeybadger... i feel like i need to be that a hole most guys fear..
But
Im the witcher
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Do men hate strong female characters?
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Posted:Dec 28, 2019 3:02 pm
Last Updated:Dec 28, 2019 3:04 pm 5885 Views
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I never understand those that argue
men..
1.hate strong female chatacters
2. Won't go to see female lead movies
Or
3. Won't go support.." chickflicks"..
I post this after watching barely 10 minutes of the netflix series..the witcher.
Which within those ten minutes the series showed two strong females..a woman and a girl no less..acting against societal codes and the evil patriarchy.
Did i curse out loud?..did i run out of the room screaming?..
Was i secretly scared of a strong woman? Did i cancel netflixs?
Hellls no...i like female characters with spunk and bravado.
Men simply can't tolerate the modern movie where the female is a mary sue and all the males are reduced to bumbling or used for comedy fodder.
Think star wars..meets the simpsons.
Women dont have to be men/ or be better than men in order to be strong.
I can out bench alot of women..but that doesnt mean im stronger or superior.
But it also doesnt mean i wont watch a well written female lead movie/ tv show
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