Strength will never leave you
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Posted:Feb 13, 2024 7:52 pm
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2024 7:24 pm 6674 Views
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When you were ill..
I was there..
When you were sore
I was there
When you said you can't do this
I was there
When you just got frustrated and quit
I was there..
When you just had something better to do
I was there..
Growing,festering...waiting
You will return..
someday?
You will drop the weight
You will bench that 300lbs..
You will win..I promise you that
Cause I am the meanest,baddest mfer you ever met..you can't even imagine what I been through..
You can't imagine the scars that will not heal
And you will not fail..I will not let you quit..I will carry you to the finishline..
I will carry you to the ends of time..
But I will never give up on
You
..I am that second wind..
I am that lingering spirit that whispers
You got this..
Today you'll lift your maxium..you'll run that mile
Nobody beats me...nobody beat you..
I am strength..
as my old body throws 65 lbs dumbbells into the seated dbell shoulder press position..
And if it's loaded..MF IS GETTING PRESSED
And my body screams as the weight threaten to break my spirit..break me
Yet
I am pure..
anger
I am raw pain...
And the weight starts to rise as my arms begin to shake
I am leo..mother fucker..
As I lock the weight out over my head.
A bad guy
I am
Strength.
And I will never leave you
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In the end you still have the ball
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Posted:Feb 10, 2024 3:18 pm
Last Updated:Feb 11, 2024 7:00 am 6091 Views
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I send a few emails today...
Probably promised more of myself than I ever did before..to a Woman/Domme.
Fyi I work like 45 hrs a week...offered to give up my weekends for her cause she claimed I wasn't giving up enough of my time to her.
I didn't give up enough in our past..
And no I'm not a dick..I had shit to do like fixing fucking cars so I could go to work,mowing the grass and other shit that needed to be done...
She came back with some more disagreeable emails..something about wanting quality over quantity time
Like for real....
When a guy bust his a ss working 45 hrs a week and gives up his free time to be with you..
And you now want quality time..
Er..my weekends are quality time...every fucking minute of freedom from my job is quality time..
They are important to me and it took me a lot to give them away like that.
She said it was like we weren't on the same page.
Er what part of giving up my weekends to be with you aren't you getting
I said sorry you feel that way..
I did and said all i could..I don't know what else I can do.
We always end up arguing..
It's fairly obvious we weren't meant to be together..
And I dropped the mic..
Remember it's their game..
But you can take the ball and go home.
It is up to her....she can have a coming to Jesus meeting with herself and realise I can't be..whatever...
And maybe im good enough..
Or she can just agree...a throw the baby out with the bathwater.
Either way I'm slated for the dreaded what a complete asshat baby I am email..the one filled with ALOT of h word
But for Christs sakes..we exchanged maybe 50 emails in 3 weeks..
And had at least 4 separate arguments where we stopped writing one another.
Either way I'm down the road..and I right
I personally can't devote that much me time,energy and stress into someone that just wishes to butt heads.
And sure she had a lot to offer...but I doubt she would have ever done any of it...
And she lost out on a great dude that is very open minded and into ALOT of styles of play..
So she could have experienced alot..
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Round 3 for the wood chipper...
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Posted:Feb 10, 2024 7:42 am
Last Updated:Feb 10, 2024 7:49 am 5689 Views
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Most people by now would have said fuck it...
Huh? Yeah she got angry at me once again..stopped emailing me..
Without an explanation.
I have no clue why...
And I really wish I was that stereotypical clueless tv dad..
At least I'd have a laugh track..
But yeah..no clue..
And yes I have explained I'm a dude use to dealing with dudes,I prefer men...
We are straightforward,not complex,we will tell you right to your face what is bothering us..
Men aren't women,d ont pick up on subtle things..
So just be blunt and tell me why your upset.
But nope..
The irony is she will carry on like this for a day or two..
And then it's like nothing happened..
I don't call her on it...I just let it go..
Leo..being leo..a guy that prides himself of being able to read people believes..
She just inst ready to step into her " big girl " Domme shoes yet..
But omg I've never meet someone so born for the role..
She is the goddess type..so poised to step over the line and become ..well nothing..that's the whole point..
She is already a strong and controlling woman.
There is no need for fanfair..it's just she never had that level of control over a male
I'd like to think the hesitation on her part is the fear of actually playing with a male..
But I think her real issue is
Me...omg you can't believe how submissive I can be..
But at the same time I'm quiet bold,I walk with a swagger,
I'm not afraid to say strip naked and wait on guest at a tea party..
I think the reason I don't implode and stop this crazy train is I want to see the endgame..
She talked about a surgery and nothing can be done till the end of February..
But even then I don't believe she will want to do this..
Yet like a movie,I'd like to see how this ends...
Will She? Won't She?
Remember my fans..people including women..operate in patterns..
She's done this behavior before..and we never really got to explore the Domming portion.
I left..
But I'm back in the same mouse trap...
Yet I'm curious about her as a Domme..she seems such a natural..
And if/ when that takes place...Will things be different..
Right now I'm just a friend..I'm not a bf,hubby or her slave..
What I'm getting at is now it's easy to be frustrated at me cause there is no real outlet. I'm a friend
But suddenly have me naked before you and I can be trained,disciplined,teased..shocked...
All good ways to vent and alter behavior
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Women..the mental woodchipper..and I love in headfirst
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Posted:Feb 5, 2024 4:48 am
Last Updated:Feb 10, 2024 7:02 am 6542 Views
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So I thought I'd drop a lil update..
With guys everything is sooo easy..sex,play
With women it's like...taking a sigh..
I've never apologize more in my life for the slightest things.
Small things that I just glided over yet stuck in her brain..
Only to be brought out later..
And I'm not a bad,ignorant,sob.
But with this woman it seems like it's all or nothing..
She can offer me a lot playwise...and the next minute it's like I just want to walk away..
Partially cause I know talk is just talk and I doubt we would ever go there..
So why not just walk away...
Well as you get older you access for play drops off..
She literally lives 10 minutes away..we know one another.
We like a lot of same things..
But it literally is like diving headfirst into a mental woodchipper...with a future promise of
Where I get to be an oralslave
Get to wear a cock cage
She's wants to explore ball play
Then get good at milking a male
And sure this may not appeal to everyone..
But is right up my alley and hard to just
Walk away
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So this may be my last shot at the lifestyle brass ring
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Posted:Feb 2, 2024 7:53 pm
Last Updated:Feb 2, 2024 7:53 pm 6265 Views
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I wrote to you about my ex..
How she befriended me..
And things esculated..
And yeah we got to a point online where..
Why why am I even here..with an ex.,still in the lifestyle..
She seems like a complete b.
I literally wanted to quit..everything.
But something changed..
Maybe she realised having me on some level was better than being alone.
So I'm giving this a try
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Continue that scenario she said
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Posted:Jan 26, 2024 7:56 pm
Last Updated:Jan 27, 2024 10:25 am 5785 Views
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And I thought about it for a flash of a second.
But then ten minutes later changed the tone of the Domme..
To only then switch gears again and took a different approach..
Writing literally
Should be giving the audience what they desire..
Meanwhile giving them
What they truly need..
In this case the Domme went from 40yr old horny
To elderly and strict
To someone just marveling over control..
And in the end..
I gave them what they need.
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The new way scammers operate on fet
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Posted:Jan 20, 2024 8:39 am
Last Updated:Jan 25, 2024 12:08 pm 6390 Views
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Just something I noticed..
If your someone that either posts pics ( your personal ones or otherwise)..on fet
Or someone that likes others pics..
You will find scammers trying to gloom onto your junk by commenting liking your stuff..( pics,writing,comments)..
And it's sooo odd
Maybe they think it's an " in" way to get you to reply to them
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Can you be happy with just parts of bdsm and not the full kit
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Posted:Jan 20, 2024 8:07 am
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2024 1:02 pm 7934 Views
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I talked previously about this...with the example of males that just spank...period..lol
But I wondered about this " ex"..
And like most dudes I was thinking whole picture.
I wanted the whole bdsm scene.
Where as she..was sorta finding her way as a Domme.
And I've come to the conclusion. I could be with a Dominant person if they had only say 3 bdsm interest.. period.
In the case of the ex..( in case your wondering)..
And these aren't my choices...these choices are ones that would work best for us/ are reflected in the fet groups she now belongs to..
She is 68yrs old..not interested in traditional sex...or penetration..
I previously brought up the notion of chastity with her
(.she now list a chastity,tease and denial group she joined on fet.)
1. I don't top,she has no need for a penis. She's tired of pushy males showing dick pics or wanting sex 24/7 on bdsm sites
It seemed the easiest way to remove it from the relationship equation was long term male chastity.
Out of sight..out of mind...no need for it until she wants it..
And then still no need to provide him/ owe him sex
..just hours of slow torture and edging him closer and closer. With no orgasm allowed for the slave.
He grows soft and it's locked back back in its tiny cage once again.
Taking sex from the slave may not be on every males bdsm wishlist. But it is perfect in this situation.
I introduced the concept..I actual bought a cock cage and showed her how it worked..
But I also think it freaked her out a lil...and she wondered if there was any long term effects. She being new to being a Domme mind you
Ironically most dudes " goon" over the thought of wearing a cage...they will push the concept on their partner..and when finally locked in one..
They balk to be let out..they whine and pout.
I'm sorta different. I'm probably the ideal male for this type of play. I don't top, I'm not big...thank God..cause it honestly allows me to not only wear a cage long term comfortably. But also allows me to wear what is called a microcage...which prevents erections,keeps the cock in its natural small flaccid state.
yeah..lol.I think a male's cock kept small like that is sexy AF...so cute😁.
And is discrete AF..can't even tell I have one on,can wear it for long periods of time,forget I'm even wearing one.
And for me..yes everything they tell you about cock cages is true...you do stop looking at other women, you do become more focused on the Dominant..
You stop focusing on your needs/ pleasures. You start finding pleasure in making her happy..
In case your curious..yes it is very doable to simply deny him masturbating,getting his orgasms.
When he is caged..yeah nature will take over and he'll have wet dreams..
Or a Dominant can give the slave a release without an orgasm ( technique called a ruined orgasm). The release of spunk and an orgasm are two seperate functions.
Or she can insert fingers into the slaves ass and prostate milk him.
Which means there is no orgasm,there doesn't even have to have an erect cock.
It is an easy,effective and fun way to get cum to literally drool out of that small limp slave dick
2. She doesn't want penetration but ideally wants an oral slave..someone to give her orgasms.
And she shyly inched her way towards this ideal a few times.
Once again..I like guys..but am also one hell of a pussy eater. So not a problem..I could do it for a living..if that was possible..lol.
I talked about chastity and him kept horny/ denied orgasms..
So if he can't fuck..can cum..wont he find another GF/ Domme etc.
No not really..it's like a guy with E.D. if he can't use his dick he gets real good with his tounge...real quick..
And pours his energy into..what amounts to tounge fucking her.
His ego no longer revolves around sex,his need to get laid or his penis..
His goal now is wrapped around making the wife, gf,his owner cum hard AF,cum multiple times,wear her out sexually.
Her orgasm is now his orgasm...he mentally gets off getting her physical/ sexually off..
After a lil while in his cage..he will no longer care about his orgasm.
This is more stimulating...a proper use for a slave.
3. She listed a spanking group currently on her fet page..
And I know pain was never her thing...but I'm cool if that was something she wished to really explore..
3.2..but if I had a say in these 3..
I could literally give up anal,pain,cbt,shocking devices being a etc..
In place of...now this may sound weird...
But feet...and I don't even have a foot fetish..
But there is something so right with a Dominant standing/ siting..
And a male on the floor worshiping their boot,shoe,high heels,feet.
It instantly denotes to everyone their status,their place and whose in charge.
I have a thing for a Dominant being naturally superior and a slave inferior...and feet sorta really plays into it..lol
I think if I could wear a cock cage,become her oral slave and worship her body,her feet as a sign of my slavehood..
Then I believe I could leave the rest behind...
No strap ons,no mittens,no whips,..oh my...
How about you???
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Does " bdsm" need to be shattered in order to grow..become " the norm"?
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Posted:Jan 19, 2024 4:48 pm
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2024 6:47 am 6616 Views
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I really want some big brain input on this one..
Cause I see a hella lot of this going on in the gay community..
People aren't " dabbling ".. rather they are taking certain portions of the over all bdsm " lifestyle"..
And making it work for them.
Like say bondage and edging a dick..
AND HUH? That is all he wants??.,that is what his interest in..
The rest of bdsm is useless..
Now back in the day we'd laugh
Call these people " domestic discipliners"..
Or just wannabees..
But these same people are normalizing your kink..
I see the same thing in the m2m spanking communities ..
Your sexual orientation doesn't matter..sex doesn't matter..dudes just be getting off on spanking period..
So does bdsm as a whole..
Matter??
And I think this notion of " bdsm" will soon carry over..
And people will be piece mealing it out.
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Boomerrangs: do you let exes back into your life
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Posted:Jan 19, 2024 5:01 am
Last Updated:Jan 20, 2024 6:46 am 6609 Views
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Here is a problem we all faced..
Do you let exes...Doms,subs,gf,bf...back into your life..
Even as friends..
I post this because I got an odd alert on fet..
I rarely go on there...but I do have numerous pics that I liked or commented on in the past..
Anyway I got a friend's request from this person..
Not the original name I knew her on fet..
A new one..
No pic..
But the age and location were accurate....it was the same sorta bio
Now it could be a scammer...but omg talk about working your ass off if it was..
There are easier ways to scam someone.. I doubt you'd come at me as a 68 yr old local Domme with no boobs pic.
So I have to assume it really is her.
There was no note...
Just a friend's request...
And a" like "to a drawing of a male slave tied naked to a bed spread eagle..with an erect cock.
In the past year I literally told someone/ a former vanilla friend.. I knew in my past that I didn't want to be friends with her again...it actually got a lil creepy/ her stocking me..
So I'm used to saying no and just cutting off people..
And yes it's hard for an audience to not only judge this Domme and my past with her..
But give me advice on how to proceed
I'm not saying I'm perfect and I had nothing to do with our breakup.
But I also know I'm fun,,I'm not chopped liver..
And yes it's sorta hard to find a good male slave as Dommes age..
In her case..she doesn't want the D..is sensual..
And that pic of that tied up male..
Probably is something she longs for..
But has no real access to..
Unless she reaches out...to her past..
Your thoughts..
I'll try to tell you more about her tonight
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