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Everything is connected with everything, everything is a form of energy

some story,
Posted:Nov 18, 2023 2:00 pm
Last Updated:Nov 20, 2023 6:33 am
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Well, after finishing that last Chrismas tree, i had a day off,
Came back the other day, and someone else had decorated the tree.
Like it was done by a three year old...
Or someone on speed, or something like that!

All the decoration where all over the place!!
All colours where everywhere, all kind and shape of balls, too.
A Christmas tree on speed!

It made me laugh, looking at it, inside...
Never mind, i wanted to decorate it a bit more tastefull...?!

i had planned to decorate the tree with black balls and purple garlands...

Nothing of that kind!
Aah, well, so much for communication.. NOT, in this case.

The other day, i was totally prepared to start with my bike again
was very happy to try to get the sadlle off that bike.
I come in the workshop and i see, that there is a new sadle on my bike! WTF!

I get really very upset!
So i go search for this Sour man, and he indeed, just removed the old sadle and put a new one, in MY bike.
While i had my day off.
This is the third time he messed with my project.

I exploded!!
How in hells name did he had to right to M with MY bike!!
I was furious!!
This was the third time he M with my bike!!
I was sooo terrible angry!!
I could have attacked him!!!

He, just have this grin of insanity on his face, not able to answer my only question;

Did i asked you to put that sadle on MY bike???
Answer my question!

him, just keeping grinning like a monkey and not answering me, at all
So i started shouting at him
I was soo angry!!
The third time he messed with MY bike!!

Yes, it was not a nice sight, i dont F F give a damn.

So, ofcourse the staff come rushing in, and try to calm me down.
I dont want to calm down!
I want to finish this guy!!

You must know, the staff are all very young people, with not much life experience under their belt and this lady, especially, is always making excuses for this guy his behaviour.

I hate it, when especially women, make excuses for sexictic behaviour of men!!
"the ooh, he did not mean that"excuse!!"
The excuse for the R -A word... yeah, really, nice!!

Well, let me tell you something, he did!!

So, they removed him, from the workfloor, i was left to work on my bike
But i was sooo upset, i could not think straight.

So, i went to the thrift shop, wandered around a bit
Went back to the workfloor.
Went to an other guy who also very much dislikes this Indien sour guy,
had a miljon conflicts with him, over the years....

I talked a bit with him, he is also a guy with a very big criminal record...
Did a lot of nasty, crazy stuff..

But, i can talk with him. he is decent to me.
We talk as equals.

He likes it, that i want to learn, and he helps me too.
explains things, if i dont understand it.

So, after a while, i go back to my bike, the sadle is not even put on the bike in a correct way.!

So, i repair this, and go on the bike, to see if the gear is working correctly. NOT...

After some time, this woman staff member comes to me, and starts to talk with me.

So, i explain, this is the third time he messes with MY project
I have enough of that
And allways when i am a day off.

Again, she is making excuses for his behaviour.
That drive me mad too!!
stupid cow!!
Never been assulted by men?
always lived in a pink bubble?amp;amp;

So, i tell her, i doubt his good intention.
He did not mean it, story!
He ALWAYS did this the days i am off>

(also the way he talks about the staff is really without any respect for them)

He also does this same behaviour, when he cant fix something on his own bike,
he just takes an other bike, does not matter if someone else is working on it,
and goes working on that bike!?

He never finish anything, not ever screw the bolts and nuts tight!

After a while, an other staff member, W came to me, asked how i was
I told him, murderously angry.
Warned him that is that guy so much as walked across from me i would hit him with the first thing i could get my hands on, that kind of murderous angry.

He fell silent and again, tried to explain this behaviour of that man, again.
I told him this the third time he F s with MY project.
This is not a mistake!!

Explaining to me, he might wanted to help me, by doing the job for me
So i asked him; how do i learn to fix bikes, when he is doing all the work
I dont learn a thing, that way
He did not know how to react on that.....

Later on, when i was in the office again, this woman asked me if we did became friends again!?
Pardon!!
this is not the sandbox!!
Friends????
Get real!!
IF we talked this out?

I told her, i have talked enough with him.
If i see him near MY project again, i will throw the first tool i can find, at him!

So, i am very curious how they will handle this, next tuesday....

This woman also told me, that the other supervisor was not there on Thursday, when he messed with my Project.
That that was, maybe, the reason, why he did it??
Always making excuses for his behaviour!!
Sick and tired of that.
He too, is there for probation time.

My bike is doing allright,

Almost got it done, i hope!
I think, i have to replace the gear cable, never did that!!

So, now everyone, working there, knows they dont F with me, or they will know it!
Whahahahaha

I am the most peacefull person in the world!
I rather walk away from any kind of conflict...
Let hem have their right! to what ever!!

BUT....... push me..... there is always...
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A Christmas tree of two meters,
Posted:Nov 14, 2023 11:12 am
Last Updated:Nov 18, 2023 1:05 pm
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You must know, that most things at my work place is a bit of a mess.
You know?
HoarderS?
People who collect all kind of stuff, and cant get rid of other totall useless shit?

That is how the workplace looks like....
Works totally on my nerves...

All that rubbish, that is not used anymore, for years, to look at the rust on it....
Collecting dust.

So is the case too, with all the Christmas trees...
Everything is a mess!
Trees that do not match the branches or leaves.....
Drives me mad!!

Incomplete trees, only the top of the tree, nothing more.....
Hmmm, so, i got to this shamble of tree parts...
wich did not fit, any tree trunk!

Finally, i worked this one tree parts out, it was all one large tree..
SO, i go on, building this tree getting bigger, taller and taller.

I really like that!!

I called in, for some help, put this tree in a standard.
Ofcourse, there was not one standard that was big enough to hold this big tree
They all collapsed on the floor!

That, i found very funny, picking that damn tree up again.

So, this one man, helped me make a good standard filled with rocks.
Now it was stable.
Pfffff
Finally i could finish the lower parts of the tree.
This too, was a disaster, because all the parts were everywere!!
In more then 6 plastic bags!!

An other colleague said, to this one staff member; why dont you help this little lady (?)
cant you see, she is far too short to finish this tree?
We all laughed.
Give her a ladder.

Later on, the tree was finished, finally!
and now it was time for the lights.
My god!!
So i found some lights, checked that they work, and gonna finish the tree, friday

I am going to put black balls in it, and some purple garlands.

We are keeping this tree on the workfloor,
for our own Christmas celebration.

And i am going to be sure, some of the "spare" parts are going to get thrown out!!

This one woman, staff member, wants to keep all the left over parts of the non existent trees!!
So you can use them, for decoration....
Yeah, like seven bags of 'spare'parts?
Not, if i can help it!

And, while i am at it, i will ask, if all the old rusty tools can get thrown out?
So, we will have more working space.

I cant stand that amount of clutter.

Living, creates clutter, but this is of an totall other level.

I am very proud of this tree.
It is a really nice sight.
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Laughing,
Posted:Nov 12, 2023 7:12 am
Last Updated:Nov 15, 2023 3:04 am
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Ever since i became the Christmas building person, some how..... 😛?
This stafmember asked me, to please, build some more, because the shop needed them, real soon.

So, there i go, again.
Building 5 trees.
I think, those plastic trees are the most ugly things, ever invented by man.
Never mind.
I mean, IF you want to buy a plastic tree, please, buy a black one, or pink, or white...
For crying out oud, not a fake GREEN one!
My idea.

So, i wanted to move this last Christmas tree, to the other place, where all the other trees standing...
Dragging the tree with me, i suddenly stand with just the top of the tree.
The rest did collapsed on the floor...
That was the second time, the tree collapsed!

W, a stafmember came into the same space, and heard me curse!!
He laughed! so loud!!

He told me, i heard you curse very ladylike, the first time, the tree callapsed.
But this!!
was something else.
I told him; oops, gave away my background!!
We both laughed!!

What is it they say?
You can get the out of her neighbourhood...
BUT,
you can never get THAT neighbourhood out of the .😇😚

It is soo funny, to see, some of those other trees.
You have to fold all the "leaves" out, and spread them, like a real Christmas tree...
Well, some just dont seem to see that.

I am going to have a dubble work load... building those monsters.
No time for my bikes, for now... 😭😭😭
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Yesterday,
Posted:Nov 8, 2023 9:10 am
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2023 10:47 am
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The day started horrible.
Later on, the day became better and better.
I went on my bike, through the woods, forest to this two little villages.

Always such a joy to be in those forest on my bike
They repaired the bike road, it is lovely now, no bumbs anymore
lovely smooth path.
Love it!

It was rather nice weather, a bit cold, but riding my bike, i did not mind the cold.

So visiting first this care farm with a little shop attached to it.
It is always nice to visit them, talk with the women working there
laughing and joking with each other.
Then, on my bike again, to that other village, the bike path is really very nice.
Although this second path is not that smooth at all.

I was totally content, happy and singing on my bike,
just because i could.

Did my shopping there, it is soo nice, when the shopowners recognise you and ask about how you are.
Just some social, small talk, so nice....

I always visit three or four shops there, do my routine.
And on my way back, there was some thunder....
The Dutch way of thunder... i was first wondering, if there was some building or demolishing going on....
It was very short, no lighting at all.....

When i was already back home, the rain came on, full force!

ALthough the day started horrible, later on, it was great, to be outdoors.

On my way, i almost lost my cap, on this very bissy road....
the wind blew it right of my head, thank the goddesses, i could collect it, before some truck was riding it to bits.

My adventures on a regular day of the week....
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More and more,
Posted:Nov 4, 2023 2:14 pm
Last Updated:Nov 8, 2023 8:51 am
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More and more people and organisations, big bisniss, big names are confinced that the whole corona pan thing was a haox.
a very big evil, against the people.

That they used a real nasty pioson, to get people sick and killed,
and that is still going on, not on such a big scale, as in the beginning, \
but, never the less, it is still going on...

Real big names in all kind of bisnisses are researching the whole nastyness.
the WHO and other bad evil, nasty sick fucks did put in action.

More and more research makes it very difficult for the WHO to continue their dirty games.
It is about controle, not ever your health.

People are getting awake.
Doctors, people of all kind of professions come together, to research this evil.
It is getting more and more known, in the real world, that this was something very evil.

That those who were told; you are crazy, complot thinkers, or as they call those in Holland; wappies, alllu hat people,
Trust your government, the doctors, the WHO knows best.....
were right, all along.

Those who followed their gut feelings, did not get pressured.
although that was not always easy, to say the least...
Social outcasted ,family break ups

The WHO organisation have soo much blood on their hands.

we have been screwed, big time.
I pray for those who took the needle.
i feel for you, very much.
Take care.
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An other real big taboo,
Posted:Nov 4, 2023 1:40 pm
Last Updated:Nov 8, 2023 12:13 pm
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The other end of food.

Yes, i know, nasty, isnt it?
Nah, not for me....

Unless it is the fetish thing, that does not do a thing, for me.
To each, their own.

But, stool, poop.

it is a very big taboo, even as big as talking about how much you earn.
At least, that is, overhere in Holland.
it is totally NOT done, to ask or talk about how much, or little, you earn.

AND, talking about the wage difference in the same job, between women and men is an even bigger taboo..
Men get very uncomfortable about this....
Angry even, when you make this known.

It is normal to not have to use toiletpaper, when you did the big message in the toilet.
It is also normal that your stool does not stink the place up.

So, when your stool makes a mess, you are not really healthy.
Your bowel is not in top condition, at all

It should be in such a condition, that you dont need toiletpaper to whipe your ass...

How do yo make your stool in a better condition?
Start change your food intake, or the amount of it, or the time....?!

No dairly, not daily meat, lots of vegies, fruits, dried fruits too.
No! i am not against eating meat or using dairly.
It is only the amount of it, that makes your bowel sick

It seems that coffee is also not that good for your stool, or inner workings

We, the people, are becoming more and more like those cows, munching all day.
Cows have three? four? stomaches, it is in their nature to munch all day long.
Not in ours.

Coffee, I knów, it is the daily drug of many people.
And it was, once, for me, too.

Untill i got daily headaches, stomach burns, and crazy thirst.... a very dry skin... some strange way of restlessness.... nervousness..
and other signals; something was not that good...
It is a very long time ago, since i drank my last coffee.

Just like the television, i dont miss it, anymore
Sure, i needed to kick that habbit.

Researched the way they treat the coffee before they are in your cup.
The method the companies use to make coffee even drinkable, is
not really healthy in the long run, for your body balance....

So, how is your daily stool?
do you check, look back, to see the structure?

Nó, i dont need a daily rapport about it, ThankYouVeryMuch! hahahah

You might need to do that!?

Everything you eat, drink, put into your body, also meds
have an impact on the whole body workings.
Also on if your stool is in a healthy condition.

It is an uphill struggle....

I believe, we are all poisoned by the food industrie and the commercials, all over.
All their strategys to keep you munching, all day long...

Push that impulse button, to want to have those 3 seconds of feeling great, loved, wanted, rewarded, feeling of "you have the right to "that", to feel good...
Dirty tricks, all over.

Once you see through their games, you can defend yourself againts their tricks.
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It is all connected with each other,
Posted:Nov 4, 2023 1:03 pm
Last Updated:Nov 6, 2023 9:07 am
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Having mental sickness in the family, wich runs down some generation.
It is something that almost always skips a generation.

So, we, the litter, dont have the mental condition, our "mother" had.
Or maybe, our eldest sister has some sort of variation of it.....? Not sure.

The of one of my sisters all have some sort of mental instability, that is related to the main condition of the "mother" figure.

So has my daugther, that will always be something that will lay heavy on my conscious...

So the best way, to tackle this; is not getting any , because the burden is soo heavy, for the in question and as a parent.
By giving this to an other generation...

Stop it here!!
Strangely enough, my family dont think so!
and breed on, as i did, when i did not know about this whole family thing.....

Dont even tell their , this is a family condition, you better not want to have !
Dont give the gene on!
or something like that.

Ofcourse, it is NOT a gene thing, but you get what i mean, I hope!

It is all connected.
I feel for my sisters , because they dont have a cleu, what is hittin them, once in a while....
Getting all out of controle.... Creating havoc.

She does not want to talk about this, with her adult .

I am all for open this up, in the family.
Give them the knowledge, so they can choose, if they want to carry this burden, on....
Dont make it something, they have to feel guilt about....

To give birth, is not the ONE and ONLY purpose, goal in a womens life...
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Visited my , and her partner
Posted:Nov 3, 2023 10:41 am
Last Updated:Nov 9, 2023 11:25 am
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It is always great fun, to visit my .
This time, because Halloween was coming up, she wanted to go shopping..
So, we went to three or four shops, i was done, after that!!

I.Dont. Like. Shopping. for hours and hours...... bleagh

We enjoyed ourself, anyway.
it is always fun because her sense of humor matches mine, so we have a great time.
She sees the absurdity in things the way as i see it.
We just have to look at each other and we start laughing..

Or, we say; NO, not now! walk on!
And we start laughing anyway!

She bought some Halloween stuff, i too... i have to confess...

At their home, she made me some tea, or actually she let me make it myself.
So, i have this tea egg, full with chamomilla and put it in my glass

By entering the glass the tea egg opens!
We both look at it, and laugh!!
it was such a funny thing to see...

I could have trown the tea right in the glass... not have to worry with that tea egg thing!
Then her partner did not want me to drink the tea as it was.
and got buzy with all kind of sieve and trying not to make a mess.
My daugher and i, found that very funny.

He was soo buzy with it, it was such a nice act.

And although it rained now and then, we did enjoy each others company, very much.
Visited a market, that was not nearly a market, very small.
I did buy a combat trouser, with all those extra pockets,
I love those trousers!

We always buy some nice snacks, to bring with us, to their home, so we can snack together.
Some shopping has become some sort of a ritual, to go there and buy lovely snacks.

We went to a very fancy, High Class Hotel, to have a drink.
Were the staff is really nice and talkative, friendly, interested.
I think, we will go there, the next time i come visit her...

That will be next year... in March maybe...
all depend on the weather... and my energy level.....

We both forgot to give each other the gifts we collected for each other.
Typically us!!
Too much talking, totally forgetting other things...
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Storm ciarán,
Posted:Nov 2, 2023 9:25 am
Last Updated:Nov 3, 2023 12:00 am
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Because the weather is rather dull, overhere in Holland.
Not like in the US, with all those terrific storms, thunder and all that beauty.....

So, when a storm hits our coast, people all over Holland, go crazy.
every one is falling over each other in claiming how dangerous this one, will be.

Sooo tiresome, hysterical behaviour...
So, we had alarm fase orange today.....
Only on the west coast and Zeeland did get a full blast...

So, some trees died, so far one person too.
Some big trucks (empty) fall over! on their side...
The truckdriver is oke.

There where some places where the light went out....

The drama!

I love stormy weathers, i love to go outside.
On my bike, and see how far i come....

I can always walk, when the windforce is too big....

I did plan to go to the forest and go on my bike.
There were other things to do, first, so no bike ride in the woods, alas.
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Ooh, boy,
Posted:Nov 1, 2023 4:07 am
Last Updated:Nov 2, 2023 12:06 am
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You know?
I really should not do this.

Sometimes i get some writings in my inbox, on Fet, just because i am in some discussion groups.
Not really thát active, and mostly US oriented....

The horror i read there, from subs with socalled d's.....
shudders.
There are sooo many men, on sites like this, it feels like there are more and more dangerous, narcistic? sociophatic, womenhaterd persons,
with such big women issues, real deep wemen hatred.
misogony.
It is a wonder there are not more death from their abuse of women, mentally or physically...
As far as we know, ofcourse.....

Knowing, reading those items, makes me even more anxious to get active, in "the scene", again...

Also,the things i hear from this younger couple, in Holland, makes me wanne puke, so disgusting.
The way socalled ds treat their 'submissives'....
low morals, low ethics.
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