a penis is a penis is a penis is a penis is a penis is a penis, is a...
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Posted:May 5, 2017 6:16 am
Last Updated:May 8, 2017 2:57 am 3495 Views
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You get the drift?
I have seen ugly, sick, fiithy penisses.. i have seen hooked, cut and uncut, i have seen white, and brown dicks....
Very big ones and very little once... disgusting ones, very smelly ones,
and very, very beautiful ones! 
oh yeah!
So? what is new on seeing more and more penissis....dicks!
nothing at all.
I think it is rather boring to have to watch that many dicks...
seen one, seen them all! kind of philosophy....
I think it is a sign that that man does not have much fantasy..
The same with alll, alll the chest pictures...
It is also a sign that he thinks very Highly about his tool.... 
He identify himself with his penis... thát says it all!  
Soo unbelievable boring! .
Bdsm is all about reaching for her mind, her desires, it is subtile, it is tender, it is carefull probing her mind... build trust, friendship.... liking each other, first... letting her getting used to who you are... so she can let her defence down.... get to know you....
All you get is a majority of men who do not employ any fantasy at all.
and just copycat eachother....time and time again..... boo hoo!
I think it has also to do with the kind of porn they watch....
fantasia land.
BORING
it is for most, all make believe... so it actually does not matter what body part they post of them self... they are not planning on ever set something in action, at all!
But, DICKS? come on! is that all you can come up with?
to me, it is a sign of shortcoming of that man.
dismissed.
NEXT!!
There are some men who do make an effort, by showing interesting pictures of hem selfs or what they like.... in general, in life.... non sex, non bdsm, non kinky.
They are a minority and most are sub men, too.
The battle of the sexes all over again.
We know how men think, look at what happens when it is nice sunny weather again?
Look at what men buy for birthday, motherday, all red lingery in which she does not want to be found dead... {objectify}
it is allll about hissss fantasy....
But they are not at all capable of or trying to understand how our minds work?
strange....
selfish little wining boys... not men at all.
It is not about the penis, the dick at all,
it is about the kind of man attached to that penis, what counts for most women.
I am only interested in his Willy áfter we established some connection, some bond...some mutual grounds on which we want to engage in each other and bdsm too.
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awareness, consciousness
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Posted:May 1, 2017 2:13 am
Last Updated:Jun 10, 2017 11:14 am 3915 Views
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For me, it all starts with consciousness, awareness.
In as much parts of your life as possible....
Just as the good thing to do, for yourself.
Consciousness about food, and alcohol, and nicotine and, and, and, and..
as far as your awareness goes...
About food, the foodindustry is not here to feed you.
They are here, to make profit, no matter what, by lying, cheating and making you fat and diabetic and who knows what....?
Give you a feel good for 3 seconds, , by their advertisement, by all happily married, well behaving childeren,
happygolucky people eating that special brand cereals... or cheese or yoghurts, beer, wine,...
Jeagh..... or what ever.
Those people knów what they are doing!
They wont eat that junk themselfs! not in a Miljon years!
I think, it is everybodys right to take good care of his property; being your body!
I am, what is called i think, a foody..
I know a lot about food, healty food, and factory made "food"= stuffing, padding...
that what comes out of a factory is not food at all
it is all about the willingness to educate yourself about what you put in that whole under your nose...
A woman from FETLIFE, has a nice blog about healty eating, named;
Did you priced your cancer lately?
Yes, it is a hard reminder!
Your body can not do much with sugar at all
But still it is in almost all products!
Wheat, is also something most bodys cant do anything with it,
except making it in to sugar, what will be stored away for worst times,
AS FAT!
All those advertisement lies about not using fat,
because it suppose to be bad for your body..
Your brain need fat! the good fat!
Like rapeseed oil or real butter butter.
The fat from nuts, fish.
The fat from full dairy products, not the skimmed ones.
Awareness;
Clothes, from the real cheap clothesstore, are all made in countrys as INDIA, CHINA, BANGHLADESH.
Mostly by girls, who live on the factury grounds, do not ever leave that factory..
sleep, eat, work, sleep, eat, work...
thats all!
Alright, so you could say; but if i dont buy those clothes, those girls wont have work, with wich they support their family...?
I know! it is a dilemma.
But your awareness about it, makes already a big difference.
I truely believe in that....
Even the really expensive clothes shop, let their products be made in INDIA and such countrys....
Awareness about your use of water, electricity....
Do you have your vacuumcleaner on all day?
No!
So, why do you have your charger on the electrical power socket all day?
Do you keep all your lights on? day and night?
No! (i hope)
It is just a matter of how you look at things....
It is just a matter of making some sort of transition in life in general.
awareness.
People tell me, you must be a real boring person, why do you want to make such a fuss about totally not important bussniss?
the gouvernement is the one who is responsible for all that!
If they want us to change, they have to make that change first...
{ it is nót a freaking pissing contest!}
Will, in that case; how about some personall responsibility?!
This world is OURS!
everybody has an obligation to take care of his/her part of the whole...
Sure, if you have childeren, dogs, work, a wife/man.. elderly, family, you have enough on your sleeve.....
And still you can make them all aware of their responsibility too.
Living by example is what that is.
I did that with my , it did not do it any harm!
You can make it into a game, not all madmanlike.
Once you start by thinking about all this, your awareness rises in a natural way...
because once you opened your eyes to this....
It all comes natural.... there is no stopping it anymore....
it is not an effort at all anymore, poluting becomes an effort.
I think it is a nice thing to do, the good thing to do, for OUR PLANET, our fish in the sea, or cows and our soil too....
Awareness starts here too,
If you want to be the one to be able to handle her, be in charge of her,
you first have to explore your own mind and soul... your inner strength.
do you have what it takes?,
Are you build to take on that kind of responsibility. non stop.
Not just for the kinky fuckery, that is easy-peasy, in and out, kind of responsibilty,
but to be there, for her, when she needs you?
Altruism is really a big part of BEING A DOMINANT, as it is for the submissive too.
Because she wants to give you, what you long for, need, want... to feel whole.
and YOU, on the other hand, want to give her that, what only YOU can give her....
to make her feel whole.
think about it.
So,
thoothpaste, for example, is full of all kind of bad metal for your body.
Aluminium is bad for your health.....
Shampoo is full of dehydrating ingrediënt, that is, so you keep buying more and needing more of that brand...
Cleaning soaps and such, are also very bad for our bodys and milieu.
Even people with not that much money to spend, with a low income,
can make that difference.
AWARENESS, is were it all starts.
Choices, choices......
For sure, i have my weak moments...i will make mistakes, buy all kind of things totally wrapped up in plastic! 2, maybe 3 layers!
for crying out loud!
i be mad about myself, for letting that happening.. when i am tired, had a bad day at work... you name it..
And i can forgive myself too...
But i buy my vegetables in a grocery shop, my cheese at the cheese shop, my nuts.... etc....
All wrapped in paper.!
wich i recycle...
I think it is OUR RESPONSIBILITY TO do as much as we can, show some empathy for our body, our planet.
awareness.
AMEN, end of my philosophy 
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Fetishes
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Posted:Apr 27, 2017 11:46 am
Last Updated:Apr 27, 2017 11:55 am 3295 Views
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When some men/couples even, send me a message, i always first read his/their profile, from top to bottom.
I want to know who, trying to find out, who that person is.
Look at who their friends are, read these profiles too....
So, i read, sometimes look at the photo's too....
and, ofcourse the obligate fetishlist...
It is always totally foreign to me, that special kind of "shopping list".
Because in my universum it is the wrong way around...
First: i must like that man,
Second: i must have deep feelings for him,
Third: i must have fun with that man, non sm, daily life fun and care for each other.
Fourth: i must be able to have a supple conversation with that person, not one subject is forbidden to talk about, ask questions about.
And if we are in that stage of the contact, we can maybe start to talk about our mutual likes and dislikes.... wants and needs too.
I have some very strong feelings for and against some implements
I even have feelings of fear for some items...
And i have a very big longing for some implements, hunger even,
a want!
There are also items on the shopping list, that is not to my taste at all
I dont even want to try them.
But, and again!
but, if i truely, totally trust that man, my dominant, i might be willing to try a whole lot that is not on MY shopping list at all!
Just out of trust for him.
So, to me, men with a whole full shopping list?
I dont trust them, i think they want the female flesh to put all that in action on.
Not something you explore and learn and grow in, together...
So, since i am not a FETISHFULLFILMENT MACHINE, for some totall stranger... for nobody!
I thank them for their attention, but we wont fit.
thank you, but no thank you!
Sure, i like rubber/latex alot, but more important to me, is do i like that man?!?!?!?!
if not, it is of no importance that i like rubber/latex a lot.
easy peasy.
first the person, his qualities as a human being, as a dominant sadist...
and if we have an understanding on that, we can talk shop.... he he he...
Not the other way around.
The other way around is, all play orientated, not person orientated ,
game and sex orientated...
fine, if that is your game....?
but it means nothing to me.
nothing more then just kinkyfuckery-sex, no strings attached..
SM and "no strings attached" is totally NOT POSSIBLE/ out of order at all.
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only from love.....
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Posted:Apr 24, 2017 12:18 pm
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2017 1:49 am 3319 Views
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The other day, i got an offer, i could easily refuse....
Because this man, sincere as he might be...
Wanted to, at least in my eyes, a roleplay-"relation",
Roleplay Histoire dO.... as a relation- form....
He was from the first sentence on very demanding..
That was not to my liking...
so, i told him, i can only from within mé, submit to the man that I choose
That i only can give myself from love for that man, for his whole...
That i would like to be treated as a human being, first
That we start as EQUALS!
He wrote things like, that i could HUMBLE APPLY.... and so on and on.... if i liked his offer... so to say...
Somehow, i always feel very offended by that kind of behaviour....
I am a human being, wish to be treated that way.
My whole being uniquely me! was totally discarded.
Unless degradation is a fetish of me,(NOT) i dont like that kind of approach....
I am being OBJECTIFYED, ( again)  me, as a person? does not matter much.
i am already molded in his mindframe as A SLAVE....
I dont own any personal character traits anymore, all i am is A SLAVE... an object.
I can not "playact" the (sexual) only submissive role... for as long as the game is on...yawns... I dont even understand how that works....?
I need that inner connection, feel his DOMINANT ENERGY....
not his sexdrivenegogames...
Feel his steadiness, his emotional balance,
To feel that he is capable of carrying that responsibility, gladly too
to be able to carefully, slowly let my shield down.
I need that connection with that man.
To know that he is also wanting to build a bond with me, from friendship... and not from lust....
I need to know that man, i need to have feelings for him, feelings, not lust.
Without that, it wont work for me.
I want to feel his dominance throughout the whole relation, in every aspect of our being together, relation...
That is what a 24/7 is, for me,
every day, sick, working, visiting family, friends, being together or not,
Hé is my Master, i will obey him...
because i know him and know that he will never ever do me harm.
He will challenge me, and i will expect that of him, too.
he will push my limits, and i expect that of him too.
and....?
he will love me for that....
because he is a loving sadist and i am a masochist who longs to surrender fulltime, to a grownup man, in controle of his life....
and me too.
Only from love.... and understanding and embracing each others needs....
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"role" switching..?
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Posted:Apr 23, 2017 6:21 am
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2017 2:02 am 3613 Views
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On fetlife, while i was to organise the munches, this man contacted me.
claiming to bé á dominant.... hm, hmm... sure.....
So, we met, he ofcourse! was married, had a bad sex life, had a bad marriage for what he told me, just the regulair, usual vanilla neglect of each other as partners...no interest in each other....just maintaining the status-quo.
I have heard that SOOO many time, it is boring... and somewhat disgusting too...
For so far as i know, there are 2 people in a marriage!
So, he fancied me.. well, who cares?
He was only in for the sex-kinky part of it all, ofcourse : the kinksters.
Sorry, i dont DO GAMES.
I thank him for his "offer :-&"
Great was my surprise, that i come across his profile some days later, and all of the sudden he is no longer a DOMINANT, but now, all of the sudden, he is á sub!!! hmm, hmm! sure....
WTF!!
It seem not to work for him, acting as a sub, so after some days...
yes! he was a switch!! 2 weeks later he was a sadist!
How you mean?
dont trust anything you read on a male profile, unlesss you have the living prove of that human... as a stable human being....
wich i doubt very much...
I get sick at the stomach, reading such profiles, especially after meeting those persons... shudders... it gives me the creeps!!
And, the likes of him, are here too!
Mind you, i can understand, when you always had a feeling that something was missing in your life, your relation, as a whole
You find somehow sites like this... that it is like being in a candy store...
But educate yourself FIRST!
Their approach is mostly very different from the predators..../kinksterplayers....
it is not a one night stand sexplay... easy lay.....
I also know that most men on here, think submissive = equals a easy lay, someone without any willpower, or a brain, one who you can fuck brainless, and dump,
up for the next catch....
Most of those men, are UNHAPPELY married, and in a desperate need of a fuck... to boost their ego....
They do not have any GENUINE interest in the whole BDSM dynamic, Protocol about BDSM, as a way of living...or in the other person.....
"role" switching gives me a rash...
allergy alarm! 
But, then again, most on here, are just in for the kinkyfuckery... to stroke their ego, nothing more....
so shallow.....
but thats just my rambling.....
To me, SM, or BDSM, is only possible in a relation, a bond between 2 people, in wich they take the time to get to know each other, with their clothes on.
gentle grow into the whole dynamic of a T A T/ Authority/Power Transfer...
exploring each other as human beings, having fun doing that, growing to like, understand and trust each other...
because A DOMINANT, needs to be able to trust his sub/slave too.
Trust, honesty, safety for both is mandatory.
To me, SM, or BDSM, has at first, nothing, to do with sex! AT ALL!
iT IS THE MINDSET, HIS SPECIAL ENERGY, that triggers me, to make me want to surrender to that one special man.... as a organic deed.... growing, learning....
to obey him, to be his totally.
Sure, if the dynamic is established, if we agree on most subjects of our dynamic,
sure there will be some sex.. but that is just a small part of the whole Authority EXCHANGE,...
taking my masochism as the core of the relation, taking my masochism as the centre of our/my sexuality.
and no vanilla soft, obeying the woman, serve the woman's favorite flavour .... shudders!
but the male demanding, taken what is his, from his love for me; SM sex .
stay safe!
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family matters
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Posted:Apr 1, 2017 12:21 pm
Last Updated:Aug 16, 2017 12:24 pm 4144 Views
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I have a very dear elderly aunt, she is somewhere in her 70e....
She survived cancer, she had a hip transplant....
She was always the aunt who was there for me, when i needed her the most.
Now she is losing it a bit, getting lost in her own head... 'forgetting' all kind of stuff.
It hurts me to see her like this, she takes this change very calmly and rational,
She tells me, i know i am losing it, i know i get lost in my own head and home....
But i am fine with that... why would i try to fight it?
This is what it is...
I find that so powerfull!
Now, my eldest sister, who has some attitude about her, is trying "to take care" of our aunt.
All she does is making my aunt upset, because the way she talks to her about her, behind her back, right in her face,
as if she is doing all those non logical things on purpose, to piss my sister off...
It is really nasty to see it happen, my aunt is only feeling more and more miserable.
guilty even, and she is not able to do anything about it.....
So she gets nasty, aggressive, in rebellion.
At the same time this sister of mine, demands that our aunt picks her up, at the busstation.
Thats in a pretty bussy place.... so my aunts panicks more and more...
I suggested to my sister, that she, just like we all do, when we visit that aunt, walks to their house.... that is about 10 minutes from the bus- stop.....
Oh, No! what i am thinking, she NEEDS to be picked up at that busstation...
shé is not going to walk! what are you thinking!
So, this so called, caring sister of mine, forces my aunt to do things she is not feeling safe about anymore, because that sister of mine, is too high and mighty to w a l k...!?
What a fuck up lazy bitch she is!
so, my aunt, being slightly demented, accident prone....scared in bussy traffic... wanted to take the sidewalk to ride home....
And the whole family thinks this sister is marvelous because she is soooo caring... for our aunt....
yeah, right, self interest is more likely....
I go as often as i can, i have a bussy work schedule...
Thank the goddess, she is not living alone, she lives in the house of her , cangaroo living it is called.... still totally independent, on her own, with her family watching over her....
It breaks my hart to see how my sister treats our dear loving caring aunt...
nasty piece of work, she is...
not having any insight in her own behaviour, when i told her, that maybe our aunt is not up to such a long drive anymore, she just laughs it off... and demands that her wishes are taking care of...
I worry... she makes her dementia only worse, and worse....
My dad had dementia also, at the end, his wife was also not able to handle that nicely, she was very rude and accusatory to my dad... hit him and cursed at him, when he forgot things... also a very demanding cold bitch....
that made him feel that he was losing more and more grip on his life...
also a nasty hard piece of work, that woman...
dementia is not a choice! to pester your spouse or other family members...
be- fucking- nice to those who losing their grip on their lifes.
be understanding of their condition..
My aunt was a psychologiste... my dad had a good job, before he lost it....
bé -fucking- nice to demented people!
respectfull
i worry... and feel helpless.... and sad about it all....
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Working on my bike,
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Posted:Apr 8, 2024 3:26 am
Last Updated:Apr 10, 2024 10:11 am 519 Views
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Adjusting an other luggage rack.
Just right here, in the middle of my living room!
Haha
no dirt around, it was a clean job, only my hands got a bit greasy..
I dó have soap in the house! lol
So, now with this new rack, i have room on my stearing wheel to put some other earo bars on it, so i can change posture, while riding.....
I am happy to solve this one problem, so i can find a solution for an other problem!
Isnt that great!!  
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First Christmas day.....
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Posted:Dec 24, 2023 8:11 am
Last Updated:Dec 26, 2023 2:18 am 872 Views
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It is raining the whole day, just like yesterday, and the days before that....😭😭😭
It is already dark, or semi dark, around 15 hour...
Overcasted, the whole freaking days !!
GOSH, how i cant stand those dark days in December.... 😳😫😱
The husband of my sister is in the hospital, they dont know what is wrong with him.
He is put on morfine....So, the family too, is in a bit of panic....
Not me, so much...They dont live close by...
The times i celebrated Christmas, where all very stressfull.
So i dont "do" Christmas anymore..
It is just a long weekend!
I hope you enjoy your festive days!!
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Housewife,
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Posted:Mar 4, 2023 1:33 pm
Last Updated:Mar 6, 2023 11:52 am 1812 Views
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I know,for some women, that is really a very nasty word.
As if working in your household is bad, low etc..?
I get a lot of pride out of being a housewife.
Although i sometimes suck at it!
Because, well, some actions are very, very repetitive, and that is very killing for my mental health.....BORING!
But, when i have cleaned out the fridge, i am proud of how it looks again!
Or, when i have finally ironed all the blouses and all that, i am very proud too!
I have that too, when i work in my garden and it starts to look like something.
For now, it is way to cold, to be working longer then about 1o minutes in the garden..
Today i did work in my garden.
makes me feel happy, having dirty nails!
I am a proud housewife.
Hard work, not enough appreciated and totally not paid for!
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