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Everything is connected with everything, everything is a form of energy

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Posted:Jul 17, 2023 2:39 am
Last Updated:Aug 14, 2023 12:54 pm
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This is something a D, Master wrote as an answer to a topic on FETLIFE.
Alas, i did not wrote his name down.
So, unfortunately, i cant give him credits for this great writing....

When someone recognise this, as a writing from his name, please, let me know?
So, i can ask his permission and mention his name, ofcourse.

This is about building a D/s as a relation based power dynamic.

A, Do you want that level of responsibility over an other?

B, Are you capable of taking on that level of responsibilityover an other?

C, Are your intenions good?

D, Are you willing to put in the effort needed to be sccessfull even though you arent
sure what those might be?

E, Are you willing to fail, accept that, and move on to make yourself better?

F, Are you fully understanding their expectations and willing/ capable to meeting
them?

G, Have you fully disclosed your expectations and ensure they understand and
accept them?

It is a simbiosis.
It is a leap of faith.
Do No Harm.

Write down, how you see yourself over 2 years from now,
a normal day,
if you were his slave and he your master.

Define the M/s dynamic.

Holding yourself responsible for your mistakes and fix them.

( This, ofcourse, count, in her own way, also for the s type.)
the last sentence is of my hand and brain.
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An appointment?
Posted:Jul 17, 2023 2:22 am
Last Updated:Aug 9, 2023 10:20 pm
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After a night of very deep, good sleep, i had a strange start...
I dont know how, it just felt like things were off....

So, later on, i was ready for my appointment, in the mean time, i was, again, cleaning out a lot of paper works...
In search of some recipes.. from some old spectacles... i still have lying around...
Could not find those recipes...
Did throw them out, already?

My phone ran, the appointment was canceled..
That made more time to clean out more and more......
It is especially paper works, that clog my bookshelfs..

Those actions are almost always very circulair, i start in that one cupboard....
make room, find other gems!
What i want to give away....
So, i make an nice pile of things, which needs to get out of the house...

I have already two piles, one for my and one for other goals....

So, this afternoon, i ll be riding my bike, with all kind of stuff that will make other people happy!
Give it away!!!
make room, in your house, in your energy field, in your heart.
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I am getting the hang of it..?
Posted:Jul 15, 2023 2:51 pm
Last Updated:Sep 19, 2023 4:57 pm
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Working real hard, to get in a good shape, for my, to come traveling.
Learning this thing, about alcaline food, bases....

Very interesting.
What i like most about it, is that you dont have to remove all the other things you /i eat, and just put some other stuff on the table/ in the pan....
Make it more about balance, like almost everything is, or should be? In life?
About balance....

Also making listst of things, really, really necessary.
The bare essentials, nothing more.
Found a nice tent, and more stuff to buy......

Found some sites with traveling experiences from other folks, riding through France/ Spain, etc...
It is really very exciting to read their adventures.
Some made some videos of their track, some where very nice to watch.
This person goes from a real nice good road, onto a goat path, behind farms and so on,
real great!!
That Is Spain/Portugal!
I love to watch their actions! Their tracks through the wilderness.

As usual, the weather sucks real time, overhere, in Holland
We have some sunshine, with a terrible, cold hard wind.
This "summer"? i dont want to talk about it!!! LOL

I am outdoors most of the time, to get the most sunshine i can get.
But it is no fun, at all...
Have to take all seaons weather clothes with me, when i am outdoors!
Drives me nuts, this madhouse climate!!
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submarine..
Posted:Jun 30, 2023 7:37 am
Last Updated:Sep 19, 2023 3:59 pm
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After that disaster, i dont hear anything anymore...

I checked it out, and i learned that if you implode, you become fluid???
That is what i could found, on the worldwideweb...

Now they found some parts of that submarine and got them out of the ocean....
They talked about human parts, still in some parts of that submarine..... ?

Very strange...

I have witnessed that before, people with a filthy amount of money, most of the time, dont have any taste at all.

I know these folks, crazy rich, build a house...
it is such a monsterous building!!
Just looking at it, makes you want to cry!
Or demolish it......
The whole village was in shock, when they saw that horrendous building.

Money is no value at its own.
Money is no garantee for decent, smart behaviour.

Maybe, when you are born, into money, you know how to behave, be a decent human being....?

Anyway, i am curious about the body parts they found...
Want to know!
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I have this one .... bad habbit...? whahah! One??
Posted:Jun 30, 2023 4:18 am
Last Updated:Jul 1, 2023 1:19 am
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Nah,
i must have more then one...
Only this one, is something i know of and struggle with, sometimes...

I am, or can be, very goal driven,
That counts for riding my bike too...
i just cant ride just for the fun of it
I MUST have a goal, somehow

So, now i have decided, that i am going on my bike, without a real goal,
take some adventures side roads!!

Oh! help!! hahahaha

I think, i will experience sooner then later, that i am making a new goal, again and go for it!!! sighs!

hahahahah.
Try if i can find an other road to that big city,
I want to find the route next to the train rail...
I knów there is a route.
Have to find it....
and see what happens.....
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On my bike, again,
Posted:Jun 28, 2023 1:28 pm
Last Updated:Jun 30, 2023 4:11 am
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Sometimes, i really have to kick myself to go on my bike, again

When i am on my way, i am ever soo happy, nature, the sounds of all kinds of birds.
Love it.
Feel happy..

This ride was not so pleasant, it rained the whole day, the kind of rain, you think, wont make you wet!!
Water cold, we call it, overhere....

It was no fun, but i was on my bike, so i kept at it..
This time, i decided to take an other route, not the bike highway, anymore.

It was a much nicer enviroment, with bush and trees...
But i had the idea, that i was biking back wards....
So, i kept at the same route and eventually, i came back on that bike highway!!
I laughed real loud and said some nasty words!!
About my way of orientation - NOT!!!
My compass is broken, that is for sure.

Later on, i got in a conversation with someone, who also bikes to South Spain and back.
The man gave me all kind of advise, about biking in France.
And in Spain/ Portugal.

i have such a great contacts with other bikers!!
It is like folks on a motorbike, they all greet each other, on the road.
It is a bit the same, with bikers.

Also, there is this brand of bike bags, very well known among the folks who ride long distance...
We all recognise each other!
A little small family of bike addicts! LOL.

An other nice side effect is, my legs are getting much stronger and upper arms too!

I thought i must learn to ride in rain, too.
Endure it.
Because it wont be always sunshine, on my bike ride to Spain...
Today, was terrible.
i was soo cold, and soo tired, could not think straight anymore.

No where to run, no where to hide.....
But i made it home, took the train the last part!!
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"Friends" in the scene?
Posted:Jun 26, 2023 1:40 pm
Last Updated:Jun 28, 2023 1:13 pm
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When i first started this journey.....
I really thought, it was great to become friends, with all kind of SM folks...
I really did.
Very fast, i realised, that is not working at all.

You can be 'friends', just because you both like to be whipped...
But that is a bit of a very shallow base for friendship.

Ofcourse, i did experienced this, in my life already.
But for some reason, i thought this community in Holland
was very open and acceptable of others.. and their preferences.

Oh! Boy! how wrong i was!!

My experiences were a bit shocking.
Yeah, i know, i can be a bit naief sometimes...
One big happy family!
Right! not!

First i had some friends, who did have a totall different view on submission, dominance, relations based on that principle.
objectification.

That made the scale on wich our SM conversation was base rather small.
i also found out, that most folks in, at least The Dutch scene,
only want to talk sex fantasy.

Nothing real life must come in between!!

To me, again, that was very shallow.... empty too.

There is more to life, then talk about the play you experienced and how much of the same you need/want....

Also, their ideas about dominance, or submision, was very limited, in my eyes,
to just the sexual act.
Fetish dispenser comes to mind....
Topping from the bottom, too

"I only want to submit the way i want it, when i want it.."

And he has to perform his act, accordingly..... HUH?

It is all made of small little compartements.
Does not have one connection, with their daily life....

I cant do that.
That kind of 'conversation' bore me to death, to have to participate in that way....

So, now, i have this one contact, and an other one, but that totally has no substance at all
That one, will bleed to death, and i am fine, with that..
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Finding?
Posted:Jun 22, 2023 12:00 pm
Last Updated:Jun 26, 2023 1:23 pm
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I realise, to find a man, as i want and need it, is not easy at all.

SInce the 50 shades of womens abuse, and all the horrible sad porn.
It is getting even worst, to find a decent man.

Friends of mine, tell me, there are not Masters or Dominants ~ nor submissives, or even slaves, anymore
There are only swingksters!!

Two slaps on the ass and fucking!

The whole mental connection, the whole deep, deep trust needed to be able to give myself to an other person?
Seems no longer available on sites like this.
Or on fet life, too...

The other day, there was this item on fet, about 'giving up is not an option'
Well, let me tell you, it is!

They also use this term, when talking about cancer patients..
I think, that is rather rude to say.
You dont know, how someone feels, deep down inside
You have no idea, how heavy such 'treatments' are
physically and even more important, mentally..

I can understand when someone says; enough is enough.
in this case of cancer "treatment" or in the search for a Dominant~Master.

Let it go.
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Next hoax?
Posted:Jun 22, 2023 11:31 am
Last Updated:Jun 23, 2023 12:19 pm
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Here in Europe, the WHO is going for the overkill...

Yeah, disclaimer, you dont have to agree with me.
If you dont have anything positive to say, please dont say anything at all
Write it on your own blog, if you want to, have to, thank you very much.

There are a lot of different kinds of cancer going on, since the jab.

There are still a lot of people, overhere in Holland who are afraid of their health.
Have all kind of strange 'side effects?' since they took the jab....

Their whole resistance is gone.

Now, the WHO organisation has thought of something else...

In Holland you can get a shot, for free, now
to "protect" you, against 6 types of cancer...

Cancer has soo many forms, has sooo many ways......
It can get into existence through what you eat, or not eat
Genetica could also have a say in it...
Air polutions, water polutions, food polutions.

Most fruits, overhere in Holland have more then 7! kinds of poisson on them
Most are not realy safe to eat, in large quantities... for a long time....

So, getting a stap to protect you?
Against 6 kinds of cancer??

Bull shit!
It is just an other hoax!
WHO is trying to controle world population by controling their health, their finance..
their freedom.

Dont do it!
Please, please, please, if your country wants to push this on you.
refuse!!!

For now, they are only active on trainstations, in the big cities, and only focussed on the youht.
For now it is for "free"....
The next step is, you will have to pay for it.

I warned you, before
about this corona haox.
I warn you, again.

Do your own research!!
Dont believe me, please do your own research.
If i can find information about this, so can you.
Be aware, be very aware.....

Check the chinese way of controling their populations.

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glasses,
Posted:Jun 18, 2023 9:47 am
Last Updated:Jul 2, 2023 2:17 pm
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This are my glasses,
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