My sister,
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Posted:May 21, 2024 10:52 am
Last Updated:May 21, 2024 10:58 am 4 Views
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Is actually doing pretty good.
Although she still does not sleep much...
Their marriage was a marriage of keeping secrets...
To keep up.... having "a good" 🤢🤮🤢 marriage.
Well... it was "A Good Marriage"..... for him, and him only!!
Their two suffer under this, very much.
Being bullied, to make themselfs less and less...
Lack a good, healthy selfimage.
No convidence, in being a good person, with the right to take in space.
The right to BE A PERSON.
Horrible.
They both bring that, into their own relation.so, subconscious,
They "look" for a person, who mirrors that behaviour of their " daddy".....
Having troublesome relations in wich they are not being appreciated, (enough?)
But being made small, and feelings of being stupid
They having little ones, too.
Give this trauma on, to their ...
And on, and on, and on.
Passing on trauma in a family.
Gosh....
What a damage!
My sister is not yet ready to throw all his shit out, maybe she is even "afraid" to touch his clothes...?!
!All his bad energy is still in that house!
Next month i am going to her place again.
I needed the ME! Time.
Her character is very different tgen mine, ofcourse.
She just gives, and gives, and gives
Never demanded anything for her own...
Dont take in any room, pace....
So, a vacuum does not excist,
He took, and took and took... up all, of her.
And now, she is at a loss...
I give her exercises, to feel good, get some energy going,
Qi Gong.
And Chanting,
It is up to her.
I tell you; Stockholm syndrome.
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Spring?
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Posted:May 21, 2024 10:27 am
Last Updated:May 21, 2024 10:33 am 18 Views
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Or... not so much....
We are getting a lot of rain, in between some sunshine..
Due to the moisture... it is really nasty weather.
Your clothes stick to your body, have difficulty breathing...
Spring?
Bleagh.
This, i believe, is the 3 or 4 spring, that is just a wet season, with some sunshine, now and then.
There is more daylight!
That is for sure.
But, no consistancy, at all
For those who like to change their clothing, during the day?
Tihis is ideal weather for them.
You dont know what to wear,
In the morning you actually need your winterclothes on, again..
So, around 11, you can put on something light,
After 15 hour, something.,
You can put your autumn clothes again...
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Being a woman? Or?
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Posted:May 16, 2024 10:47 am
Last Updated:May 21, 2024 10:27 am 2802 Views
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Just being mé?
I am looking for traveling tents, lighweight and all that...
Most of the tents they show on sites, i find terrible ugly.
I mean; you dont go sleeping in a Yellow tent?
Or bright red?
Do you??
I want a tent with some extra space to put stuff, like my bike bags...
have some extra room....
Hard to find!
With just a small canopy, so i can sit in the shade, in front of my tent, when it is lovely hot, where i am going...
I also want a tent with a front and a back door, because where i am going, it is most probably going to get hot!!
Some airing is nice, in that case?!
Dont you think?
It is almost impossible to find such a tent.
I want the tent to look nice!
is that too strange? 
Ofcourse i take a 2 persons tent, for the extra space....
Because i am going to be on the road for a long time, i want a tent
where i can relax in and around.
Not just only sleep in....
I have to cook too....
Choices, choices
I have an other challenge, with the cooking devices...
What and how?
I LOVE to cook on wood, make a real living fire...
In South Europe, you are not allowed to cook on open fire, in the hottest months..,
because of creating a whole forest to go up in fire...
When the sparks of your fire, go underground and go on burning..
You can burn a whole forest area.... miles away from where you was... at first...
Freaking dangerous!!
So..... that is an other challenge!
What, how and why?
I want the things i have to buy and use, to look somehow pretty.
To enjoy them.
I bought some really very fancy nice plates, cups and cutlery
The brand is; KUPILKA,
It is from Finland
Check it out, if you are curious...
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shaving times?
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Posted:May 15, 2024 9:43 am
Last Updated:May 17, 2024 12:31 pm 3206 Views
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Ssst,
Just say it in a very quiet voice....
Ssstttt....
It seems like this thing in the sky, is giving off some warmth...?
like sunshine???
ooh! Ooh!!
sssstttt
dont say it out loud!!
or the weathergods decide to cut it, again...
So, the shaving times are here again....
So soft, so smooth, i love my legs when shaved!
Just dont like the ritual of shaving, at all...
Wet, dry, does not matter, i just dont like to do it.
so much work!!
I always miss parts...... 
even though i make in my mind shaving patterns on my legs, i always seem to miss parts....
strange, dont you think?
I always wish........ Sssttt.....
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Fake?
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Posted:May 13, 2024 5:47 am
Last Updated:May 13, 2024 1:13 pm 4570 Views
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Again?
In an conversation, it became cristal clear that his ideas of a d/s did not matched mine.
No problem, just a natural aspect of getting to now each other and each others wants and needs.
No drama.
At least, not for me.
This is more common, then not, when in conversations with men, on here...
alright, no hard feelings, i wish you luck and all that.
Well, he began calling me a fake.
I think, that says more of his (lack) of understanding of the core of bdsm and relationstyle, then anything else.
still no hard feelings.
I knów i am not A fake,
athough he might think so...?
He just wanted something totally different from the whole scale of BDSM then i did...
He, too, is not a fake, either.
He was just a bedroom dominant.
Not much human interaction, interest, only as far as the body form went...
Sorry, i cant do that.
I NEED that emotional attachment, connection, before i even consider getting naked.
Or talk intimate desires...
Trust?
Where is the trust?
In such fast, only oriented on the bodily, satisfaction? actions?
I think, am going to make a button, to put on my jacket, with FAKE on it.
Or maybe, let it be tatoed on my forehead! LOL
in mirrored writings~! EKAF 
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My Nigerean prince
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Posted:May 11, 2024 11:10 am
Last Updated:May 13, 2024 1:18 pm 5417 Views
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He calls me at least three times a week, or day, i cant keep count of it, anymore
OOoh, it is sooo romantic,
He always makes up new names for me,
It is sooo romantic...
My heart is overflown with lust and my eye lashes cant stop fluttering too...
Oooh, it is sooo terrible exciting....
Or in other words, i get harressed by someone with a very clear African accent
always asking of some other named, Joyce or you name it
person....
After that intro, i always thank him, profoundly for his attention and put down the phone,
in totall extacy!!
Instead of getting upset, by those phony phone persons calling just about any number
i make him my Nigerean Prince, and have soo much fun.
You dont want to know, where my fantasies about this Prince goes....
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And yet an other one....,
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Posted:May 10, 2024 3:43 am
Last Updated:May 18, 2024 2:02 pm 6131 Views
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They are falling in bunches.
First, her husband, who had all kind of underlying illnessess...
First, cancer on his head, skin, then prostate cancer, then bone cancer...
and i can go on and on, about her husband...
i really believe, the doctors in the Hospitals dont know, what is hitting them.
This is totally new to them
Never learned about multiple cancers, all over the bodys.
They come into the hospital with just one minor thingie..
They go in for a full research and then the doctors finds all kinds of cancers,
all over the bodies.....
Bone, liver, skin, prostate,.... you name it.
SO that was numero UNO
then the husband of a dear friend of my sister, got sick, had already all kind of underlying illnesses,...
Both men were already 70 +......
Once they are diagnosed, they go fast!!
Then, a nephew got diagnosed with cancer, out of the bleu, no illnesses, nothing.
A very healhty, very sport minded, very active man.
Within 14 days, he is gone, leaving behind a wife, and two ....
That is NUMERO 3.
Who is next in line?
My sister too, has all kind of strange bodily reactions....
things with her blood...... 
Not known in our family....
I am tired....
They are going to kill my whole family, because they, all, thought, they did The Right Thing....
Did not think things through... did not checked the facts
Although i warned them and warned them, time and time again....
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Astra Zeneca?
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Posted:May 9, 2024 11:50 pm
Last Updated:May 11, 2024 10:59 am 6249 Views
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You can read all kind of background info about what really happened during this 'corona madness"...
When you read blxkbx and other very brave people who keep searching for the thruth about this genocide master plan.
Now, in main stream papers, there was this article about Astra Zeneca
They retrait their vaccin from the market
Something big is going on, when you get that kind of info into main stream papers...
I believe they are scared to death to get all kind of big, very big lawsuites against them, and their practices...
They tried to keep 'us' from the facts, by trying to protect their ingredientslist,
but they are now in the open, about some other vaccins...
Tried to protect their evil,
Claiming the list of ingredients must be protected for 70? 50? years, before people could get info about the ingredients of those vaccins..
They are losing it.
The >w>h>o>, also withdraw all kind of plans....
Did not read the whole article....
Something is moving...... changing.... Yeah....
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Hello, again
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Posted:May 9, 2024 2:20 pm
Last Updated:May 10, 2024 1:30 pm 6433 Views
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Hi there,
I am back
Have to digest a hell of a lot...
Wonder if my sister is ever able to cope with all this mental abuse...
After 50 years of a horrible "marriage"/ abusive... what ever...
Being made sooo terrible dependent on him, have to ask permission for everything...not getting his permission....sighs...
So sad! So much suffering....
I go work in my garden, to set my mind at ease...
Take care, 🙏🤗
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Gone for a while,
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Posted:Apr 24, 2024 12:12 pm
Last Updated:May 8, 2024 12:24 pm 14265 Views
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Just to let my friends on here, know
i will be gone, for a forthnight, or something like that...
Visiting my sister again, it goes in all directions, with her mental state,
as it is..
We'll see.....
Maybe i will come in here, just to read, late in the evening.....
Stay cool, or warm, and relax.
This, will pass too..
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