my story so far- the beginning
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Posted:Aug 16, 2016 2:00 pm
Last Updated:Aug 19, 2016 7:52 pm 4361 Views
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good afternoon all. i hope Y/ou are having a pleasant day! many of Y/ou have been following me since i created my first alt profile at the ripe age of 18. for that, i thank You, and apologize for not being amongst the more interesting ones to follow  that will be changing, and hopefully for the better
for those of Y/ou that have recently followed me, thank You for the add. i have come a very long way from those early days. much has changed, much has remained the same. i find myself truly missing the sub space, and am at a point where i can finally re-enter that space. i wish to share much of what i have learned in my past experiences as well as musings from what i am learning/re-learning and exploring. i believe it is worth mentioning some of my past, however, given some recent unfortunate interactions i have had. i promise future posts will not be so long, and will be a funner read, but please enjoy my story so far
i have always been interested in the non-vanilla side of life. perhaps i can attribute that to my mother. our "talk" when i reached the 6th grade consisted of her handing me a copy of a paperbook book (read that as soft porn lol) called Paper Roses and saying "ask me if you have any questions." it is a decent book- not among my favorites, but two scenes really resonated with me. a forced submission scene, and the chapter with a Master and all of his slaves. looking back.... it was terribly written and not very accurate- but i was fascinated and wanted to learn more about this strange dynamic... these women and men willingly wait on someone hand and foot, and somehow find pleasure in that? how could that be? so i did what a typical pre- nerd with few friends does. i read. i researched, and read, and visited sites and did all i could to learn more. by the time i went off to college i had read just about everything there was to read and had not been scared away, so i took that as a sign that it may be time to delve a little deeper.
sorry- this is not one of those "dirty high school girl" type stories. i behaved...but i also felt trapped. i was uncomfortable in my mind and my body. i was very overweight, but was also very uncomfortable in my skin. i was an academic overachiever, mindful of my studies and never really going out to party... but inside i was dreaming of that sweet release i had imagined only comes from a submissive pleasing her Dom. this part of me stayed hidden from my friends and family (of course) and even those few fellows i dated, but was always there, my hidden dark desires.
one fateful day, i took the plunge. there was a little hole-in-the-wall sort of place that i passed every day on my walk to and from work. i had never taken much notice of it, but today i happened to notice the parking lot was extremely full, more so than usual, and there were several women entering the building wearing coats, which caught my eye and prompted a closer look. i should mention i went to college in Hawaii- so seeing anyone in a coat kind of sticks out. it was then that i saw T/hem. He was tall, dressed well in black, clean cut hair...He wasn't particularly handsome, but had the kind of resonating power that holds your attention. His charge for the evening was quite pretty, and confident, and not wearing a coat- rather she was wearing her pink crystal collar with matching nipple clamps with pride, glowing with the knowledge she was pleasing her Master.
i was incredibly rude, i know that now, as i simply stopped on the sidewalk and watched this couple make T/heir way confidently to the door. He noticed, of course, but i couldn't look away when He looked back at me. He wasn't mad, or angry or offended though... He simply smiled at me knowingly and signaled me to stay where i was for a minute before disappearing inside. i still don't know what prompted me to stay, but i did. He came back out a short time later with a paper and said "I believe this will interest you." and that was that. it was a flyer for this same little hole in the wall club for a thursday night "talk" series open to whomever called "the D/s dynamic." i decided then and there that it was time to take my learning beyond what i'd read in books. it was time to explore
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Kinko de Mayo
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Posted:May 6, 2006 1:30 am
Last Updated:Aug 16, 2016 12:46 pm 4659 Views
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This is my first blog posting on here, and i'm so angry. i have a paper i have to finish that's due monday and so i can't make it out to Gallaxy. tonight is the Kinko de Mayo dungeon party. i've never been to a dungeon party and was really looking forward to making this my first time. i'll be leaving for the mainland before the next one too, damnit.
but hey- i'm coming back here in august or so. anyone care to take me there? i here they have a lot of good props for use...
saxy
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