i am having.....
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Posted:Mar 27, 2007 7:14 pm
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2007 4:31 pm 7243 Views
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a really, really good hair day!!! 
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No Longer Seeking........
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Posted:Mar 26, 2007 5:49 pm
Last Updated:Apr 14, 2007 12:25 pm 7564 Views
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......my One.
*a precious rant*
No, i have not found Him, nor He, me.
The truth of the matter is, i'm just sick of
it. Sick to death of the whole fucking thing. i
plan to continue hanging around Alt for my
F/friends; being more active in my various groups, blogging, replying to my comments (yes, i'm sorry P/people, i know i am horribly behind, and as soon as i finish this rant, it shall be next on my to do list), reading and commenting on O/others blogs...also which i seem to have fallen behind in.
Anyway, as i was saying...i am tired of the
players, the wanna-be's the fakes and the frauds. i am tired of Dominants who expect me to throw myself at Their feet after one email, or to play at O/our first meeting. Being judged on the way i look, or don't look. i am sick of Dominants who don't keep Their word. i am tired of the "let's fuck" emails, the "on your knees bitch" notes. Of being contacted by 21 year old boys and 60 year old men.
Now, i know that there are a lot of tricky subs out there as well my Dominant friends, so don't get Your knickers in a twist. ones who are equally as evasive, or demanding, or flaky, etc etc., but i am not one of them, and i am hurt and upset by my treatment at the hands of the majority of Doms i have come into contact with. The exception being of course, the wonderful Dominants i call Friends.
And please P/people...no "it just takes time"
comments..."oh you're a wonderful person, some Dom will be lucky to have you"...blah blah blah. Yeah, i know all that, but i'm still not finding the One i can give myself to, to raise above All others...to love, and have Him love me. So i don't know if i'm putting out some weird karmic energy, or that i am truly NOT ready, or that i don't value myself highly enough, or what, but whatever it is...whatever i'm doing...it's not working. So i figure i'll take some time, re-group, re-assess, and go from there.
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En Requiem
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Posted:Mar 4, 2007 8:47 am
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2007 4:11 pm 7764 Views
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For Chris.......
November 27,1973-February 27,2007
Rest in peace my friend. You will be greatly missed.
BLACK BETTY
Ram Jam
Whoa, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
Black Betty had a
The damn thing gone wild
She said, Im worryin outta mind
The damn thing gone blind
I said Oh, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
Oh, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
She really gets me high
You know thats no lie
Shes so rock steady
And shes always ready
Whoa, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
Shes from Birmingham
Way down in Alabam
Well, shes shakin that thing
Boy, she makes me sing
Whoa, Black Betty
Whoa, Black Betty
BAM-BA-LAM
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Damn Cat!
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Posted:Feb 24, 2007 8:12 am
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2007 4:10 pm 7554 Views
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The phone rings last night:
me: Hello Sir
Him: Hello
*indignant cat yowling in the background*
Him: I hear a cat
me: yes, the princess is upset becasue she isn't getting enough attention
*now, when i said it, i really was refering to the cat....the second it came out of my mouth however......*
A heartbeat of silence.
Then W/we both burst out laughing. i can't believe Pen-Pen caused me to out myself like that!!
Him: Sounds familiar
What is it they say about pets taking on the characteristics of their owners?...or is that the other way around?
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Checklist
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Posted:Feb 20, 2007 5:39 pm
Last Updated:Oct 28, 2020 8:33 pm 7421 Views
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Case of Stoli-check
Cans of silly string-check
Case of Ketel One-check
Assorted garnish and mixers-check
Pink dye-check
Case of Absolut-check
Balloons-check
Glitter-check
Slip and Slide-check
Baby Oil-check
Case of Absolut-check
Invites to the G/gurls-check
Jello pool-check
Ok, i think i'm ready. A dear friend of mine has gone off and left His blog unattended-hmmmm, what's a lil subbie to do?
PARTY!!!!!!
Please join me at the Rexalicious Lounge, where the martini's are always bone dry and ice cold, the L/ladies lovely, and the hospitality on par with none.
[blog RexBannah]
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Ten Things Tag
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Posted:Feb 18, 2007 1:28 pm
Last Updated:Nov 4, 2020 7:24 pm 7387 Views
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For my friend db  Thank you for giving me the letter "T". i am;
~tactile
~tantalizing
~tender
~thoroughbred
~thoughtful
~ticklish
~traditional
~trustworthy
~trying
~twitterpated
Now, if i can just find a martini that begins with "T" i'll be all set!!
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Last Night...
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Posted:Feb 17, 2007 10:42 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2007 5:35 pm 8524 Views
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..i slept without panties on. Something i never do, but did. Because He asked me to.
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Given the Choice........
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Posted:Feb 12, 2007 7:45 pm
Last Updated:Nov 14, 2010 1:30 pm 8257 Views
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....between the chocolate, or the Taser, i'll take the chocolate every time!!!
i mean, c'mon, that Taser would turn my hair into a big, frizzy, ridiculous mess!!
There might be something to this patience thing after all, i'm starting to think. Now where's my candy?
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Fear....and Desire
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Posted:Feb 8, 2007 11:28 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2007 6:27 pm 9302 Views
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Vulnerability.
What i desire most. And what i'm most afraid of.
On one hand...to allow someOne to see
inside...beautiful
On the other hand, to allow someOne to see
inside...frightening
True intimacy is what i want. To not be afraid to show my soft squishy inside. To allow Him to see the me behind the wall. The me behind the mask. To not be afraid to let Him know that i need Him. To let Him see my insecurities, my fears, my darkest desires. To allow Him to hold me as i cry...to feel safe enough to cry in the first place. To allow Him to see that maybe i'm not as strong as i pretend to be...that maybe i'm not as together as i appear to be. To have Him know all about me, and still be enchanted...perhaps even more so. To be enticed and enthralled with this flawed, struggling, yet beautiful human being.
Then what happens? Truly, what happens, when you get what you want? This openness, this honesty. Love. i know it's not all happily ever after; rainbows, butterflies, and sunshine. But surely i should have some idea? What happens if you get all secure and cozy and then the rug is pulled out from under you? What happens when you present your heart to someOne on a silver platter and say, "Here, this is Yours." The potential for such joy and such heartache is all wrapped up into one. How do you do it? Why do you do it?
Vulnerability leads to intimacy. Yet intimacy leads to vulnerability.
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