New years resolution...no more holding back......
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Posted:Jan 1, 2007 5:38 pm
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:57 pm 16543 Views
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I thought I would go & read a few other blogs...You can learn a lot from reading other peoples blogs...Heres me trying to hold back...This sub definitely didn't lol...
May be I could learn something from her...'AARGGHHHH' big BIG spider just ran past...Well ok it was not that big...only the size of a 50p coin {{{Hee Hee}}}...
Still scary though...
I have started writing part two of my story...Its not easy writing a Victorian spanking story...Sir is very good with getting in the role of my strict Guardian...but I'm not quite as good with words...
According to him my GRAMMAR was not good in places...apparently he should know...cos he went to a GRAMMAR school lol...
Which means he can lecture & Dominate me in perfect English lol...Well...He was born in a posher place then me...I was born in the East end of London...AAARRRGGGHHHH...something just touched my leg...Phew no it wasn't the spider...
Anyway...I am a true cockney...born with in the sounds of the bow bells...Nooo I can't talk like a cockney...& I don't sound like one of the characters out of the soap East enders...
I have been told I talk posh for a Essex bird {{{grins}}}...Some times I do feel out of my depth around the people I meet in the scene...Well mainly the Doms...
Then again...that is my own lack of self confidence...Well...I wouldn't say that I am totally lacking in confidence...its just that niggling feeling sometimes...
Actually my Ex Masters constant mind games & general attitude...did knock my confidence...It was as if he liked seeing my reaction when he came out with something...which he knew would effect me...
He must have got something from it...built up his over inflated selfish ego in some way...Nuff said!...
I now have a Dom who treats me with respect...looks after me at parties...instead of rubbing his latest conquest in my face...He is not ashamed to tell people that I am his sub...That he plays with others...but I am priority...He actually says that to the other fem women...
Well...why shouldn't we be exclusive Dom/sub...but play with others...As long as we're both honest & give each other undivided attention...when we play together...then what is the problem?...
We'll both married...so its not as if we can have a 24/7 relationship...I would be a bit peeved if he saw another woman instead of me...I'm not sure how I would like him seeing another woman 1-2-1 regularly...because that would mean he would see me less...
He knows how I feel about that...He also knows my feelings for my Ex Master...because I discussed it with him...Yes Silver bitch...oops I mean silver lady {from bs site}...We actually do talk...
He now knows everything about her...What she done to me that is...Seems she took the school girl bit a bit too far...She was the school bully who no one likes...well still is...
I will stop now...it is 1:36am.................
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A Victorian melodrama...Part one...
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Posted:Dec 30, 2006 5:45 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2007 12:32 pm 16233 Views
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Written by Karen,inspired by sir...
Lady Karen stood anxiously waiting out side Sir Stephens study door.She dreaded the interview that she was about to have with her guardian.Her growing anxiety was not helped by the sounds coming through the heavy oak door,that of the two new chamber maids.Each swish of the cane & agonized yelp made her bottom twinge more with nervous anticipation.
It took all of her will power to stay where ebbing's the house keeper had put her.Hmmm...'What right has she got to order me about' karen thought to her self,but another loud yelp coming through the study door soon brought her mind back to her inevitable fate.
After what seemed a age,the swoosh,crack & piercing yelps stopped.Karen strained her ears to hear what sir Stephen was saying,but all she could hear was mumbling.Her heart felt like it jumped up into her throat when she heard the click of the door opening.Then the two sniveling girls hurried out into the corridor,where Lady karen was waiting.
Karen felt like running & hiding,but she was stuck rigid to the spot."Come in young lady"...it was too late now,Karen had to make her feet move towards the study door where her guardian was waiting.Her heart felt like it was beating in her head,her mouth felt so dry,probably because she had forgotten to swallow since the study door had opened.
As she entered the dark opposing room,{well it felt opposing to karen at that moment}she noticed the canes & well worn strap still laying on the big dark wood desk.Karen must have frozen in the door way,because Sir Stephen had to tell her to close the door & come closer.
Karen slowly walked the few steps to reach the desk where sir Stephen was sitting browsing through a book.She stood in front of him twiddling her fingers in front of her,the occasional disapproving grunts coming from her guardian,just made her more nervous.
"Tut Tut"..."What am I going to do with you?" Sir Stephen asked her in an exasperated voice...Karen did not answer,she thought it was not a good idea to offer a suggestion.Her comments often got her in trouble,they said she was being impertinent,but she was only being honest.
"The last thrashing I gave you,does not appear to have been enough" Sir Stephen lectured.Lady Karen bit her lip & looked down at her hands,before she spoke her thoughts out loud,she so hated being admonished by her mentor.
"Do you know what this book is?" He asked her as he turned the book around so she could read the many entry's that had been written in the punishment book over the last two weeks,since he had been away. "No Sir" Karen shook her head."Read the first entry" He demanded.
"L-Lady Karen was seen fr-fraternizing with the new under g-gardener" she stuttered,Karen knew full well what happens when she is caught with the male staff,her bottom twinged again,as she waited for Sir Stephens next demand.
'Hmmm...Do you think that is the way a lady of your station should behave???'...Karen cringed at the sound of his harsh tone...'No sir'...Sir Stephen sighed with irritation...
The heavy leather chair scrapped on the wooden floor as Sir Stephen pushed it out from the desk.Lady Karen's heart started pounding,she was so scared."Come here",he said in a grave voice.Karen was so nervous,her hands were clammy,she was shaking so much she was surprised her teeth were not chattering.
"Karen"..."Come here"...Sir Stephen said in a low menacing voice,warning her not to disobey him.Karen took a deep breath then forced her self to walk around the desk to take her humiliating painful punishment.
As she got close to him,he took hold of her wrist & guided her to his right side.Karen tingled with anticipation as his skin touched hers.It sent a jolt of tingling sensation right through her,ending in her most private intimate place.
That confused her.Her strict guardian was angry with her,& about to give her a very humiliating painful punishment,but her body was responding the same way as it did when she was close to the footman stable lad or under gardener.They all had one thing in common...Mmmm the muscles & masculinity......
It took seconds for those thoughts & feelings to go through her...Before she felt herself being pulled across Sir Stephens lap...Then the feelings changed to embarrassment,soon her bottom would be bare,she gave a little gasp as she felt Sir Stephens hand smoothing her skirt over her bottom...Karen crossed her ankles... as if that would help.
Sir Stephen didn't bother lecturing his wayward ward anymore...He got down to the task at hand...He smiled to himself when he saw Karen cross her ankles...That was one of the things she always did...It was not the first time he had felt the need to chastise her...In fact he was thinking of giving her a even more severe spanking then usual.
Lady karen jumped as the first spank landed on her Well padded posterior...It did not hurt at all,because there was so many layers protecting her bottom...That just made her feel more vulnerable because she knew from experience that Sir would soon work his way through the layers,each time the spanks would get harder & sting even more,until he reached her draws.
How she hated the humiliation of having her draws opened at the back so her by then pink bottom would feel the cool air & feel the unbearable sting.
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There are genuine people out there...
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Posted:Dec 30, 2006 10:58 am
Last Updated:Dec 30, 2006 11:34 am 15813 Views
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Waste his timeor just a rude arrogant wanna be
I think there are nice genuine guys out there...
BadGirlForDaddyUnfortunately you have to go through the wanna be's...
Last night I decided to make friends with some of the fellow subs in Collar me...I suddenly realized that I had more male friends in the scene then women...
One message I sent...it turned out that I met her at the Kink fest in London...She knew our friend that we went with...It was so loud there that we didn't get a chance to chat...Only shout in each others ears lol...
My Dom told me a few weeks ago...That he didn't mind me playing with my Ex Master...As long as he knew what was happening...but I told him that...that would not be a good idea...
Its a shame...because I have found a really good Dom...who treats me with respect...gives me very Mmmm spankings...but I can't see him as often as I would like...
Actually I'm prolly be a bit selfish...because there are people that get to play a lot less then every other week...
I want to be spanked weekly...That keeps me very happy lol...I am lucky to have a life which allows me to do that...My husband knows what I am into & accepts it...
He even got into...for me...but he has got his own sub...They are both more into the 'control'...'Power exchange' Then actual spanking...
I can't see the point of being blind folded & cuffed...with out the LONG...INTENSE...PAINFUL...thrashing lol...
I could say a lot more...but I need coffee...
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Waste his time...or just a rude arrogant wanna be???
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Posted:Dec 29, 2006 3:15 pm
Last Updated:Dec 30, 2006 10:39 am 16078 Views
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Gawd!!!...
I feel like I have just been bombarded by a very over bearing rude arrogant so called Dom...No not pig tails...
I got a message from a bloke with the name Sirslaps...{not in here}...Its strange...because he only said a few words...
Sounds delicious and I seek a serious spankee for daily joy. Care to chat?
Well it didn't sound too bad lol...but I had that feeling...
I was right...He was rude arrogant...More interested in seeing my pictures...& going on cam...then chatting...Apparently he didn't want to waste his time...Didn't want to chat that was beneath him...
Of course I put him in his placce lol...Jeeze I can choose any Dom I want...{well its true...sorry guys}...Why would I waste my time on a wanna be...
I have also been exchanging messages with a nice man who lives near me...He knows how to talk to people...We're on message 15 in about 3 days lol...
Its nice to make friends with like minded people...
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Blocked...
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Posted:Dec 29, 2006 8:36 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:57 pm 16153 Views
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I had ago at my ex Master last night...I had blocked him from being able to read my private journal...& taken him off of my buddy list...
Even though I had told him that I did not want to go back to how things were...That I wanted to stay friends...but with out the games...
It seemed that he is unable to not play silly mind games...I couldn't see the point of chatting to him on line...because he still done the...'say a few words then disappear with out saying good bye'...
Last night I thought I would try one more time...After all...we was together for 20 months...& was very close...but no...Mr PhilEssex is still under the illusion that he is something special...
I told him the truth...I still miss him even after 9 months...Obviously I need more time to get over a relationship that I put my ALL...into...
Any way...He disappeared...I asked him if he had disappeared with out saying good bye...because that is rude...I was in a 'I'll be friendly & polite but tell you how it is' mood...
Mr Essex seemed to think I was after playing with him again...Eh?...GOD does that man ever listen & bother to remember anything?...Seems not...
My response to him saying that he wouldn't play with me at the party was...'GOD NO...that would be a disaster too volatile...
To cut a short chat even shorter...I asked him why he was reading my Alt blog...His response...'I put a search in for cane,your blog came up,I never read anything'...Eh what twice in a few days...I said...'I don't believe you'...
The conversation ended with...'If you don't want me...leave me alone'...'Remember I finished with you'...'Remember it was you that sh*t on me'...{What I said}
Mr Essex needs to get over himself...& try a bit of honesty & loyalty for once...it works wonders...People actually respond in a positive way {Excuse sarcasm lol}
I have never actually written why we split up...because I am a loyal person who does not join in the back stabbing & gossiping...unlike many people that Mr Essex has played with...
Will continue...................................
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Black coffee...& a spanking would be better for my Diet sir...
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Posted:Dec 27, 2006 2:02 am
Last Updated:Dec 27, 2006 8:08 am 16009 Views
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How To (Really) Give A Spanking
I was looking in the alt magazine again...came across the above article...I thought it was very informative...
Men definitely need help in that department lol...
I weighed myself this morning...Yaaakes I have gained 4lbs in 3 days...Eh?...I'm sure I didn't eat that much...
So this morning I got back on my diet...I had a cup of black coffee & went for a 45 minute walk...
I was doing very well with my diet so I don't want to undo all that hard work...Of course spanking is very good exercise lol...All that wriggling & clenching must burn quite a lot of fat...
'Sir...I need more spanking'...
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Exactly...when is Enough Enough...or what ever lol...
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Posted:Dec 26, 2006 5:44 pm
Last Updated:Dec 27, 2006 1:38 am 16038 Views
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when is enough enough
I was looking in the Alt magazine advice lines...I came across this question...
It made me think...because when I first read it...My first response was...Surely if you've gone that far...you've already gone too far...e-g blood drawn...circulation etc...but I suppose like many things on the net...it can be taken out of context...
Personally...I would not want to be tied up so my circulation is stopped for any amount of time...but I suppose there are subs out there who do get off on that added intense sensation...
I have been caned until I was bleeding badly...The cut had a flap of skin...That was a year ago on 24th Jan...I have still not healed completely...
I went in Collar me...That is a bdsm personals site & chat room...I got loads & loads of messages...Some were the usual few words...'Well are you going to meet me or not...other wise I won't waste my time' type...
There was also a few messages from so called Masters...describing in detail what they would do to me...They were quite extreme...& quite scary in a way...Do they honestly believe that a woman in her right mind would want to meet them...
They have prolly never got a chance to do those things...because they go the complete wrong way about finding a sub...
Would they walk up to a woman in a pub & say...'Hi...I want to restrain you & abuse your F**K Holes'...Or I want to F**k your mouth & watch you choke on my c**k...Ummmm!...I can imagine the response lol...
All because I love being thrashed HARD...& love the after effects of intense pain...Does not mean I want to be abused by some arrogant,rude,ignorant Twat...
The more I read these messages the more I appreciate my Dom...Why would I want to meet those W****** when I have met the best...
Well I suppose I should feel good about my self for finding good Doms...As my friend pointed out...'You fell on your feet when you met S...you come out of a relationship with one good Dom...straight into another good relationship'...
Ummmm...I might have finished with my Master...{I done the finishing}...but I am able to see them as individuals....They are both very good spankers...but in different ways...
S can send me off into subbie land at least twice during a spanking...Mmmmm...he is good...{{{Sighs}}}...I have got to wait another 8 days until I get a spanking from Dom...
I have been writing a story for sir...We have got our own little melodrama going on...He is Sir Stephen...my strict guardian...& I am his promiscuous ward lol...I have just reached the part of the story where I'm standing by his right leg...
Its 1:41...I had better go to bed...
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Merry Christmas...
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Posted:Dec 25, 2006 5:57 am
Last Updated:Dec 26, 2006 10:45 am 16155 Views
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I have now decided to go to the party after all...My Dom is right...Why should I miss out...because I really enjoy going to parties...Plus it will be his BIG 50th birthday...& I'm supposed to be getting his birthday spanking lol...
Jeeze...My ex master has been here reading my Journal again...No don't worry...I'm not saying anything nasty about you...
What I wrote before was not prompted by him reading my blog...He doesn't usually bother...so I believed that entry would be long gone in the archives...a bit like him...
Its 13:52pm...I had better go & get ready...We're going to our friends for christmas Dinner...There will be 11 of us...
Then we're staying the evening...Me & my friend planned it that we all stay the night...so we can have a good p*** up lol...
{{{POUTS}}} I just thought...I have got to wait 10 days until I get my first spanking of the new year...
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Wow...that reading is so accurate...
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Posted:Dec 23, 2006 4:55 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2024 1:57 pm 16125 Views
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how you feel about yourself now (The Tower)
You feel that the disruption and sweeping change you are going through, or fear you are about to go through, will be catastrophic. You need to recognise that such upheaval can force new directions that you never dreamed possible. Subconsciously you may have wanted change, but as is often the case, the solution isn’t always as we expect. There could be problems relating to your property, or if considering a new property or move, progress will be thwarted.
what you most want at this moment (The Devil)
The cards suggest lady karen, that what you most want at this time you can’t have, like the forbidden fruit, which makes it all the more tempting. Or you could go for it but you know that it would be a bad choice and for all the wrong reasons. Yes, you want passion and gratification - just be careful where you go looking for it.
your fears (The Chariot)
The word failure isn’t in your vocabulary. You are worried things are more of a struggle than you expected, with more delays and frustrations. Things aren’t going to plan at all, just chill out, calm that mind of yours and you’ll find the strength to battle on until you succeed. This is a period of movement and change and conflicts ending in victory.
what is going for you (The High Priestess)
All lines are open in your telephone exchange with your intuition, and there is no better guide than your intuition. Listen, listen carefully and the secret you want revealed will be shared with you.
what is going against you (Death)
This is a time of anxiety, depression and fear with all the turmoil and distressing events happening in your life - it's time to show what you are made of. What has now come to an end leaves room for brand new beginnings in life, love and career. However radical events may be in your life, believe that life goes on and life is what you make of it.
outcome (The Emperor)
Expect success and achievement of your goals, this is a time for fulfillment of your ambitions. If you have placed your trust in your father, husband/partner or a man of significance in your life, they will come up trumps for you. If you have been the victim of ill-will don’t worry, you will win in the end.
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