Exposing my secrets
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Posted:Sep 27, 2007 11:22 pm
Last Updated:Oct 28, 2007 2:45 pm 3866 Views
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There have been some wonderful people come into my life lately and I had intended to write a few comments about my experiences but after thinking it over for a bit I've decided to keep my thoughts more private. (Sorry to you literary voyeurs) These are special times and special events that don't need to be displayed publicly. The person(s)involved know how I feel and that's all that matters. I'll be back when there is something I feel is worth sharing openly. The intimacies of my life don't fall into that category.
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I must be learning....
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Posted:Sep 23, 2007 11:03 pm
Last Updated:Oct 14, 2007 4:09 am 3679 Views
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A short while ago I had lots of critiques because I posted incomplete thoughts and finished them later. There are things running around in my head but I'm not about to post half completed thoughts...... I've learned my lesson. I'd better jot down my notes in the privacy of my own word processing file and transfer them over here after I've finished. You see, even an old can learn new tricks......
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Please Welcome Our 10,000th Member
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Posted:Sep 10, 2007 11:28 pm
Last Updated:Sep 10, 2007 11:34 pm 2867 Views
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Yes, you read right. We just had our 10,000 person join the Center last Saturday. This is a momentous occasion. I realize that actual active members are less than 10,000, however here we are just barely 8 years old and we’ve had 10,000 individuals walk through our doors and become members of the most unique and innovative sex positive organization in the country. That that many people felt it was important enough to take the time to join the Center boggles my mind at times. I remember back in 2000 when we were doing our strategic planning for the next few years and the idea of 10,000 members was brought up. Many of our board couldn’t get their head’s around the idea of that many people actually joining our organization. Our strategic plan for that year included a lot of things. Some of them we haven’t achieved yet (we still would love our own building). Others, like the 501 C-3 Foundation which was once just a dream, are now realities. I’m so proud of what we’ve cre
ated. And by “we”, I mean you, our amazing membership. You all are the source of this organizations continued success. You supply the funds, the volunteers, the energy, the play and the heart and soul that make us what we are. I want to thank all of you.
I want to document our success and our stories. The 10,000th member has served to remind me why we’re here and what we’re trying to achieve. I‘d like to invite you to share with me what you’ve received by being a member of the Center. I’d love to know how we’ve made a difference in your lives. I hope to share excerpts of your letters with the rest of the membership in the coming weeks, since I want all of you to really get that your support of this organization has made a difference in the lives around you and in the world. Please write me at directorat sexpositive culturedotorg and put “Making a Difference” in the subject line.
Here are a few quotes from letters I’ve received over the years. They illustrate just how much the Center means to everyone.
"I want to tell you that one of the reasons why I travel all the way from (a small town in Oregon) is that I feel safe there. More so than out on the street! I feel like I could show up all by myself and have a wonderful, no pressure night."
"Each time I go I feel more and more at ease, and last weekend I not only stayed until the wee-est hours of the night, but I found myself sitting at the Ambassador table and striking up conversation with others and coming more out of my shell."
"I love the nonjudgmental atmosphere. I loved that I wasn't made to feel nasty, dirty, or like a "perv" because I want to express myself sexually. Liberation at long last!"
"I don't generally think of myself as a person with very low self-esteem, but by the end of the night I felt so comfortable with myself my confidence must have gone up several notches."
"I found my lifelong partner at the SPCC."
“I have struggled with not knowing who I am and feeling terrible about since I was about 4 years old. I’m 49 now. I've been to so many therapists over 30 yrs. who hadn't a clue as to what I was about. Several thought I might be gay. No one ever mentioned kinkiness. Now I have a good therapist and want very much to come out and meet "my people," just be with others with erotic interests like mine, even if my current circumstances limit what I can actually do (physically) with others.”
The last quote is from a member prior to joining. He is now not only a member, but a volunteer and an active part of the community. Prior to joining he had little to no connections to healthy sexuality. He is just one example of how your organization has made a difference in someone’s life.
I want to thank all of you for your continued support. We’ve only just scratched the surface in creating sex positive community and culture. You all are at the vanguard of this movement and have a lot to be proud of. I applaud you all.
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To Paradise.... and back.
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Posted:Sep 3, 2007 11:38 pm
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2007 10:53 pm 2615 Views
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I had no idea how much I was needing to go to Paradise this year until I was well into it. This has to be the best kinky event in the Northwest... bar none. Seven days filled with kinky kamping, workshops and presentations that educate and inspire us to reach higher, to become better than we were. The fellowship, the unity, the closeness permeates this event. The lack of drama is refreshing. It's an opportunity to get together with others of like minds and where the minds do not meet there is respectful debate.
Respect.... I think this is a key..... There is a respect for those of differing view points that I've seen lacking at other events & venues. Maybe some of what we do will rub off on others as we go through our normal routines throughout the year.
While there were the normal group pairings, there was also an openness to meeting new people and greeting them with an honest warmth. It made me feel proud to know I'm a member of this great organization.
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Looking forward
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Posted:Aug 20, 2007 9:53 am
Last Updated:Sep 25, 2007 9:24 pm 5119 Views
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After having spent a wonderful weekend in the company of several friends in the lifestyle I was reminded of how very fortunate I am. My health is excellent, I'm involved in an exciting kink community, I have a group of some of the best and dearest friends any person could wish to have ....and there is still a huge world of kink yet to be explored. Sometimes we get so involved with life's day-to-day routine we forget all the marvelous things we have in front of us. As they say, we need to stop sometimes to smell the roses........ but not just smell them; look at their colorful beauty, touch their silky softness.
Isn't it great to be alive? There are many reasons for us to be thankful. So as I begin my day I'm excitedly looking forward to life's offerings..........
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The End
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Posted:Aug 8, 2007 1:32 am
Last Updated:Oct 31, 2007 6:33 am 5618 Views
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Recently I came to the unexpected end of what I thought was my forever relationship. For my purposes here the reasons don't matter, nor do the details. The only thing important is that it is over. The question remains, however, what do I do with all of those wild, crazy, sexy, slutty and even mainstream photos I've collected? Do I purge my computer, do I print them to send to the family, do I create a web site for all the world to see? I guess I'll just think about it for a while........ considering all of my options. What would you do? Already an idea is forming........
It's time to finish my entry....... When one experiences a traumatic event in their life we expect to see some uncharacteristic reactions from them. While this may be true, some things don't change. The loss of the love of my life was just such an event. Never has anything hit me harder except maybe the death of my father.
This is my life, my blog, my way of healing. I'm not looking for any consolation or pity. There is no need for I'm taking care of myself. Most can empathize as they have been in this place too. You get sad, angry, confused. Sometimes the pain can be so intense you can almost hold it in your hand.
You question yourself. What did I do wrong? What could I have done differently? Am I a bad person? Why couldn't this work out? Why did it have to end? Sometimes you question your own sanity. What I wrote earlier about the photographs is an example of the craziness that goes on in one's head. Your mind spins. You get dizzy. All kinds of thoughts entry your head. Again you wonder if you're going crazy.
I suppose this is a necessary process but by god, it's an awful one to deal with. Some will act on those crazy feelings and do things they will regret, often for the rest of their lives. Some will realize this will pass so they wait it out, holding off making any decisions until clearer thoughts prevail.
My woman was the most important thing in my life, a wonderful being that deserves to have the best life has to offer.. Someone I would have done anything for. She didn't intend to cause me this pain. Actually she was trying to protect me. It didn't take too long for saner thoughts to come back to me. I could NEVER do anything to cause her any harm of any type. She meant too much and still does. I will always be here if she needs anything. I am her Rock, maybe the only dependable force in her life. Know there is at least one true friend, lover, partner that wanted to take nothing from and share everything with her.
She was right; in the long term it would have never worked. The reasons don't matter but she knew it before I did and did what she had to do. A brave woman who loved me and still does, no doubt. Maybe it could have been more gently accomplished but she had her own turmoil in having to do this. We're humans after all; we do the best we can.
My heart holds a special place..... reserved just for her. There is a love that will not die. I want to thank her for the best year of my life. We had some great times together, shared new experiences and learned lots. I can hear her laughter even now, remember the fresh sweet scent of her, see that smile that can bring light to the darkest night. May she find happiness and peace, especially peace. Rise up phoenix; fly away. The world is yours for the taking.
.... and of the pictures? I knew my decision even while in turmoil but there was too much craziness in my head to act on anything. The pictures will be removed from my computer and I will archive her memory in the depths of my being......... for that is how I am made and she deserves nothing less.
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Stolen from a friend
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Posted:Jul 7, 2007 1:08 pm
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2007 6:27 am 2871 Views
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This was on a forum not sure if they really are bumper stickers but I thought it pretty funny so I post it here for your enjoyment. Thanks Sagacity & ginger.
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'Bondage is knot for everyone'
'Kinky as a cheap garden hose'
'If you're going to ride my ass, at least pull my hair'
'If it wasn't for sexual fantasies, I'd have no goals'
'I was a good girl... then I discovered nipple clamps'
'I'm a try-sexual'
'Yield: It's more fun'
'When I accepted this assignment, I distinctly understood that there were to be bizarre sexual experiments'
'32 flavours, and not one of them is vanilla'
'Love is a sacred bond... Tie her up!'
'Treat me like an old shoe... Tie me up tight and wear me out
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Wow what a ride!!!!!
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Posted:Jan 23, 2007 9:29 pm
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2007 8:36 pm 3295 Views
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Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming "WOW, WHAT A RIDE!!!!!!"
Peter Sage
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Wine vs Water
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Posted:Jan 17, 2007 11:59 pm
Last Updated:Apr 6, 2007 7:10 pm 3376 Views
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Every once in a while I run across something profound and feel the need to share it.
> Wine -vs- Water
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> It has been scientifically proven that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop!
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> However, we do not run that risk when drinking wine (or rum, whiskey, vodka, beer or other liquors) because alcohol has to go through a distillation process of boiling, filtering, and fermenting.
> It is better to drink wine and talk shit .... than to drink water and be full of shit. There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I am doing it as a public service.
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What would be your purpose in life?
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Posted:Dec 28, 2006 6:58 pm
Last Updated:Aug 6, 2007 7:23 pm 3587 Views
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If you were all alone in the universe with no one to talk to, no one
with which to share the beauty of the stars, to laugh with, to touch,
what would be your purpose in life? It is other life, it is love,
which gives your life meaning. This is harmony. We must discover the
joy of each other, the joy of challenge, the joy of growth.
Mitsugi Saotome
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