Post #2: What made me this way...
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Posted:Mar 3, 2020 6:09 pm
Last Updated:Mar 4, 2020 7:43 pm 1821 Views
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Isn't that what people always want to know? It's not enough to know the answer "I'm a sub/slave male looking for a female partner (or couple) to serve for their fantasies, entertainment and amusement". But, why am I like this?
Trust me, I had a very traditional lifestyle growing up. I was always a "good" athlete, student and active in church. I dated and married my high school sweetheart. Basically, everything you would expect in small town USA.
As my marriage developed and the came along I tried to be creative and add some "spice" to the relationship. As time passed I introduced blindfolds, restraints and some toys. She had very little interest but would occasionally allow me to take control. It was never anything close to extreme and in fact very laid back and mellow. I would always ask if she wanted to take control and bound and blindfold me but to my disappointment she always said "no". This actually started to feed my desire and hunger to be a submissive.
Through the years, life starts to pass you bye. One thing led to another and I found out she was having an affair. I was extremely hurt and yet I begged her not to leave. I basically became a chastity cuck. I would do all the housework so she could go out with the "girls" clubbing. She stopped having sex with me, referring to me more as her roommate than her spouse. And yet I still begged her not to leave.
At this point it's probably a good thing she wasn't kinky because God only knows what she could have had me do to stay. She finally filed for divorce and left. Taking with her my identity, pride and purpose. I didn't (still don't) want her back but at the same time there was a huge void missing in my life. And this is where we will pick up in post # 3. Thank you
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A lost sub,/slave in rural Iowa
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Posted:Mar 1, 2020 6:47 pm
Last Updated:Mar 3, 2020 4:31 am 1920 Views
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For those of you who live in the city it's hard to imagine what life is like as a submissive or slave male. A guy just can't walk up to a woman at the bar and ask her if she would like to blindfold you and put you into bondage. It also takes toys and strap-on out of the question.
As a sub male you are reduced to searching sites like these. Hoping some day lightening strikes and that special Domme woman or couple reaches out and finds you. Until then you stagger through life knowing something is missing.
Life is an everlasting journey and you never know what you will find in your next step. Enjoy the journey and embrace the adventure. I'm not sure how this blog will develop, but each promises to be it's own story. I look forward to the experience.
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