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[COLOR pink][SIZE 4]With the hand-washing completed, and while I wait for the washing machine to finish spinning, I’ve time to adjust my profile. So much for being a chameleon slut, I’m more a laundry knave. Because of [post 792383], I’ve been mostly inactive on this site.
Since July 2010 I’ve been living with my Mother caring for her full time, enabling Mum to live in her own home and hopefully die in her own bed.
I believe I am doing what I am meant to do. If a can’t honour his Mother’s wish, how can he as a man be expected to honour the wishes of another woman?
I’m now living in a small country town in Northern NSW. I don’t have much opportunity to play and submit, but I am trying to do my bit for kink, corrupting the odd local, hopefully awakening women to the potential of their power and the wonderful world of Alt.
The washing machine has finished spinning. Time to get off my butt plug and do some pegging. I’ll be back later to do some more profile tweaking. I might even add another post to my blog.
Until then, here’s my old profile…[/SIZE][/COLOR]
I am heterosexual submissive and masochistic male who believes in the innate superiority of the females of our species over the male. I have quested for a nurturingly sadistic Dominant Woman to serve, honour, worship, obey and love. My desire and dream is to be collared, to be owned, to be her slave 24/7. Until then I'm Just your common ole garden slut who can't get enough cunnilingus.
I first experienced the wondrous reality of BDSM seventeen years ago. For a short time I was a slave and I felt contentment like I have never felt since.
I looked for love, contentment and acceptance in all the wrong places. Vanilla relationships did not work for me. Eight of the past 17 years were spent in two vanilla relationships that were wonderful for much of their time, yet ended so painfully, as eventually my submissive and masochistic desires began to repulse my vanilla partners.
To those who wish or need to know, I no longer hide or lie about my nature. I am submissive to women. I am masochistic. I am service oriented. I have a need to please.
I crave erotic pain - the cathartic release, the caress of the lash, the bite of a crop, the loving sting that a cane brings. I adore the company of sadistic women - women aroused by making their men suffer for their pleasure. Nothing purges me of guilt, or feelings of unhappiness more than to submit to her sadistic love and desires. Afterwards, I feel a man, the most masculine I feel. I am a man who knows his place is under the control of a nurturing sadist.
I am not an alpha male. I have no desire to compete with other males. I do not play sport and I loathe watching it. I prefer the company of women, especially dominant and sadistic women.
I am a nurse and carer, an occupation that suits my nature. I have worked in aged care for twenty years and am now studying to become a Registered Nurse. I want to work in a female controlled industry - again because of my nature.
I started a blog [blog michael4005] in September 2007. I outlined the rationale for blogging in my first post [post 371769], and I believe in the
main, I have stuck to this. My is long-winded, verbose, and angst ridden. I am told that it is sometimes painful to read because I am so painfully honest (if only). I have lived too much of my life hidden - lying. I blog and I try to reveal. I try to strip away my lies and deceit. I do not want to hide anymore.
For more than two years my profile here has included the following paragraph...
[i]Of late I have come to the conclusion that I may have missed my life's calling - to be a to dominant women - a male slut and man for any woman who commands me. Being profoundly vicarious, I crave your pleasure as my pleasure, and believe your pleasure is more important than mine.[/i]
Oh to be a man slut and , in the service of a Woman's pleasure. I wish I could be so. To be summonsed, commanded to please, to aid in your pleasure whatever it may be. Honour done, pleasure given, to leave you content, relaxed, happy, a smile on your lips, Goddesshood renewed or restored. That is my dream. Just a fantasy? Mostly so far. And yet I hope...
I have made many friends on alt.com, and I value the community that alt engenders.
[if254 1]
My Ideal Person:
Perhaps you?
A woman. Friend or lover. Both?
One who appreciates my traits and desires.
A Goddess. You?
I look forward to a time when FemmeDomme relationships are as mainstream and accepted as any other relationship. For such a cultural paradigm to occur, I believe it is the duty of every submissive male to be supportive and encouraging of any woman who seeks to explore the wonders of Alt.com.
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