What am I looking for?
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Posted:Oct 17, 2017 12:45 am
Last Updated:Dec 16, 2020 4:16 am 2300 Views
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It has now been about a year since I became single again. Have been asked over and over what am I looking for. At first, I wasn’t looking for anything, I just wanted to heal. Part of my healing was seeing I am not perfect in fact I am very imperfect. I could write a list of how imperfect I am… maybe another time. Lol I have since excepted that I am not perfect, then I realized I would have to be able to except that whoever I connect with be it a Dom, or a friend that they too are imperfect just as I am. Coming to a deeper understanding that I am not perfect does not by any means give me a reason not to be the best I can be. In fact, I think it given me more reason, to strive to be my best in what I do. Another part of my healing was a bit more difficult and that was realizing that someone can’t always be there for me that there will be times I must trust myself to figure out how to get through whatever I am going through. Trusting myself that was a big one for me, I am still working on it and I am getting better at it. Now don’t get me wrong I do trust myself in many ways, but there are times I don’t. In the past year there are things that have come up, were I had to trust myself to find answer for myself and you know what, I did. Which leads me to the thought that there are times in our lives each of us must be self-trusting, because sometimes there is no one else. Think about it, how can I trust someone else if I can’t trust me? How can someone trust me if I can’t trust myself? This realization has been a huge for me and has allowed me to grow as a person. One of the other things I realized during my healing period was that whatever my reality, is it may not be someone else’s reality. Each person’s reality is based on their own experiences and interpretation of those events that have influenced their lives to the point of influencing how they see the world around them. Has it made them more open minded or maybe more closed minded, whatever it might have done, it is their or my reality. In realizing this I have found I need to be more excepting not everyone reality is mine and my reality is not always theirs. So, what does this all have to do with the question what am I looking for? Well at, first I was looking for me, now I am looking for…. I don’t know but I will know it when I stubble upon it, be it friends or something more.
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Night
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Posted:Oct 8, 2017 3:09 pm
Last Updated:Oct 17, 2017 2:53 am 2695 Views
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Twilight settles between the branches, winds rest upon the motionless leaves
Slumber has come to those once awake, nocturnal creatures awaken
Thus, she comes softy stepping into darkness, her face hidden behind a misty vail
She softly sings
From the depths of forgotten dreams, she rises and spins her web
She drinks of the sweet nectar of life like the finest of wines, staining her sweetened lips
Formless shadow cloaked, she slips into the depths ocean waves
Softly she sings
From the flames of desires, she stirs, smoldering
From her comes that cannot be seen and so inflames senses beyond sight
Reaches out her slender hands, brings forth fruits
Softly she sings
For her’s is not by day, night seeks that which is her’s
Forgotten in time, searching until dawns new light
Back into the shadow whose depths have become her home
Softly she sings, her eyes gently close
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Do we see not…
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Posted:Sep 27, 2017 5:58 am
Last Updated:Sep 28, 2017 3:21 am 3967 Views
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Journey faded, path unknown, swift of foot, light of step
Quick to wander, slow to see, daft of hearing but one beat
The feel of another, the voice of a soul, speaks not external,
Internal voice of service, of truest freedom given, bond in ribbon of flight
Do we see not the shadow cast down?
Harken, unto the winds of the north, the fires of the south
Passions rage, fears released, emotions softened, love unbound
Breathe deeply the air sweetly, taste the waters refresh, to hearth and home
Forget me not, visions remembered, shackled in thought
Do we see not the lights glowing?
Seeing not, upon a pool weeping, no sorrow, joyous new day
No promise given, no word voiced, no sound uttered, cries stifled
Soft in touch with care taken, lovers entwined, for time forgotten
Desires abound, dance internal, chained in rhythm, drum beats on
Do we see not the new dawn?
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Only Love
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Posted:Sep 26, 2017 5:15 pm
Last Updated:Oct 2, 2017 9:38 am 5614 Views
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Seasons change, summer into fall and fall in winter... and so on.
Once belonging to another, now alone, seeking what is not there
The pain is gone, what is left is the bitter sweet.
Balance once was, that is now, and what is to come… scale in hand.
The slowing of the ticking clock, as life just seems to be beginning, not knowing.
Wonders the shadows, as the gray dawn raises.
Journey foreseen, stumbling and elder, one to the other, together.
Drums not of war, but Drums in harmony, delicate as the finest flute.
Comes tenderly to passion a joyful renewal, beyond that which is external, but of the soul.
There is no plundering, no monetary value, only truest of one ‘self.
Peace with in Peace, truth with in truth, love with in love, so can it be.
Lay aside the tears, weep not, for there is sweet peace beyond the pain
Raise above the pain, fly with sweeping wings, freedom is near
For it comes not from a nation torn, but in a fleeting moment as souls fly in unison.
There is nothing to compare, nothing to seek of truth, nothing beyond, only Love.
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A little's response to why sleep?
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Posted:Sep 1, 2017 9:20 am
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 5:45 am 4107 Views
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Well because see this little fairy like person hit me over the head with this long log like thingy. Wich in turn made the hamster in my brain stop running, so that the stings to the rest of my body went poof so body stopped moving. Good news is I have recovered nicely from that thing called sleep and or the dreaded bed time.
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The Joining
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Posted:Apr 14, 2017 6:04 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2024 5:45 am 4798 Views
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She didn’t see him, standing there in the mist of her mind
He watched, as the mist lifted from her mind
She didn’t see him, sitting there as the sunrise peeked over the horizon
He watched, as her beauty transcended that of the sunrise
She didn’t see him, laying there as the stars crossed the sky
He watched, as she crossed heaven and earth to take his hand
She sees only him, He watches only her, they become one
They are joined, in their minds
One in thought
They are joined, standing for the start of a new beginning
One in spirit
They are joined, as they lay intertwined under a blanket of eternal starlight
One in body
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The Hands
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Posted:Apr 12, 2017 7:35 am
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2017 6:00 am 5335 Views
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The Hands
Softly the rains come, promises of spring abounds.
Gentle is the hands that plants the seed
Carefully the hands tend the ground around the seed
Shyly she peeks from her shell into the dark world
Diligently she seeks the warmth of the spring sunlight
Bravely she pushes on, growing up wards, until at last…
Finally, she feels the warmth of the sun on her skin.
Careful are the hands that pulls the weeds from around the seedling
Loving are the hands that care for the growing young plant.
Skillful are the hands that tends for the needs of the budding rose.
Thankful is she for the care she has received from the hands
Lovingly she blooms that the hands might pick her
Willingly she gives the hands, all the beauty she holds with in
With pride does the hands pick the single white rose that gave them her all and presents her for all the world to see.
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The Voice
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Posted:Apr 11, 2017 6:21 am
Last Updated:Sep 27, 2017 6:01 am 5187 Views
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The music has just begun
V/voices lowered
The beat of two drums in rhythm
V/voices hushed
The song yet to come
V/voices silenced
she stands, eyes lowered
One voice speaks
she sways to the One voice
One voice whispers
she kneels, reaching out
One voice comforts
she weeps no more
One voice gives all
she is complete.
by ms_kit
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