Flirting with Masochism....
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Posted:Jan 14, 2021 2:28 pm
Last Updated:Jul 30, 2022 2:16 pm 10240 Views
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Is it possible become more masochistic over time?
I know we all grow and change in this Lifestyle and limits are meant be pushed, and we probably all have stories about things that earlier in our kink career that were taboo, but now we have tried them and even enjoy them.
When I came back to Alt after a long absence it was just to blog, to try to get back in touch, or deeper in touch with my submissive side, maybe make some friends, have a laugh or too. Grow in who I am as a submissive, and maybe learn a few things.
So lately I have found my fantasy’s becoming much more………..dar I don’t want say violent, but they kind of are. I fantasize about being hurt, (not harmed mind you), but hurt in a way that I never imagined I would. That sweet sting of pain. I crave it in my fantasies at least. Now that’s obviously way different from experiencing it in reality. It may happen and I’ll be like, oh, no, please Sir, ooowwww, that really fucking hurts, oh my God, oh my God, and then realize that nope-I was right before; not a maso.
Do you think one’s tolerance grows the longer you are subjected to it? Does it depend on your mood? The implement? The intention?
I’m not looking for a Dom, but I really am craving a safe space to experiment with the idea of this.
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The Ugly Cry
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Posted:Jan 13, 2021 10:59 am
Last Updated:Aug 8, 2023 3:11 pm 9617 Views
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So ’s over.
You’ve been spanked/flogged/fucked/paddled/whipped/bound/spread/clamped...whatever you and He are into, within an inch of your limits. Maybe you’ve tackled some emotional hotspot buttons, maybe not. You have your Dom, your blanket, your glass of water. Then it starts. The crying. I’m not talking about that sweet, eyelash fluttering, thank you Sir, of the few shed tears. I’m talking about the ugly cry. You know the one. The sobbing, the shaking shoulders, the wailing, the hiccupping; the can’t catch your breath cry. The unable to even articulate what your coming undone about cry. There’s probably snot involved. I know it release of adrenaline, and dopamine and stress, but ’s so much more. ’s every self-doubt, every bit of loneliness. It’s self-loathing body image issues, ’s fear, rage, sadness. ’s emotions you can’t even put a name . ’s every time you wanted cry, but didn’t. ’s accomplishments unacknowledged, and disappointments long forgotten. ’s a traumatic incident, ’s feeling like you’re not enough. ’s every broken heart. And comes pouring out of you in this raging torrent that you can’t stop. A catharsis. Eventually winds down deep shuddering breaths, little whimpering sniffles. And then it stops. And it freedom. And you are empty. Like that poison is gone from your system. A million pounds lighter. Released. You feel like you can finally draw a full breath again.
That. I want that.
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The Canvas
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Posted:Jan 10, 2021 1:49 pm
Last Updated:Apr 17, 2023 8:28 am 8958 Views
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I stand before him, bound and spread
A naked canvas for Him unleash His desires on
A soft brush of fingertips along my side-the palest pink
A growl in my ear, the most beautiful cerulean blue
I am painted in pleasure and pain
In joy and agony
In control and surrender
I am painted with the broadest of strokes,
And the most precise pinpricks of
Orange
Crimson
Sunburst
Noir
Lavender
Emerald
Midnight
The paint splashes upon me
Covers me
Engulfs me.
My Maestro
He draws on decades spent perfecting His craft
His voice, his hands his tools,
All brushes used to create beauty
And when it is done
And I stand spent before him
I am His Masterpiece
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Surprise!!
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Posted:Jan 9, 2021 10:06 am
Last Updated:Jan 13, 2021 1:00 pm 9096 Views
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So the lovely and gracious MineSirsSub has been very busy lately, and gone off and left her blog unattended!!
I feel a bit of shenanigans should commence, so I'm heading over redecorate and and have a bit of a soiree.
I plan on bringing silly string, a kiddie pool filled with jello, LOT'S of vodka, and sparkly pillows. Sone else will have bring the St. Andrews Cross, as 's heavy for me.
What are you going bring?
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Do you have a saddle for that thing?
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Posted:Jan 8, 2021 9:00 pm
Last Updated:Jan 15, 2021 7:40 pm 6987 Views
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PSA
Please people, for the love of that is holy. Don't ask Great Danes owners that. It's stupid, it's annoying, and we've heard it a MILLION times.
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Bridgerton?
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Posted:Jan 8, 2021 8:52 pm
Last Updated:Jan 9, 2021 7:40 pm 5973 Views
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my goodness, just finished watching this....so fantastic.
Scrumptiuous, succulent. seductive, sassy. a feast for the eyes. In more ways than one.
I'm looking at you, Duke!!!
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A rose by any other name....
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Posted:Jan 6, 2021 7:33 pm
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2023 5:24 pm 4873 Views
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I've been wracking my brain, and my extensive vocabulary, to see if there is any one word, that even comes close to the feeling you get when you're about to play with a trusted Dom for the first time.
* it's the butterflies in the tummy feeling
* it's that sense of fear and danger, that really isn't fear or danger, because you know that your safety is paramount to Him
* it's that nervousness/hope that you can live up to His demands, and be a good girl
* it's that feeling that your skin is so sensitized to His touch, that you might come undone, at a soft stroke down your neck, shoulder and arm
*it's that eagerness to please Him
* it's that tremble in your legs, and the heavy dampness of your pussy
*it's that audible swallow as you're directed for the first time
*it's that trust of Him
*it's that sweet space of the universe shrinking until all it contains is Him, and your reaction to His Dominance
What's that called?
Also, just for the other half...how do you feel before starting a scene with a new sub?
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The Saga Continues.....
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Posted:Jan 6, 2021 2:10 pm
Last Updated:Jan 9, 2021 8:03 pm 4793 Views
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How do i text you?
Do you have what's app or hangout
No I don't have either Prince Hamdan
WOWWWW how do we get know better order than texting here ?
Well Prince, why don't you send one of your private jets over here pick and fly Dubai, and we can get know each other better that way? Maybe take a ride one some of your fine Arabian horses?
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Oh Goodie, the Prince is back!!
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Posted:Jan 4, 2021 7:28 pm
Last Updated:Jan 7, 2021 4:27 pm 5291 Views
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"Salam my beloved you look sexy and i really wish know more about you"
well this IS exciting, yes? Gosh what should I tell him about myself?
I'm not a fan of camels?
That I'm concerned that the dry Dubai heat will cause me get wrinkles?
Ask him how a burka works exactly?
Let him know I'd like my handcuffs made of rose gold?
Ask him if the election of Biden/Harris will affect gas prices?
My favorite color is red.
Who knew dealing with the aristocracy could be so challenging!!
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You can't make this shit up
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Posted:Jan 3, 2021 7:23 pm
Last Updated:Jan 6, 2021 2:12 pm 5438 Views
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So, "apparently", I just got an email from the Crown Prince of Dubai. Imagine my surprise!!
He is looking for someone who is honest.
Really?
The Crown Prince of Dubai got married in 2019. Perhaps he is looking to add to his harem?
He offered me Salam. To which I replied "Wa alaikum assalaam,"
I haven't heard back, and quite frankly, I'm crushed!!! Crushed!!!
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