Eyes Wide Shut
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Posted:Jul 18, 2014 9:36 am
Last Updated:Apr 14, 2021 7:33 am 91585 Views
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Or, making the same mistake twice.
So, have you ever tried to fit your square self, into a round hole?
I’ve been chatting with this Dominant. He’s lovely. In so many ways just a really good fit. He’s smart, and funny, and has that undefinable “something” that makes my knees go weak, and my panties get damp. Now, what works for me, may not work for you, but…..you know what I mean. The man that looks good in a suit, and a tee shirt and jeans. Strong hands, and a stronger mind. Confidence, not bluster. He has a……(fill in the blank) that really works for you. Then it all comes to a screeching halt. He’s poly. WHAT? Now I’ve read his blog. It was touched upon. Probably due to selective reading on my part I didn’t truly see it. Not seeing that he has a slave and is looking to add to his family.
Do you go ahead anyway? Do you think…maybe it’s worth it? Do you think......maybe I can make it work? Do you talk to your friends in poly relationships and see how/why it works for them? Do you think, hey, once he has me he won’t want anyone else? I mean if there is anything that plays to my insecurities more than being thought “not enough” I don’t know what it would be.
For me it has shades of the last time I was here on Alt. I fell madly, passionately, head over heels in love with RB. He was perfect. He was married. He broke my heart into a million pieces. It still hurts. If he snapped his fingers, I know I would go running to him. He’s not married anymore, but he’s moved on. Without me.
So here I am again. Not in love. We’ve just started. Is the potential there? Oh hell yes. Should I just stop now? It would be the smart thing to do. If I’m being utterly truly honest with myself, I know this won’t work. I know I don’t want a poly relationship. I know that in this ONE way. This ONE, important way—it won’t work. Regardless of all the other ways it does work.
I really like chatting with him. I should probably stop. Give him the space he needs to find what he seeks, while I use my time more productively as well. The more we talk, the more I want. The more I want, the more I delude myself into thinking…….maybe?
I’d like to remain friends with him. I just don’t know if that’s possible.
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Open to Interpretation
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Posted:Jul 12, 2014 1:50 pm
Last Updated:Jul 23, 2014 7:33 am 97425 Views
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So I'm driving to the grocery store today, and I see this bumper sticker that says "I LOVE WATERSPORTS"
Hmmmmmm.
Now, I realize it PROBABLY wasn't meant in the kinky direction my mind went. But honestly, there wasn't a picture of a little canoe, or a person swimming, nary a semaphore flag in site. Nada. So you can see, where a person might take that in an "alt" manner.
Seen any other kinky bumper stickers?
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Profile Style
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Posted:Jun 29, 2014 10:54 am
Last Updated:Oct 24, 2020 8:05 pm 103191 Views
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So, does anyone look at/perv/read profiles anymore? Apparently, since I'm such a "popular" chick on Alt, I get this shiny gold membership, so now I can view profiles at my will. Oh gee, lucky me!! All I have to say about that is, I'm glad computers haven't advanced to 3D viewing yet; lest my eye be taken out EVERY time I log in. Sheesh guys, seriously? Hey, it's your profile, you can post whatever pic you so desire. But for me personally, if a cock shot is your main photo, it's pretty much a guarantee that I will NOT be clicking on it. A nice chest shot, sure. A cute pair of buns, bring it on. Your toy collection, a picture of a tied up sub, just the color red-I'm all for it. But if that's all you have to offer; well, sorry it's not happening.
I must say, I don't usually even peruse profiles, unless someone has sent me an email. Or I've wandered into their blog, or they've commented on some ramblings I've made.
Actually the photo issue wasn't even the purpose of this post. I want to talk content. Does a one line profile indicate....what? I can understand; just here to blog, or owned by so-and-so, not looking right now, or currently in a relationship. But if you are looking, wouldn't you try to pique someone's interest with your profile? Or is it a casual, meh, let's see what happens.
I've seen some outstanding profiles that make me go...Wow-they really "get it", and a whole lot more of the other end of the spectrum.
What do you think? Do you take a chance with a nominal profile?
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Oompah Loompahs, Bondage and Yoga
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Posted:Jun 28, 2014 3:14 pm
Last Updated:Jul 22, 2014 11:32 am 101133 Views
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A bit about me.
Delightful 2ndTimeHere was doing a delicious recipe in his blog; a multi-part series. But rather than relax in the blogesphere living room, perhaps drinking a lovely glass of wine, letting things unfold as they may--I had to bounce all up on him ,like a Labrador Retriever with ADHA...whatdaya doing *poke poke*....whatcha making??? *bounce bounce*...is it pesto? *poke poke*....is it ready? huh huh? For which, I might add, I was suitably chastised. All in a subbies day work
Rather than enjoy the process, I was focused on the end result. I am an "I want a Oompah Loompah NOW" kinda chick--always have been, probably always will be. In my first Alt incarnation, I found to my detriment that impatience is a bad thing. Now, a bit older, hopefully a bit wiser I try to take my time and savor the moment. But it's hard. Really hard. Even in yoga class, I find I forget to breathe-which really, is the whole point of the thing. I'll be in my asana, focusing on grounding in one area, flexing this area, releasing another-that all of a sudden it's like...*gasp* oh yeah breathing...can't forget to breathe, Perhaps meditation would work, but my mind races constantly.
Maybe that's why I like bondage so much. It forces me to just,....be. That's lovely. Scening in general makes me get out of my head, and into my body. God I miss it.
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Know why the Internet was created?
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Posted:Jun 21, 2014 6:33 am
Last Updated:Jul 24, 2014 11:33 am 111372 Views
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So I could sit here, drinking my coffee, and watch a video of a Greyhound in adorable Batman pajamas, zooming around. All set to the music of, what else?....Batman. Hysterical.
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MMmmmmm.......Dominants
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Posted:Jun 9, 2014 1:09 pm
Last Updated:Jul 12, 2014 1:57 pm 106518 Views
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What is it, exactly, about Dominant men that make a lil subbie girl go weak in the knees?
I mean, is it their intelligence? I must say, without a doubt, some of the smartest men I've ever met have been Dominant, but there are a far greater number who fall a few sandwiches short of a picnic I must say.
Is it strength? but men as a genetic whole are stronger than most women (or at least have more muscle mass, let's put it that way).
Is it a feeling of being protected? cherished?...again something one can find in most healthy vanilla relationships.
What is it that brings that soft, shy, sexy half smile to your face....the one that says, oh my, oh yes, oh please indeed. It isn't even a proximity thing.....there are some who I've emailed, or chatted with, or just read their blog, and been like.....oh yes, that's the business right there. It's a feeling they engender. A visceral reaction to Mastery...the Mastery they have over themselves.
It's not the idiots who open with "on your knees bitch". Honestly, it tends not to be the ones with the cock shots for a profile photo either. It's more than just knowing how to use a flogger or owning a pair of handcuffs. It's so much more than just wanting kinky sex.
Is it my submissive inclinations? That doesn't make sense, because not all (so called Dominants) get that kind of response from me.
Is it a quiet confidence?
Is it an Alpha male undeterred by society's feminization of men?
Is it "that look"? You know the one I'm talking about.
Is it a well fitting suit? *L*
Well, whatever it is, major, major kudos to those that have it.
Enchante
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BRING IT HOME CHROME!!!
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Posted:Jun 4, 2014 11:10 am
Last Updated:Jun 6, 2014 8:35 am 92857 Views
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I hope you all will join me in sending up a most fervent and heartfelt prayer to the capricious racing Gods.
Please let California Chrome take the wire at Belmont this Saturday.
Let him not be overtaken in the stretch by a well rested Samraat or Commanding Curve.
Let us have a Triple Crown Champion for the first time since 1978. Grace him with the endurance and stamina to run the mile and a half at "Big Sandy".
May there be a safe trip for all the horses, and a win for all the "little guys", and fans of the Sport of Kings.
In the name of Sir Barton, Gallant Fox, Omaha, War Admiral, Whirlaway, Count Fleet, Assault, Citation, Secretariat, Seattle Slew and Affirmed, please make it so.
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A question for Dom/mes
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Posted:Jun 1, 2014 12:32 pm
Last Updated:Jul 12, 2014 1:56 pm 34757 Views
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Sharing.
I'm not sure exactly why this subject came to mind the other day. But it did. So here I am, hoping to get some input from the Alt kinksters. Dom or sub, please feel free to share (no pun intended) your thoughts.
Are there any Doms out there that "share" your sub? If so, is it with another Dom of the same sex, or different sex? is it at the subs request or yours? If your sub came to you and said they would like a 2 Dom scene, would you accommodate them? Do Doms even share in the first place? Seems to me, that y'all probably failed that class in kindergarten . Is there a sub vs slave element that perhaps I'm missing here? Is it strictly BDSM play, or is sex involved? would one situation be more acceptable than another? If a sub we're to bring this issue up, would it be insulting to their Dominant? a sort of inferred,..."your not enough"?
I'm just trying to figure out how this would work. I mean, on one hand you would have a Dom that you already know and have a relationship with, how does a newcomer fit in? Would any Doms replying consider being the additional Dom in this scenario?
Is it different if the sub or Dom want to bring in another submissive?
I think all these possible permutations are making my head spin.
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